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ChucklesCheebah said: If you are a true psychopath that feels no empathy i dont believe psychedelics will cause you to feel empathy. They will most likely teach you to be a more creative psychopath. Charles Manson loved psychedelics. If you truly are a man that has zero empathy and you are seeking to find empathy then I respect that you are trying to find help but if you are trying to legitimately find help then that would show you have at least a glimmer of empathy inside you. I wish you the best of luck in your journey
^ this. someone with no empathy and no emotions has no sense of curiosity, and thus, no interest in wanting to know from another person's perspective. in other words, they have no interest in wanting to feel emotions. the fact that you are curious and seeking this means that you DO have emotions, and thus, you are not a psychopath.
if you remain calm under stressful situations, that may not be "normal", but the thing is, normal is not a thing. there is no "perfectly average man" with perfectly normal brown hair, perfectly average 5 foot 9" height, brown eyes, etc... it's just a composite of everything, of which everyone may have a few of these common traits... and a HELL OF A LOTTA quirks that fall WAY outside this average. the thing is, i also stay calm under most stressful situations. earthquake? "oh dammit, everyone move to the exit please." car about to smash into mine head on? first thing i do is react and dodge (while my passengers scream), THEN swear and cuss at the bastard (or honk my horn) after the danger has passed. i've even sometimes continued singing if i was in the middle of doing so while driving alone, while dodging them. but despite staying calm under stress, i feel emotions just fine, even though when i was younger, i had tons of fears and doubts that i didn't feel emotions at all. it took years upon years to finally realize how silly i was being, especially since my fears of not being able to feel emotions... are an manifestation of emotion itself.
if you let fear be the dominant emotion of your life, it sucks up all the joy, happiness, and other positive emotions out of you. when that happens, you're unable to see the good in things, and the world seems a darker place. even other people's actions and expressions seem more sinister - those people huddled talking to each other? are they just two friends chatting with each other, or ARE THEY TALKING BAD THINGS ABOUT YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK!??! (they're just friends chatting. seriously. or they might be talking about how cute you are, actually. )
the fact that you are seeking growth suggests to me that you simply are a good person that recognizes that your soul (or whatever you believe passes for one) is sick and is in need of some tender loving care. this is nothing to be ashamed of! everyone, and i do mean EVERYONE, hits these low points in their life - to seek help and growth isn't a sign of weakness, but true wisdom. it's not easy to ask for help, nor to make the decision to improve one's inner self, but it IS one of the best decisions you can ever make, as is improving one's physical and mental health. cultivate your ability to empathize, to feel emotions, and learn to love. start by learning to love yourself - as you are, right now, this very moment, every single talent, and every single flaw. you're not perfect; no one is - but you're a masterpiece in progress, and you got dreams. and if not, that's fine! try new hobbies, see what sparks your interest, and eventually you'll start to understand yourself better along the way. life's a journey - enjoy the walk, don't rush to the end! there's nothing of interest at the end. :P
and might i suggest, maybe possibly move away from your current situation? it almost sounds a lot like my own childhood in some ways. my parents were highly religious, very strict, and i never really fit in there. it was extremely stressful, despite them never really physically abusing me or anything...but i could never be myself around them. it was like a prison, keeping me from growing. it wasn't until i moved away that i finally started to feel happiness and true emotions, and it still took the space of a year or so (and my first shroom trip, ironically - maybe that helped the reality of it set in) to break that depression.
that's just a guess though.
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