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20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience 7
#27049737 - 11/21/20 12:06 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Last night I took 2g of penis envy And 3.5g of Ecuadorian. I waited a couple hours and I was tripping hard but it wasn't a very visual trip. So I decided to take more mushrooms. I grabbed my jar of penis envy and started to eat. I didn't weigh any mushrooms out but nearly ate the whole damn jar, which was as much as 25 grams. I don't know why I did this, I just didn't stop eating. Maybe a little arrogant, maybe a little ignorant but this trip absolutely blew and shattered my mind.
I was completely immersed in visuals before I was finished eating the mushrooms. I closed my eyes and saw a familiar creature from past trips. I asked it to make it's presence known. It didn't have any defining body parts. It was a blob of color. It communicated with frequencies, color, and telepathically put feelings into me. It all made perfect sense but I don't remember what it was trying to tell me. More creatures started appearing and they were becoming more and more abstract. Soon I remember being stuck between what seemed like worlds of color. The color was transforming and morphing and seemed to be alive. Ai ceased to exist and all I could do was look at it. I couldn't think, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. It just was. I was just stuck in this foreign place for what seemed like an eternity. Could have been as much as 1 hour in real time.
I began to feel very sick to my stomach. I managed to get up and find my way to the bathroom just in time. This is where things get really weird. I began vomiting explosively and I absolutely could not tell if the vomit was coming out of me or coming into me. Time did not make sense, I couldn't tell which direction time was going and time seemed to split. At this point I was in full on open eye hallucinations. I absolutely thought that I had died and that my soul was being held captive in another dimension in a foreign society. These creatures were asking me who I was and what I was doing there, I didn't feel like I belonged in this realm. All while this was happening, I could see nothing but 2 infinite fractals, like when you look into 2 mirrors but it was doubled. Its really hard to explain but it felt like I was at the edge of the universe, that I was moving on these fractals but also rolling back to where I was. I thought for sure I was permanently insane.
I managed to make it back to my bedroom and lie down. But I was panicked, legit thinking I was no more. I managed to call my sister and explain what was happening. All I could say was "I'm ok, please don't call the police, I'm having a hard time communicating, I took mushrooms, Im being held captive by aliens." Talking on the phone helped ground me but I was still seeing creatures everywhere. They didn't seem as scary and had good intentions. I told my sister how much I loved her and kept telling her how genuine and authentic these creatures were. That they had nothing but purely good intentions and that nothing is more important than family and love. That they were concerned about the planet earth and that they were encouraging me to help as many people in need as I can. My sister was rather amused at the complete insanity of what she was hearing me say. She has never tripped. I got off the phone and became immersed in visions.
At this point of the trip it became like a lucid dream. Anything I could think of would manifest in a vision and I could go anywhere I thought of. I had never experienced this before while tripping. It was a lot like the movie avatar. I could see jungles and creatures and a very intricate alien planet. It was very enjoyable.
I tripped HARD and had strong visions for 12 hours. It's been over 24 hours and Im no longer tripping but i still don't feel 100% sober yet. The intensity was unreal and something Ive never experienced before and don't want to experience again. I wouldn't call it a bad trip, but it certainly wasn't a comfortable trip. It was complete ego death and insanity. I don't plan on tripping again for a very long time. I'm relieved to have my mind back. That was an incomprehensible mindfuck.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27049806 - 11/21/20 02:22 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Thatβs the thing with mushrooms. If you take enough, you can lose your sense of time, and you might feel like youβll be stuck like that forever. Welcome back lol
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: ProfessorG504]
#27050394 - 11/21/20 12:24 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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For having consumed extra, you should expect to do extra work integrating the experience. In other words, your challenge has only begun.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: LeafRaker]
#27050487 - 11/21/20 01:46 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sounds like the thing to integrate from this insane of an experience is to not do it again lol that lucid-dreaming part sounds neat though
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27050596 - 11/21/20 03:15 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Rise against said: I began vomiting explosively and I absolutely could not tell if the vomit was coming out of me or coming into me. Time did not make sense, I couldn't tell which direction time was going and time seemed to split.
You KNOW you're tripping when that shit starts. Glad you had a good time, so to speak.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: PrimalSoup]
#27050747 - 11/21/20 04:56 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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That sounds amazing and obviously scary at the same time. It does sound pretty reckless to dose so much PE but you just went with the flow and that's what matters. Glad things didn't go completely south after the purge and that you got to meet entities. I know I haven't yet, or at least none that stayed long enough for me to acknowledge them.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: jomanda1990]
#27051344 - 11/21/20 11:49 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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LeafRaker said: For having consumed extra, you should expect to do extra work integrating the experience. In other words, your challenge has only begun.
Thinking about that trip a lot. It's hard to remember a lot of it. I think i may have blacked out at certain points. I think it was positive overall though. Strong messages of being kind, generous, loving, and accepting of myself. I drove 5 hours one way this weekend to help my brother in law roof his garage. Wasn't something I was going to do but had a change of heart.
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InnerWisdom said: Sounds like the thing to integrate from this insane of an experience is to not do it again lol that lucid-dreaming part sounds neat though
I would agree. That was an excessively large dose and the trip had potential to become dark and terrifying. I never plan to take a dose that large again. Thankfully I didn't go to any really dark places during the trip. The mushrooms spared me.
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jomanda1990 said: That sounds amazing and obviously scary at the same time. It does sound pretty reckless to dose so much PE but you just went with the flow and that's what matters. Glad things didn't go completely south after the purge and that you got to meet entities. I know I haven't yet, or at least none that stayed long enough for me to acknowledge them.
Thanks for sharing your story.
I've met entities a few times. All on pretty large doses. First time I met entities was on mushrooms and roughly a 7 or 8g dose. I saw Insectoids and robotic creatures and also the same "blob" I saw this trip. Then I met a god like entity when combining 250ug of lsd with 4g of mushrooms, that was an absolutely amazing experience. Then this trip I saw lots of creatures.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27052403 - 11/22/20 02:57 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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funny you should mention taking more because the trip wasn't especially visual. i oftentimes have the same feeling, wonder where this want for visuals comes from. feel like i'm chasing confirmation of the numinous through them or something...
my friend told me that the entities he sees get mad at him if he concentrates too much on their appearance. and that their appearance never stays fixed (kind of like they'd be formed of constantly moving fractals).
been thinking whether visuals take bandwidth away from other things that then don't have the opportunity to be expressed. lol just to deal with not seeing visuals as easily anymore
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against] 2
#27054138 - 11/23/20 03:12 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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The fact that it was such a big amount of Penis Envy mushrooms you ate also had a lot to do it with. Any PE is much much more potent than any other Cubensis mushrooms. I definitely would of been feeling scared and I would of had a bad unenjoyable trip also.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: psycho_nauticus]
#27054604 - 11/23/20 08:31 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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psycho_nauticus said: The fact that it was such a big amount of Penis Envy mushrooms you ate also had a lot to do it with. Any PE is much much more potent than any other Cubensis mushrooms. I definitely would of been feeling scared and I would of had a bad unenjoyable trip also.
Wouldn't call it a bad trip, but rather a difficult trip. But yeah, penis envy is pretty potent and this batch is certainly more potent than my batch of Ecuadorian. Although 25g of any cubensis is gonna send you to the moon. I think the mistake I made was dosing while I was already tripping hard without measuring out a reasonable dose. For some reason it's like I forgot to stop and just kept mindlessly eating them.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27056351 - 11/24/20 10:05 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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πππππππ And it took you to places where you may never have taken yourself, the high doses really are where it's at
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Yadawe137]
#27056366 - 11/24/20 10:14 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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your prob lucky u were almost coming down from a very strong dose before u ate all those extras! i suspect if at 15 grams at once would be just as intense! no way to know.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Yadawe137]
#27056456 - 11/25/20 12:19 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yadawe137 said: πππππππ And it took you to places where you may never have taken yourself, the high doses really are where it's at
Agreed, took me to a place that my imagination alone could not possibly fathom
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: ProfessorG504]
#27056460 - 11/25/20 12:22 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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ProfessorG504 said: Thatβs the thing with mushrooms. If you take enough, you can lose your sense of time, and you might feel like youβll be stuck like that forever. Welcome back lol
Yes, lol. I've heard monks call it "the lesser lights" on high doses of psychs, meaning "You might not come back if you enter that area, bro", lmao.
 
Great story, OP! Glad you made it back ok!
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27072902 - 12/05/20 03:25 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Man, I wish you knew exactly what the dosage on that really was...
Anyway it's funny, because I've read comments like this:
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... Many times in "too high dose" trip reports.
But personally, the only substance that truly got me to that point was smoking DMT. Then I had the forgot-i-even-took-a-drug, surely-I'm-dead / I'm-in-literal-Hell experience. Pretty scary.
Though I have had a few others where i had the feeling I've damaged myself and I'm permenantly insane... Another time on DMT, one on about 10-ish grams of unusually potent shrooms, and I think I felt that way after smoking salvia once or twice lol.
But yeah, that gratitude and relief for having your sanity back after a ride like that, is almost palpable.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: CidneyIndole]
#27074464 - 12/06/20 01:18 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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There is much similarity in these trips with dreams where you have an experience that you are certain is true. I just woke up from a dream where I had timetraveled and wanted to go back to my reality with the help of some people. I was in the dream testing my senses and all seemed so real.
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: InnerWisdom]
#27074465 - 12/06/20 01:19 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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So OP, how have you recovered from the trip?
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: InnerWisdom]
#27074487 - 12/06/20 01:54 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Crazy. At my highest doses (~7g) I couldn't really most of the peak. Glad you could come back with something tangible
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: InnerWisdom]
#27077846 - 12/07/20 09:03 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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InnerWisdom said: So OP, how have you recovered from the trip?
Feeling good, positive, and remarkably stress free since that trip. Sometimes I think that the extreme intensity of a trip alone can lower day to day stress. It's hard to make a big deal out of normal day to day things after having been through such an extreme experience. Kinda blows everything else away!
Overall I'd say it was a very positive experience in hindsight. I Have not tripped since that experience and don't have any plans to trip again anytime soon
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Re: 20-25g penis envy trip - breakthrough experience [Re: Rise against]
#27084820 - 12/11/20 10:58 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Another thing I remember from this trip was when i felt like I was being held captive in another dimension, it actually felt like It was the CIA or military that was in this other dimension detaining me. Like they had access to this dimension along with me. Thats when I got freaked out lol. The rest of the beings I saw were not earthly.
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