Please help me identify this place I constantly experience on shrooms.
I want to call it “The Nursery’ or the ‘psychedelic childcare realm’
A quick background on me. I’ve done ranges of mushrooms from 1g to 5g using various teks. I’ve had sub breakthrough DMT experiences,
One of my go to teks used lemon juice, 8oz sub boiling water, 100-200mg harmine and 2-3tsp of DMSO mixed with 3-3.5g of dried shrooms (golden teachers most recently) ground to a powder. All steeped together for about 30 minutes then consumed all at once (this “tea” can NOT be sipped.
Using this blend I made the tea and put it in a glass bottle where it sat for a couple days in the fridge at a cabin in the woods this past week until I was ready. I had almost all previous trips alone in my comfortable den in my home, where I could have complete control of my environment. I wasn’t ready for this trip... I can admit that and I did to myself... about 25 minutes after drinking my tea,
I immediately starting feeling “bad”. I started sweating profusely and my vision was swimming. Not at all like previous trips on the same dosage. ( a quick aside here, I realized quickly that because of some recent zero effect trips on 150ug LSD I had stopped taking my Nuvigil/Armodafinil about 4 days prior to this trip, so this was my first ever trip NOT on this drug I had been taking daily for the past 11 years). I immediately thought to myself that I made a huge mistake and that I should have restarted with lower doses. I was sitting outside looking at the beautiful fall foliage, but every time I would close my eyes I would see this ominous/foreboding geometry in dark tones.
The shapes were in purples, greens, dark blues, blacks, and gold tones. At one point I could see this “place’ from a distance and I immediately recognized it from previous mushroom trips, ones where I was actually lost inside that place, like I was trapped in a box even with my eyes open. I had also been there before on my singular near breakthrough DMT experience, where I was thrust into this place losing all sensation of my physical extremities, and shown what looking back was like a brainwashing hyper speed slide show of unimaginable geometry.
Every time I closed my eyes during this trip, even in the broad daylight I would see this place, every time getting closer and closer. I had in my mind that this was a place that people were taken either before they were allowed further, or they were dumped there because the inhabitants of whatever dimension I was visiting didn’t know what else to do with them, like they hadn’t proved themselves worthy. It seemed also the like a court jester or clown like place, but dark.
Eventually I went inside and laid down on the bed, where a low pitched droning sound permeated my existence (eventually I discovered it was the vent fan from the adjacent bathroom that was amplified immensly) I just laid there for half an hour or so, feeling terrible, and reminding myself that I was ok, and that it would be over eventually. I tried to keep my eyes open to stay out of that bizarro realm, but unfortunately without my Armodafinil to help me stay awake my hypersomnia was constantly fighting me, so I was constantly closing my eyes and/or falling asleep.
After about 45 minutes of this I decided that I needed to give in and stop fighting it, that I needed to let things take their course, so I closed my eyes and suddenly this place wrapped around me like a tunnel, and I heard creepy voices telling me to “come in”.
Just as I reached what seemed like the end of the tunnel my fear got the best of me and I opened my eyes, Everything was so bright in the room, and that loud droning made me get out of bed to find the source of the sound. After figuring it out and turning it off I immediately felt better. I then sat in the bathroom for about an hour mumbling to myself about what an idiot I was for not being prepared enough and trying to go outside my comfort zone.
Eventually I walked out into the main cabin, cuddled with the puppy, watched some TV and hung out with my wife.
My question to you all is this;
Have any of you every been to the place I described? I’ve read through hundreds of trip reports and looked at even more gigs/videos/images and I can’t find anything resembling what I saw (and had seen previously). I’m trying to figure out if that place was a portal or test that I have to push through to experience a higher plane, or if I was being set at the psychedelic children’s table because I’m doing something wrong..
Any information or insight will be greatly appreciated..
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"After about 45 minutes of this I decided that I needed to give in and stop fighting it, that I needed to let things take their course, so I closed my eyes and suddenly this place wrapped around me like a tunnel, and I heard creepy voices telling me to “come in”."
Make that decision before you trip...or don't do it.
You have to let the experience happen....and not open your eyes,)
-------------------- Just a fool on the hill.
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