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Camwritesgonzo
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Re: I'm quitting porn [Re: NOUS333]
#27059543 - 11/27/20 01:01 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah, I've tried the limiting method, but at some point I go back to snapping one of daily. When I was in jail, I'd go a couple weeks to a month without whacking it, but then I'd start getting emotionally backed up and start feeling more depressed until I finally did again. Luckily I always had my own cell. But yeah, I definitely have to get out and mix it up more. I got a lot of stuff to put in order first with this parole shit and my finances. Small towns are a real bitch for trying to meet people. I might have a prospect though, if I play my cards right.
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NOUS333
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Camwritesgonzo said: Yeah, I've tried the limiting method, but at some point I go back to snapping one of daily. When I was in jail, I'd go a couple weeks to a month without whacking it, but then I'd start getting emotionally backed up and start feeling more depressed until I finally did again. Luckily I always had my own cell. But yeah, I definitely have to get out and mix it up more. I got a lot of stuff to put in order first with this parole shit and my finances. Small towns are a real bitch for trying to meet people. I might have a prospect though, if I play my cards right.
Yeah.. first and foremost get your own shit together and get your self where you want to be. A woman will only hold you back from doing that unless she is one of the rare few who will help you. Honestly, I am 100% convinced that it is much better to watch porn or get yourself off when you really feel you have to instead of relying on a woman for that. If the only reason you want a woman in your life is to quell the loneliness you feel when you really wanna get off but don't want to watch porn/masturbate... just give yourself a break and get one off.
I've learned the hard way that if you approach a relationship with a woman and your dick having company is anywhere in the forefront of your mind.. that relationship is gonna destroy you... You'll never be the man you want to be with that woman because all of us men reduce ourselves to someone we aren't in order to get pussy. Facts. I spent the last 2 years playing a fuckin charade, essentially acting to get pussy thinking I was getting one over on this chick and in the end.. I only got one over on myself. Who knows who I could be right now if I just stayed home and watched porn and didn't feel bad about it.
I still think porn is bad and I'll never feel awesome after fucking myself, but if that is what it takes to keep a focused mind and keep my life on track, so be it.
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Camwritesgonzo
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Re: I'm quitting porn [Re: NOUS333]
#27060251 - 11/27/20 02:02 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Honestly, it's not so much wanting to get off that I'd like to be like to find a woman for. I truly do want someone to share my heart and soul with, to find intimate companionship with mentally, emotionally, and then physically. I definitely don't want to put on a façade just for the sake of getting laid. I'd rather find a woman who accepts me for myself.
But before all of that, I want to try to love and accept myself as much as I can, which has always been my biggest struggle.
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OutsideOfMyMind
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Last night I had a fucking strange mushroom trip and I threw out all of my sex toys because they have a high addictive potential for me and I felt disgusted at myself with the addictiveness. I wasn't disgusted by the sexual aspect but more at the addiction aspect. I was literally peaking on mushrooms while at the same time gathering my sex toys into a bag and going outside to throw them in the dumpster. There are some days where I just spend the day getting high and looking at porn and jerking off with sex toys and it is really not good for me. I need to reset my dopamine. God what a strange fucking trip last night. The whole trip was like a physical and emotional Purge. I felt strange the whole fucking time.
Anyway, those pocket masturbaiters and realistic masturbaiters are really addictive especially when you get the ones with more intricate textures. You can feel the dopamine getting sucked out of you.
Edited by OutsideOfMyMind (11/28/20 05:27 PM)
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NOUS333
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OutsideOfMyMind said: Last night I had a fucking strange mushroom trip and I threw out all of my sex toys because they have a high addictive potential for me and I felt disgusted at myself with the addictiveness. I wasn't disgusted by the sexual aspect but more at the addiction aspect. I was literally peaking on mushrooms while at the same time gathering my sex toys into a bag and going outside to throw them in the dumpster. There are some days where I just spend the day getting high and looking at porn and jerking off with sex toys and it is really not good for me. I need to reset my dopamine. God what a strange fucking trip last night. The whole trip was like a physical and emotional Purge. I felt strange the whole fucking time.
Anyway, those pocket masturbaiters and realistic masturbaiters are really addictive especially when you get the ones with more intricate textures. You can feel the dopamine getting sucked out of you.
Isn't that amazing though. I mean that is a story for the people who scoff at mushroom use and assume it is just some delusional hallucinatory nonsense... "Take mushrooms and throw out your sex toys" lol.
There is a lower self, and a higher self and mushrooms connect our spirit/heart with the higher. For sure.
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