Hi dear reader/s, My first trip report and experience on Libs. I'm 36 and wanted to try shrooms for self exploration. So, found some libs in the felds, dryed them and took medium dose. My gf was my trip sitter with no experience which had bad and good side. I was at home.
~30min after ingestion Colours became more bright and I felt similar come up to mdma.
~45min Colours intensified and I'm smiling and my gf asked me how I feel. I felt great!
~1h 20min Feeling the same. Modern family on tv. Decided to take more mushrooms (12 dried libs, not grams).
~2h Very intense colours and room started "breathing". Wavy paters everywhere I look and I felt like a child. My gf asked what I see and I described and then she jokingly said do you see aliens? I know it was a joke, however that kinda pissed me off, but I shake off that and looked at the carpet. It looked like 3 dimensional patterns moving individually. I looked at the wall and I felt this tunnel vision. Went to the bathroom to wee and looked at the mirror. Person in the mirror looked like me, but I felt that it's not me.
~2h 30min I feel like a child. Everything is moving and it's so interesting. I asked Alexa to play Bicep - Apricots. It sounded fantastic. After the song ended I felt very lonely and the room felt heavy, like all this silence pressing on me and my gf was in the wc. She came back and started washing dishes and I felt like in Aphex Twin video. Silence and these electrical buzzing. I thought I'm loosing it. Then reminded myself it's a drug effect and looked at the poster on the wall which started moving.
~2h 45min I started describing to my gf what I see and how I feel and I'm still in this child like euphoria. I have a picture of my dad on the wall. This photo was taken when I was 3. Dad passed away when I was 7. I told my gf that I remember that day when the picture was taken and suddenly I wanted to cry, but quickly told myself "no" that's negative.
~3h My gf suggested to watch trippy videos on youtube, but I wanted to play music and I kept forgetting what I want. She suggested to watch on my phone. So I pick up the phone and it was moving. To my surprise I was controlling this phone! I know, sounds silly, but it looked fascinating. I look at the videos and it blows my mind!
~3h 30min I play music and watch trippy videos on youtube. Music and videos worked so well. It was beautiful.
~4h. Music in the background and I closed my eyes. It took me to another world! I started having a fight with myself inside this wast space. Screaming inside my head for being lazy, for being coward at some situations, for not planning my future. I don't know how long it lasted all this but I came back quickly and visuals were gone. Still a bit wavy but much less.
~5h I feel very peaceful and everything looks just beautiful. I never felt so at peace with myself. Gf suggested to go to bed and I agreed. We went to sleep as I thought effects are gone now. As soon as I closed my eyes thoughts started flying around and I saw this intence light, like a 3 eye opening above my nose.
Next day I had to gather my thoughts and everything what happened. Still can't make up things straight. I have this urge to do it again and at tbe same time I'm afraid.
P.s. Please forgive me for my errors. English is not my first language.
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