Ok. Hopefully this isn’t marked as spam, and pardon my language in advance if I let it slip. But after careful thinking, I wanted to say this:
*ahem* Holy. Guac. Amole. I want to talk about it, but I don’t want to talk about it. If you feel what I mean. I think I’m getting good at this. Not trying to be vain or anything, but I mean I’m getting better at this than I was before. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you probably do, at least a little bit. Or maybe a lot.
But anyways, Hi! How are y’all doing? There’s finally a cold front in the South now that the Hurricane passed. Even though the power’s out, and they don’t know when they can get it back on until they assess the damage in the morning, I’m doing Great. Amazing, actually.
I think having a guide of some kind can help you when you feel lost. This time, my guide was my Dad, and he didn’t even know it. Or maybe he did. But we had a great conversation.
I didn’t fully commit to the journey coz I was scared. I thought maybe they just don’t work on me like how people were saying. So I took a lot to pass the time during the hurricane. But I had forgot from the last bad trip: The scary part is when you lose your sense of time, and you think “Am I going to be like this forever?!” At least for me, that’s what it was, this time.
There was no electricity because of the hurricane. No distractions. Just me, the Teachers, and the sounds of the swamp (my backyard door was open to let the light in from the street). Maybe it was the stillness of everything that made me anxious, that it made me want to snap back into reality... or at least...this reality. I just took a peek. And wow. Excuse me but what, and I say what in tarnation. I’m not gonna lie, I had to turn back while I thought I still had the chance. But I had no sense of time. I had to call somebody, and my Dad answered my call, so I talked with him (trying hard not to tell him how hard I was currently tripping). He just asked me how things were, and if I was all right during the hurricane. Just casual things. But it helped me string back the pieces of my memories, past and recent.
And then I was chillin’. The calm breeze felt good and the creatures in the swamp were chirping and frogs let out some wistful croaks.
I can hear the electricians in the street now, probably working on the downed wires. I should be saving the battery on my phone for more “important” things, but I had to say something to somebody right now. Maybe you understand what I mean, and you’ll happen to see me somewhere, but whoever you are and wherever you are, I get why some people get lost... I don’t know all about it, but... when you have a guided experience, or journey with other people, you’ll make it back together. By being together. Or maybe you’re brave enough to take the journey by yourself, and let...something else guide you.
But thanks for reading this far, if you did. Good Luck, stay healthy, and keep Learning. I’m gonna keep learning, too, but maybe at a more manageable pace haha. I’m just glad I made back. I think.
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