I'm not usually the type to share stories, but I figured what could be the harm in doing so here?
I've done shrooms 4 times so far, the first time being only ~1.2g, and the last 3 all being ~3.5.
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My first experience with shrooms almost turned me off them. I ground up the mushrooms and soaked them in water, and drank a bit later. After about an hour, I felt very cold, and soon after I developed typical hangover symptoms which lasted the rest of the day. 0/10, same result I've had the few times I've dabbled in weed edibles.
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This time I upped the dose, supposing that maybe I'd screwed up somehow or just not had enough the first time; ground up the shrooms and mixed them with some hummus, and ate it pretty quickly. I was watching an exurb1a video on youtube, when suddenly I had an uncontrollable urge to cry, then laugh, then cry, then laugh. I'm not usually an emotional person, so even the sadness felt amazing somehow. After those waves of opposing emotion had gone by (maybe 30 minutes of loudly crying and laughing into my pillow to not disturb the landlord), I managed to calm down, and started experimenting; how things felt, how things tasted. I kept some videos playing on my laptop so I could gauge how much time had passed. I don't recall any CEV from this particular trip, I was so focused on just how much greater just being alive felt. Probably the first time I'd ever consciously been glad to be alive tbh...
3)
There was a 5 and a half month hiatus between the previous one and this one. Again, I ground up the mushrooms, and ate with some hummus. This trip took a bit longer to come up, so I was initially disappointed. But about 50 minutes after eating, a wave of electricity went up my body, my vision sharpened (especially noticeable because I wear glasses only occasionally). This time I knew one thing I wanted to do: take a shower. It was even better than I imagined it, as it not only felt amazing, but the trickling of water down the drain was straight up musical. Plenty of visuals as well! During the shower I started to notice two droning thought trains, one just a constant babbling of rhymed nonsense words, and the other an annoying song loop. These soon merged as the babbling became lyrics. After the shower, I spent 5 minutes just giggling at how beet-red my face and arms looked from my t-shirt tan.
This trip was where I first experienced a sort of time loop, I guess? I was watching a streamer on my phone for a bit, and suddenly just felt like everything I was hearing and seeing had already happened. I started to obsessively check time stamps, and the bar was progressing, but I was definitely getting major deja vu at regular intervals. Eventually at the peak of the trip, I was hidden under a blanket, and felt like I had 300 pounds on my chest and couldn't breathe properly. However, I was oddly at peace with it. Sort of like, "hey, at least I got to experience shrooms before I died, so who cares?" As far as the comedown, it was just bliss for the next few hours.
4)
This trip I had something special in mind. I had recently got Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds, and I prepared a tea out of them, steeping overnight. I mixed my ground shrooms with some gazpacho, drank it, and then slowly drank the HBWR tea over the next 40 minutes, just before sunset. The come up and even the peak of this trip were quite similar to the 3rd one in terms of general feeling (and singing babbles), however, there was CEVs that were much more colorful. Instead of primarily teal-green and magenta fractals and patterns, there was bursts of bright blue and yellow as well. I prepared various foods and drinks beforehand, but everything just tasted metallic and bloody, even water. so I abandoned the smorgasbord. Around 10 PM I started hearing beautiful synthesizer-like noises in the background, despite no music being played. Time-loops started later as I settled into watching another video. However, this time wasn't going to end so well.
As I was amusedly checking timestamps for the loops, somehow it got into my head that I was actually hallucinating being in my bed watching a video, because time doesn't actually loop, right? Instead, I started to think, maybe I'm actually in the kitchen about to kill myself? Maybe I'm sending nude photos to all my friends and family? Every thought of every horrid possibility suddenly must have been happening in reality as I hallucinated lying there. So I ran to the bathroom, trying to throw up, watching seconds not pass on my wristwatch. I started checking every app on my phone, my email on my laptop, hoping that I wasn't actually currently curled up on the floor naked in front of my landlords.
Well, turns out I was just laying in my bed. Go figure. I spent the next 2 hours of the comedown crying. A youtube video for people tripping bad certainly helped me calm down. When I was calm again, I noticed that everything was still tinted in rainbows (perhaps another effect of the HBWR, as this was well past 6 hours from ingestion) These open-eyed effects lasted until I finally fell asleep. Still a very enjoyable and meaningful trip in retrospect.
Looking forward to my next one! (possibly 5g this time )
-------------------- ------------------------------ smash that default network yo (but do it carefully)
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Great trip report! Sounds like mushrooms alright.
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quillip said: Somehow it got into my head that I was actually hallucinating being in my bed watching a video, because time doesn't actually loop, right? Instead, I started to think, maybe I'm actually in the kitchen about to kill myself? Maybe I'm sending nude photos to all my friends and family? Every thought of every horrid possibility suddenly must have been happening in reality as I hallucinated lying there. So I ran to the bathroom, trying to throw up, watching seconds not pass on my wristwatch. I started checking every app on my phone, my email on my laptop, hoping that I wasn't actually currently curled up on the floor naked in front of my landlords.
Believe it or not, that kind of thing can be an amazing time if it goes in the right direction. It's not always panic and fears. Sometimes you can relive memories, or even stuff that never happened. Other times, it results in an inability to tell fantasy from reality. You experience incredible mindblowing things, but then you're not sure if you really experienced them or just imagined them, and the line between experiencing things and imagining them starts to disappear entirely.
It's really incredible when it goes well. Even when it results in worries, it can be great fun in retrospect when you realize that what you fear didn't really happen. You talking about it brought back some great memories of tripping for me. Anyway, it won't always be dark like that.
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