This last Thursday night, I needed some motivation to clean my bedroom so I decided to drop 60ug of lsd and smoke weed. I cleaned my room and organized some things, but I also, very surprisingly and unexpectedly, thought about and reflected upon my life and took a journey down memory lane and I worked on a lot of emotional issues and stumps from my past and had an amazing time.
Some people see cleaning their room as a spiritually enlightening experience where you let go of all your baggage and organize your life and start on a fresh slate. It's a metaphor. I think this mini trip really helped me to experience that to the fullest extent. I became a little emotional while organizing and putting away my laundry about 2 hours into the trip. I had a load in the washing machine. Sprawled out on my bed was a bag of clean laundry that I hadn't touched in WEEKS, and another hamper full of clean clothes that hadn't been touched in weeks either. With all of this clean laundry that I had been too lazy to put away in the previous weeks all laid out on my bed, it was as if I could literally see all of the emotional baggage from different periods in my life all on my bed to look at. I was able to relive some negative experiences from my teen years, things I haven't even thought about in AGES, and REALLY FEEL AND DEAL WITH the emotions from those points in my life. I cried tears of happiness knowing that I was working out issues and that I can move forward in life with the knowledge I had learned. I thought about how my life has always been an emotional rollercoaster. I experienced a lot of emotions, both positive and negative emotions, and then it all came together by the time I folded and put away my laundry. I was BAWLING crying tears of happiness and joy (I had to wipe my eyes with a tissue I was crying that much lol) knowing that I had dealt with these issues. It was a very fucking beautiful experience. I just let the tears flow out of my eyes, I FELT the emotions, and with this, I feel like I can finally move past these issues and go on with my life. It was a very HEALING experience. Completely euphoric. I started thanking Albert Hoffman for the experience and I thought of all the people I was thankful for and I thanked than one by one in my mind. I had an extreme sense of empathy for people in my life that I had done wrong, family members and others. I thought about my most recent ex that I had done wrong and pushed away and felt bad about it and started texting him and thanking him for everything he had done for me and I told him that if we never talk again at least know that you made a difference in my life. He ended up texting me back at around 7am when he wakes up and it was very positive. He told me he always pushed me to be my best and I told him my life was such a rollercoaster at the time that I wasn't able to focus on him if my life depended on it. Long story. I dosed at about 9pm so I was coming down at this point. I told him about my trip and he said it sounded like my soul is healing. Before he texted me back but after I finished cleaning my room:
By the middle of my peak, I was done cleaning my room and throwing all the trash away. I decided to smoke some more weed because the weed I smoked after the 1st hour of my trip was wearing off. I listened to some old trance and radio dance hits from my high school years.....I used to listen to this music a lot as a teen when I would get depressed. I remembered that I used to listen to this music to help me escape my reality at that time in my life. I was REALLY FEELING THE MUSIC and I totally forgot and remembered how much I could get lost in the music so I cried tears of joy again and started dancing and thinking about how beautiful getting lost in the music was. It was fucking beautiful and to this day, 4 days after, I still have these positive emotions and I still cry tears of happiness when I turn on those old trance hits from my high school years.
Whoever says you don't trip off of sub 100ug doses is out of their minds. This was one of the most life changing psychedelic experiences I've had. Even though it was not a strong experience, it was just what my soul needed. 60ug will definitely be my go to dose if I still need to do shit around the house and keep my head in reality with a mild psychedelic euphoric mindset. Adding weed gives some nice mild visuals. The textures on the wall and popcorn ceiling were dancing and shifting slightly, I saw some light visual snow. My next trip I'm going to do 100ug.
Edited by OutsideOfMyMind (10/06/20 03:30 AM)
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