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Biotrue
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Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail?
#26984821 - 10/14/20 10:22 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I just cultivated my first APE fruits. ( 4th grow). I’m interested in spiritual healing properties but also to reexperiemce the fun I had doing them once when I was a teenager. So far, it hasn’t been fun. Not horrible, but not that great either. I can accept that, I have some deep things to work through and mainly, I’ve performed my own rituals and trips.
Last night I planned to go to bed early, then wake up at 3:30 am. And take my new strain (ape) and do the medicine early in the morning. Everyone is asleep and I had to do stuff during the day.
So I eat about 1.3 grams and sit up Indian style on my bed until hints start working. Let me explain that I was really hoping that this strain would have some magical visuals and euphoria involved, but it was just the same effect wise as the ape reverted strain I had.
Colors don’t become brighter, beauty doesn’t emu are from anywhere, I just get feverish feeling, fatigued, and the chills. I was hoping this would be mitigated by having a more potent growing fruit.
I noticed certain effects that I had on 2 previous large dose trips though on the past strain I had. My consciousness would go in and out from a wake state to an in the head(way in the head) but not asleep state. It’s so in the head that the only things I become conscious of is this sound and a vibration. It literally sounds like a didgeridoo or tribal through singing but a little more primal. My theory is that it’s the sound that my brain hears when it’s shut down and all it can hear are the electronic mechanisms that keep my brain stem going. The sound seems to come from that back part of my brain. Along with the sound is a vibration that makes me feel as if an egg beater were lightly messaging the inside of my skull. For some reason my brain feels as if it is related to a dead state of being. It’s not entirely unpleasant, but it’s not an experience I look forward to.
In the end while the droning brain buzzing lessened I seemed to go into this sad catharsis which has happened several times since I’ve experimented with these things. I just hope I am releasing things that need to be released for me to be spiritually healthy.
After last nights didgeridoo trance I was in, I recognized it as something I experienced a few months back on a camp trip where I took 5 grams of a less potent strain. But 5 grams cubensis should be a heroic dose. I ended up dry heaving and getting that mushroom flu feeling I get on that trip. These things wipe me out. When I was younger, they didn’t wipe us out. My friend and I are the mushrooms (unknown strain) and we had cool visuals, colors were brighter, we had fun and bounced around campsites. I hillucimated cart man from south park over a fire we stoked up since we were at a camp site.
If anyone knows how I can get back that beauty and euphoria in the Shroom trip that would be great. And if you have any insight on why I hear a didgeridoo almost like a Tibetan monk chant at the end of my consciousness that would be great. Whatever that experience is-it’s happened a few times and I get this feeling like that is what gastropod consciousness is like for some reason
After a while it seemed as if that sound was getting softer, but that it was always there, but you don’t notice it when you are sober because you have so much thinking drowning it out.
Next time I will stick to tea.
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karri0n
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: Biotrue]
#26985052 - 10/14/20 12:31 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Biotrue said: I just cultivated my first APE fruits. ( 4th grow). I’m interested in spiritual healing properties but also to reexperiemce the fun I had doing them once when I was a teenager. So far, it hasn’t been fun. Not horrible, but not that great either. I can accept that, I have some deep things to work through and mainly, I’ve performed my own rituals and trips.
Last night I planned to go to bed early, then wake up at 3:30 am. And take my new strain (ape) and do the medicine early in the morning. Everyone is asleep and I had to do stuff during the day.
So I eat about 1.3 grams and sit up Indian style on my bed until hints start working. Let me explain that I was really hoping that this strain would have some magical visuals and euphoria involved, but it was just the same effect wise as the ape reverted strain I had.
Colors don’t become brighter, beauty doesn’t emu are from anywhere, I just get feverish feeling, fatigued, and the chills. I was hoping this would be mitigated by having a more potent growing fruit.
I noticed certain effects that I had on 2 previous large dose trips though on the past strain I had. My consciousness would go in and out from a wake state to an in the head(way in the head) but not asleep state. It’s so in the head that the only things I become conscious of is this sound and a vibration. It literally sounds like a didgeridoo or tribal through singing but a little more primal. My theory is that it’s the sound that my brain hears when it’s shut down and all it can hear are the electronic mechanisms that keep my brain stem going. The sound seems to come from that back part of my brain. Along with the sound is a vibration that makes me feel as if an egg beater were lightly messaging the inside of my skull. For some reason my brain feels as if it is related to a dead state of being. It’s not entirely unpleasant, but it’s not an experience I look forward to.
In the end while the droning brain buzzing lessened I seemed to go into this sad catharsis which has happened several times since I’ve experimented with these things. I just hope I am releasing things that need to be released for me to be spiritually healthy.
After last nights didgeridoo trance I was in, I recognized it as something I experienced a few months back on a camp trip where I took 5 grams of a less potent strain. But 5 grams cubensis should be a heroic dose. I ended up dry heaving and getting that mushroom flu feeling I get on that trip. These things wipe me out. When I was younger, they didn’t wipe us out. My friend and I are the mushrooms (unknown strain) and we had cool visuals, colors were brighter, we had fun and bounced around campsites. I hillucimated cart man from south park over a fire we stoked up since we were at a camp site.
If anyone knows how I can get back that beauty and euphoria in the Shroom trip that would be great. And if you have any insight on why I hear a didgeridoo almost like a Tibetan monk chant at the end of my consciousness that would be great. Whatever that experience is-it’s happened a few times and I get this feeling like that is what gastropod consciousness is like for some reason
After a while it seemed as if that sound was getting softer, but that it was always there, but you don’t notice it when you are sober because you have so much thinking drowning it out.
Next time I will stick to tea.
I think a big part is really unfortunately that we enjoy life a lot more when we are kids man.
I don't think it's going to be all that much easier to extract joy from a trip compared to when you were younger than it is to extract joy from something like a swingset compared to when you were younger.
Plus your body will have been better at metabolizing stuff and so your body load would be significantly reduced when you were younger. Tea might be good for this part since people say that can lower some of the physical side effects.
If you are anything like anyone else, you've probably been through a lot of shit since your Campfire Cartman days. I bet you'd use tools like a drill or a chainsaw differently then than you would now, and have a load more fun as well. You also wouldn't be getting useful work done.
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karri0n
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: karri0n]
#26985076 - 10/14/20 12:42 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I Realized I basically shit all over the screen but didn't give you any actionable advice.
Intention and affirmation are extremely powerful tools, much moreso during a trip.
Try ensuring that you set the intention for your trips that you are doing this because want to enjoy *life* more, not tripping more.
You are reprogramming your brain. Just cracking the lid open then letting the wires fall where they want isn't going to get all that much done, unless your only goal is conciousness expansion. It will make new connections for sure and might lead to some new and interesting results, but you are going to get much more done by having a plan and connecting the wires where you want them to go.
During your trip, go into meditation and repeat an affirmation like "life is fun" or "I enjoy life" or "mundane isn't boring" or something else that would be more meaningful to you, but is simple enough for the subconcious to understand and really allow to root and germinate.
If you want to go the traditional "therapy-like" route, then spend some time while not tripping and also some time while tripping thinking about the reasons your base outlook/demeanor will have changed in the years since then, and spend time working through and processing that. *ainobodygotimeforthat.jpg*
It also sounds like you are dosing high but not quite high enough for an ego death experience. Right in the zone where a lot of people experience fear reactions as the ego is starting to fade. You may want to go lower and work on your shit for a while until you can get your headspace right, then go for the big one when you are ready. I do think these affirmations can help get you there.
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Edited by karri0n (10/14/20 01:56 PM)
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: karri0n]
#26985562 - 10/14/20 05:00 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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take more man, i had a problem with never getting what i wanted out of my trips until i said fuck it and took more. they showed me. work your way up to 4 5 6 grams. thats when visuals and colors really start coming on for me at least
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: Biotrue]
#26986533 - 10/15/20 07:06 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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there are several threads on ego death - the consensus is that it is not the purview of the high dosage club.
that you hear the digeridoo indicates that there is intense neural feedback, plenty intense for any psychedelic experience.
think of it like sex without a partner. you are horny - you light the candles and make dinner, but your beloved does not arrive.
cooking more food, and lighting more candles will do something, but if you are not set up for a date, what happens wont be sexually memorable, unless you love yourself to bits.
you may need to become more sensitive to your connection with your spiritual side, i.e. you wont catch a leprechaun in Mongolia. therefore don't dose with expectations of any kind, and do it while being a student of life at all levels. this you can be at any age; you must reawaken your inner student.
the drug merely gives you flu symptoms and facilitates mental resonance with mindset and setting. some people play it like gambling - that is the philosophy for anything, and it makes you lose more than win, this is not a Casino even if it feels like a TV game show. You may be further ahead to micro-dose or use it as a stimulant, to get into the groove.
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: redgreenvines]
#26987236 - 10/15/20 02:48 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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It sounds like you have really potent mushrooms. What psychedelics do is they increase your perception so all of your senses are enhanced and your hearing is enhanced also which is why you can hear things on psychedelics that you don't notice when you are sober. The sounds are still there but they are magnified under psychedelics.
As for the effects you got as a teenager, you were in a completely different state of mind at that time and your beliefs about drugs and psychedelics were probably completely different also. For a lot of people, as they get older, they don't really need such a high dose like they did when they were younger. Also when you are younger you are less spiritually evolved which could make it easier to take a trip for purely recreational purposes.
my first mushroom trip was when I was 20 years old and it was with a good friend inside of a hookah lounge. I was young and didn't understand the psychedelic mind state. I definitely was not as spiritually evolved as I am now nearly 15 years later. back then I was able to enjoy it more as a recreational thing but now in my life I would never ever do mushrooms outside of my own home. I would never do mushrooms with anyone else. I can't do mushrooms for recreational purposes because they take me on a ride on the back seat of a roller coaster and they slap my emotions all around, show me all the problems in my life and then show me what I need to do with my life to improve things. It is like a psychology session with myself. But mushrooms are a lot more brutal with the emotions compared to LSD.
If you want to have a fun recreational trip then I suggest you try LSD. If you want the more fun kind of experience and less of a mind-fuck kind of experience, I suggest taking less than 100 micrograms to start. LSD shows you your emotions in a very gentle loving beautiful way whereas mushrooms show you your emotions in a somewhat brutal way if you are not ready for it.
For the snail consciousness question, psychedelics show you all of consciousness. This consciousness can be experienced in the form of other animals and even plants. I had one mushroom trip where I experienced plant consciousness and I experienced complete Zen. I was understanding things from the perspective of mother nature. that's about all I can do to explain it as these states of consciousness are really abstract and difficult to explain.
How did you feel when you are experiencing snail consciousness? Were you happy about it? Were you sad about it? Indifferent?
One of the most important aspects of a trip is HOW YOU FEEL. Your emotions. Happy, sad, angry, indifferent, and everything in between. If something is making you feel negative then you should take a look at it and figure out how to turn it around and turn it into a positive.
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: OutsideOfMyMind]
#26988015 - 10/16/20 07:14 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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those are good thoughts
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Re: Why am I hearing a didgeridoo and feeling like I have the consciousness of a snail? [Re: redgreenvines]
#26993579 - 10/19/20 07:55 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks everyone, I really enjoyed reading these responses and I'll take them to heart.
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