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Feelin' Good 2
#26970353 - 10/05/20 10:08 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Woke up at 7:30 and felt like death. Took meds drank a cola, shower, brush, all that fun stuff and now I'm feeling great. I don't know what's changed but I haven't felt this good in quite a while, maybe because my hangover is FINALLY over... Anyways, I hope you guys have a great day and try to stay positive! Don't let the negative vibes infiltrate your own, stand your ground and protect those vibes because they don't last forever.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam] 1
#26970447 - 10/05/20 11:21 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26970776 - 10/05/20 03:03 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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and it's gone. back to feeling like shit again.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26970846 - 10/05/20 04:00 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Niffla]
#26970848 - 10/05/20 04:01 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Drugs r bad, m’kay?
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Soda and pills blow holes in your gut.... what do you think controls mostly every thought and feeling???
Hint: it's not your brain..
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26970954 - 10/05/20 05:12 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't do any drugs other then alcohol anymore. I eat rice and pasta and drink a ton of water too. It's something else that does this to me.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26971056 - 10/05/20 06:24 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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You said you took meds.
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No, you did!
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26971408 - 10/05/20 10:39 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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since this is my own thread, im going to say what's next and it will be depressing but i know its going to come to an end soon and i must want my voice to be heard at least once on how i truly feel and live.
i used to be normal kid up to grade 3-4, i had lots of friends of both genders, i hung out at friends houses and went to birthday parties. i did what any young happy kid would do. my mother and father divorced at that time and thats when my life really started a downwards spiral. my father was an alcoholic who never paid attention to me or did anything with me, he hit me and abused me emotionally and physically. my mother slowly started to lose interest in me as well as she has now met a new man who is now my step father. they had two other children a boy and a girl. i was no longer the only child and i began to self isolate from the lack of attention. over the years i began to build up a lot of anger and sadness, i would randomly cry in the middle of the night and not be able to sleep. my anger mainly went towards my mother and step father, my step father hated me because of this and he would yell at the top of his lungs in my face almost daily, i could feel the wind coming from his yells sometimes. he would make fun of me and be little me constantly, constantly... to speed things up, i lost all my friends as i no longer talked to anyone except for random people online in cs:go competitive games. that was my life, a fucking video game. i currently have over 4300 hours in that god damn game. i began to cut and self harm. my first suicide attempt was an overdose on my mothers morphine but i didn't go through with it, i was out in the Canadian winter in the woods with a handful of morphine tablets though. that sent me on my first trip to CAMHU, psych ward. couple weeks. i kept going back for other attempts and self harm, overdosed on 1980 or 90s aspirin and had a seizure, cut my left wrists tendons clean in half and had to have them sutured back together in surgery. i hung myself in the psych ward using my hospital pants as the noose, im amazed i survived that. i woke up on the floor because the knot didnt hold. i vividly remember violently shaking and having extremely intense visuals as i was being choked from the pants...tso yeah i feel like this takes a bit off my chest by posting this. sorry for any unwanted emotions or if this is not allowed or other bullshit.
this is me. i know this doesnt mean jack shit to anyone, oaky? I know that. it means a lot to me though. this whole thing.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26971411 - 10/05/20 10:43 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Damn, well now that you got that all out of your system maybe your path will be a bit easier. Dont dwell on the past in a bad way. Use it as a leaning tool. And of course you have the hella awesome community here to support you whenever you are feeling down <3
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26971414 - 10/05/20 10:48 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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You should be doing everything possible to get away from that situation. The world is yours now and you are responsible for your actions. I'm sorry your innocence was robbed so young. Know you're not the only one and you may be the only thing keeping others going. That being said, I don't blame you for wanting to sign off early. This place sucks sometimes.
Great pleasures are only possible with great pain. You have great things coming your way. It's law. Please stick around and see for yourself.
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Hello Kelazam
I hope you're doing ok 
Btw, I don't know if you are currently working or studying or unemployed, but if you are home a lot (which wouldn't help with the drinking) and aren't restricted from leaving the house because of covid, I would suggest volunteering to you. It'll help you get out of the house and also give you something else to think about. Volunteering has really helped me with my struggles so maybe it's something worth considering 
Also maybe consider going to your doctor about getting help. I did after a mental breakdown and it was helpful cause my doctor put me onto a psychologist and we talked about things and how to improve them. Maybe in the end all that it did was give me someone to talk about my problems, but maybe that's what you need right now?
Sorry if this unhelpful.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: blessed]
#26974895 - 10/08/20 03:45 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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to put it simply, you can't run away from your past. believe me, i've tried. you can only accept it. but this is the thing -
the past, is the PAST. what matters now, is now - your present moment, what you can make of yourself now. you cannot change your past, and the future is something hazy that you can only dream about - something you can plan for, but things can always change drastically, for worse or better. (especially in this year!) you grit your teeth, pick yourself up off floor, and take a step toward the future, toward those hazy dreams and hopes, and when life throws a sucker punch at you, you grit your teeth and pick yourself up off the floor again.
sometimes you even change direction, slightly or in a completely different tangent, when you see a totally different path, new options you didn't know about before, new interests or newfound loves to try out. don't be afraid to take these new paths, even if you've tread your current road for years! it's when people are afraid of changing the path of life they're currently wandering on, too afraid to change their ways, that they get stuck, depressed, feeling trapped and boxed in with their lives.
maybe you feel like life is just pointless, but that's the thing. there is no point to a point. the point IS the point. a circle has no edges. there is no meaning to life except the meanings you create. life is a sandbox game, like minecraft - YOU are the storywriter, YOU create the storylore. if you try to let someone else fill in that story for you, you will never be truly satisfied with your life as you will writing it in yourself.
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Re: Feelin' Good [Re: Kelazam]
#26975267 - 10/08/20 10:54 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Hope you have a good day too it’s nice to feel good and be optimistic
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