Good day fellow travelers,
New user here, but a long time lurker. I think a little intro would be appropriate. Been going on magic journeys with the help of mushrooms and truffles since the mid nineties. Experienced my first break through (and "bad") trip way back then, but with the lack of internet and us just trying to enjoy ourselves, never knew I wasn't supposed to eat that many Copelandia Hawaiians. Nor knew the deeper meaning behind it all, including a breakthrough experience itself. But that's a whole other story.
This time around I've been feeling the urge to go back there. Tried it a few months ago with my best friend, but it didn't work out. Even though I had a great trip, I didn't reach my goal because I was too distracted by my friend who kept throwing up.
Anyway, fast forward to last Saturday. I had ordered 150 grams of Psilocybe Atlantis truffles which arrived that day. I was planning with my friend to dose at least 30-45 grams per person with the help of tea one week later to combat his nausea and throwing up. However, SWIM, who's also an experienced traveler, asked me if I wanted to come over and go on a journey with her that same day. Since I don't really like doing spontaneous things (I've got autism, so it's kinda difficult for me to steer away from my usual schedule) this time I accepted since I really wanted to go back. And it was a long time ago since I last saw my SWIM, and she also wanted to experience a break through, since she never has.
So without further ado, here's the report which I started writing on as soon as the trip was finished:
Tea infused with 45 gram truffles plus ginger, based on 3 shot glasses pp. Let it soak for 10-20 minutes. Last bit of mix weed vaped. SWIM put on some music, "Mix - Peia Blessed We Are" via YouTube. I drank 1 shot myself. SWIM also starts with 1 shot. The feeling soon begins to emerge. Busy, chaotic, feelings, emotions, images, nervous. Very familiar. A certain pressure comes over me, which makes me seem to panic a bit. I pray to God, I ask for a safe journey and that I have some private matters in which I request guidance and help. Bubble gum indica vaped together with SWIM. I completely surrender to what is to come. We turn off the lights. The come up is over quickly and I arrive at a smooth and above all pleasant level 2. Some colors, shadows, and fractals are laying very softly over everything. Hazy CEV, hamburgers flapping like strings with faces. Outside the sky is crystal clear and I can see the Milky Way. I am welcomed back, "they" laugh and assure me they are 90% sure "they" remember me. Plus 10% from another times. It feels very warm and nice. A snail crawls and catches my attention. I wonder why he crawls over the concrete and if he might appreciate it if I put him in the grass. I decide not to disturb the snail and let it run its course. I feel happy and sometimes have laugh kicks and fun inside jokes. I feel love. SWIM and I talk about a lot of different funny things. Also about our previous journeys. We laughed a lot. Then suddenly when I have my eyes closed, my best friend and his girlfriend appear cracking jokes like jesters. During the entire trip my best friend and his girlfriend will reappear with whom I'm currently staying with keep visiting when I close my eyes to crack jokes, about myself, about them, about everything. I owe them a lot and love them very much. After forty minutes, SWIM drinks her second shot. I pour the next shot for SWIM and myself. After about sixty minutes, I drink my second shot. SWIM drinks the rest. I also make tea from the last 15 grams, add the remainder of the previous one and let it steep. I sit on the sofa in a lotus position and a blanket of snow covers everything. Everything looks white and fluffy with many colors, everything is alive. Time is no longer correct, loops and repeats. I close my eyes again and suddenly end up in an unpleasant space / dimension. There is also a sudden pressure on me that makes me feel uncomfortable. I pray to God again, kindly requesting assistance and guidance. A figure appears next to me that removes a layer of the dimension / space from me, making it suddenly enjoyable again in the same space / dimension. I open my eyes and the figure is still standing next to me in the living room. I have my hoodie over my head, the figure suddenly grabs me, yanks me out of my body, and I'm fired into the universe. I go on a indescribable journey, see gigantic explosions, and the emergence of something that comes out of this. I see myself in 2d, razor-sharp, which is made sharper and sharper like a knife by all my life experiences. I see myself getting sharper, which then cuts straight through universes and dimensions. As I slowly try to open my eyes, this view is slowly transferred to the inside of my hoodie which I could see from the right hanging over me. As I whiz through the universe in the inside of my hoodie, I see a sort of table descending in the living room with two figures. In the background is a galaxy. Whatever it is consists of several floors that I can see through. It all looks very technologically advanced, but also organic, like it's alive. The two figures notice me and start communicating with me. While one is explaining the "table" (sort of like an oversized Android/Apple tablet) he was using, the other is explaining something else. This while I am still flying around the inside of my hoodie. After I descend back to my body again, SWIM and I take the last shots at around ninety minutes. SWIM goes upstairs to close herself off. I close my eyes again and suddenly I get images of violence about SWIM. Very bloody and realistic. After some time the same figure arrives again, transforms into SWIM, and takes my hand to lead me a few steps up back into the light, looking like a very big room with very bright lights and colours. This also reoccurred during the entire journey. During one of these instances where I was guided a few steps up back into the light, I come into a room where several entities are seated. One catches a glimps of me and approaches me. He was a little smaller than myself, partially bald, pot belly, friendly face. Looking like Rama/Vishnu, his skin was blue. I could feel this immense power and knowledge flowing forth from him, however he didn't seem intimidating at all, even though I had the feeling he could be if he choose to. I seem to recognize a glimmer of my best friend in this entity, who past away years ago in him and I proceed give him a big hug until I am shot off again in my journey. I open my eyes again and switch off the music. I'm going outside to vape some apple haze sativa. While vaping, the garden I am in turns into a jungle, I am sitting next to a river which runs through the garden into the kitchen. I get the impression that it is a kind of Garden of Eden. There are other figures present. When I look at the stars again I see how everything is connected I can see the galaxy and can zoom in and zoom out on it all the way. I also kept seeing shooting stars. At my second bowl I heard a sound coming closer, intuitively I know it are the 12 "gnomes / angels / dimensions" that are coming my way, which I've met on previous journeys. We greet each other and I welcome them back. The two big plant pots turn into 2d objects, and start wobbling back and forth closer towards me. I go back to the living room and sit in the lotus position (before it completely takes me over) on the couch. The figure descends again and changes into SWIM. The figure takes me with her for what seems like an eternity. I see all kinds of big complicated 4d constructions built from something, it seems to be pure light, Shamballa, bardhos, valhalla, heaven, God. I'm shown lots of religious symbology. I get an explanation but my brain doesn't record it. The figure indicates that she is my great-grandmother. I get the feeling that my grandfather and grandmother are there too, but are not allowed to make themselves known by my great-grandmother. My great-grandmother explains even more to me. Also that SWIM is not ready to break through yet, and that I cannot reveal everything to her. The figure takes me further and baptizes me in something that resembles water, but in which galaxies swim. After what seemed like an eternity, I slowly return to my own body in the room. I open my eyes and see the 12 gnomes / angels / dimensions. I get a short summary of the lessons from my first breakthrough trip. While this is in progress, the figure that made herself known to be my great-grandmother reappears to my side a number of times, offering me to be fired back into the universe. This also keeps repeating for the rest of the trip. I decide that I will not accept the offer, because I try to follow the lessons of the 12 gnomes / angels / dimensions. They show me a quick history of my family tree. I receive glimpses of people living their lives in the past. I still ask them how far in our civilization they can go back in time and show me, and from what moment they themselves originated, and when they themselves appeared in our universe, and how far back their knowledge goes. From what I can remember they showed me that they can go as far back in human and earth civilization (s) as I want. They show me an explosion and stop it while it's still expanding. They show me again big intricate 4d constructions made up of something that looks like light, Shamballa, bardhos, valhalla, heaven, God. Lots of symbols again. After a brief summary of the lessons from my breakthrough trip, they promise to take me further on my next trip. They also show that I have made the right choices in my private situation. They give another brief summary of mortality, and the circle of life. But also that the hell dimension, where I was during my breakthrough trip, that I'll visit it again on my next trip, but that it will be different this time. This keeps repeating / looping more or less until suddenly some jokes are shot towards me, but I quickly recognize who is coming from, and realize that it comes from a deceased friend of mine, the same one I met earlier on. After talking to him briefly, I am once again baptized by the figure in the water in which universes swim, and I slowly descend back to earth in the living room. The trip is coming to an end, I talk to SWIM about the experience a little more, then I vape some more weed and start writing down bullet points of the trip.
I tried to write down everything I remembered, and in a "chronological" order however difficult that was.
I'm also, unsurprisingly, still pretty exhausted, both mentally and emotionally.
Other than that this was a absolutely incredible, beautiful, mind blowing, shocking, and awe inspiring journey. The tea really helped I believe, my body load was practically zero. And it was so incredibly clear and lifelike realistic which really made it even more unbelievable, it made an ever lasting impression on me. Turning the lights off resulted in a tenfold increase of intensity. And sitting in a lotus posture even further improved that for me.
PS. Thanks to everybody on the board for the great info, stories, experiences, inspiration, guides, and trip reports. One love.
Cheers,
Spin
Edit: add some pics, fix spelling.
Edited by spinvis (12/08/20 01:06 PM)
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