I have been most of my life. Im sure it's to do with separation anxiety and trauma response making it difficult to connect to people.
My friends, my fuck buddies, my girlfriends.
Doesn't matter who, if they appear to be able to easily connect with people i get jealous.
If someone i hold close spends more time connecting with someone (even if I'm fond of them both) i get jealous.
It's a problem that just isolates me more and scares me away from forming those connections.
I'm afraid to even engage a fuck buddy because i get in my own way soo often (Or should i say my feelings get in my way?)
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Edited by tryptkaloids (09/14/20 08:59 AM)
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Mindfulness is key when approaching feelings like this. When this situation arises, whether that be from a friend spending more time with someone else or what have you, it is important that you take a specific approach. Firstly, these feelings are likely connected to your own self-worth (being lesser, of course). So, take time to better understand yourself, love yourself, and truly become your own best friend.
Secondly, it is important that when these feelings arise, you do not delve yourself in them. That is the key of mindfulness, to approach these feelings without judgement nor egoic questioning/resolving. These feelings do not need to be fixed, or resolved. By attempting to "fix the flux," you are only further disturbing what is already clearly happening, plus encouraging negative neural pathways. Instead, when these feelings arise, take a step back. Embrace these feelings, and approach them; truly feel them to their fullest capacity. It is the difference between: "Why do I feel this way! (despair)" and "I am feeling this way. (acceptance)"
Often time, we cope with sufferings through neuroticism, and by preventing the egoic-twiddling of these neurosis, the suffering and reasonings become more clear; from which you can change your core values and self-worth. Just remember, change is not cheap, nor easy. Good luck.
Edited by rickomalley238 (09/14/20 09:37 AM)
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Thnks buddy, ive been thinking i need to meditate more and work through these issues.
Hopefully when i start microdosing it will be easier to find the time to make it a routine.
I should also look into talk therapy
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