When Shulgin created 2C-I, did he create a God?
I believe God is a part of all things (not a 100% sure) aswhell as above and beyond all things by limitless infinity, could be part of a High or at least a close relationship with the experience, I've experienced spiritual/religious states and felt the "Life" of not just my existence, but the life of all life/nature itself communicating with me, ok really I would call it God,,,
I've smoked some kind of "Spice" and fell down on my butt and was enveloped in a white light with God-like face just smiling at me (picture long white hair and beard, kind of Zeus like but seemingly more Christian) I was so scared, absolutely terrified at seeing God, questioning myself is this my Death? did I finally push my luck with random Spice too far? super intense, hard to focus high, and knowing how stupid I am when I'm sober already, now so much dumber while high, not calm or peaceful, but I probably had a dumb smile on my face, and yet to be in this so intense, scary and struck so hard Trip/high, I didn't fully comprehend how deeply meaningful it was until I sobered up and reflected, I've certainly had many God/Jesus/Spirit vision's/experience's from so-called Spice/K-2 and DXM particularly, plenty of trips to tell later...
Sadly when I was younger doing Morning Glory Seed's once a week or 2C-I everyday (at extremely high doses )and those Acid/Mushroom trips I did in my teens, I was too immature I think, Though I heard plenty about mind-expansion and what the definition of "Entheogens" and "Ethnobotanicals" was, I mostly did it for fun, pretty colors and visuals, watching Conan O'Brien do the photo mix if those two celebrities had a baby, those twisted pictures almost made me die of laughter on my first MGS trip, the old Simpsons episodes where dangerous too, I could of died from not breathing laughing too hard! I Remember mowing the lawn in all these zig-zag patterns by accident while tripping on a beautiful warm day, as some pretty girls about my age where walking by on the side walk with my very proud Modest Mouse T-Shirt and that thing where you can't stop smiling! going out into the woods in the park on a winding day seeing one tree blow hard this way and the other one go the other direction, absolutely BEAUTIFUL! I'm lucky too have lived I guess, I've had my fun that some of my friends and family have never, and will not ever now, a beautiful something that's just out of there sight, but exist in there hearts,,, BTW, I was always a solo tripper, as I had no friends for many years, but I did do acid with a friend, surprisingly, after 6 gel tabs of LSD, the Morning Glories where way more Visual/intense/satisfying, yet I was surprised to find the same body high from MGS in the LSD, minus the stomach pains!
They say life is a Trip, or a ride, God came to me in my high's and Trips, I was just looking for Beautiful and interesting experience's. I did tell myself when I heard someone say "Psychedelics cause flash backs and you'll trip forever and never come down!" I said to myself when I was maybe 15 years old "where's the negative in that?", well, I'm a Diagnosed Schizophrenic now hearing voices both through the ears and inside my mind, lately Evil thoughts are trying possess and take over my mind and put me in the stressful position of constantly saying "No God, you know in my heart that I'm not the one saying your evil!" but I also constantly hear a Beautiful (if I could use the word heavenly or angelic) Voice that seem's to be God saying, "I love You!", it brings tears to my eyes, cause I'm often don't have confidence in myself so I'm always asking God/The Voice's if they still love me after all my wrongs and sins, and they say I'm forgiven and loved and i;m going to heaven and being a part of God and Peace,,,
but for the most part, there's a positive and a negative to tripping all the rest of your life, on one side, it's spiritual and deep, on the other you loose your job and the family kicks you out of the house for scaring them by laughing to yourself and staring into space around the house knowing you hear voice's debating if I'm the anti-Christ or Jesus Christ, sorry family and friends, I suppose it was destiny to go this way, when you really believe in something, no classified bondages of friends or family or tradition or societies hedging you about, you just do it, because I've tasted the Love and Hope of psychedelics, poor but common and reasonable reasons for starting, turning into a life long religious/spiritual journey,,, BTW, nowadays I'm totally happy with my mom and brothers/sisters, they still don't accept the drug use, but it's all smiles and joke's and hugs when we get together (this covid shit gots to go away, I only saw mom once or twice this year! )
I'm on upper Medication that I decided to take all night, I just started typing and I didn't feel an urge to stop, is this one of my shittier post that I'm gonna look back on and say "WTF! I'm so stupid!"? now I'm scared to get some sleep and wake up to this!
-------------------- "He who finds peace and joy And radiance within himself That man becomes one with God And vanishes into God's bliss." -Bhagavad Gita, 5.24 One 21 - Building Better Bombs One 21 - Pacified One 21 - Two Sides Is Fine "Respectability is a cloak for the hypocrite" - Jiddu Krishnamurti
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