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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Shiithead] 1
#26908213 - 08/30/20 03:45 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Shiithead said: Dudes 18, has a couple thousand dollars and thinks he has it bad. People out here about to turn 28, 38, 48 ect and they worse off than you. You have years not to be in this situation again. Take my advice and stay off drugs and alcohol. You are guranteed to fail if you are abusing them.
He's right about this. I've been an opiate and benzo addict for 12 years, I'm 26 and am almost bed bound because depression and addiction hit hard. My dad was diagnosed terminal when I was 14,first suicide attempts I never talk about for a reason,huge heart breaks then my brother committed suicide,my aunt hung herself, my nana had Alzheimer's for 7 years during my teens and I had to stay at home rather then fuck chicks or have relationships, go to concerts,go to raves,traveling was hard. I've been to 3 concerts and one rave in my life. When I got to 18 I was in a life changing accident that left me with horrible ptsd and life long spinal and shoulder injuries. I have no job,no car, no gf/wife can't go to school anymore and I'm filing disability in a time where there's no fucking chance of getting it. My dad has been on life support 3 times from ages 17-23.
Do not be me. Do not convince yourself that you're so unique sobriety doesn't apply to You or can't happen for You. You may need psychiatric medicine and just are using booze because that's what You can get. You can accept your addiction and early death or fight through the worst thing you can imagine, sobriety in a world of pain. Give yourself a chance your strong you just don't know it or feel it.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: AroundtheSon] 1
#26908252 - 08/30/20 04:06 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't drink anymore
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26908502 - 08/30/20 06:04 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kelazam said: I don't drink anymore
Hurray! I haven't touched the stuff in over three years. I don't miss it at all, and I'll probably be happy without it for the rest of my life.
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That's awesome! Stay strong
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: AroundtheSon]
#26908629 - 08/30/20 07:18 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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AroundtheSon said: You, consciously or not, posited your biggest barrier - and then reject notions to quit.
Say wut
What are you trying to say? He wants attention and we've all been had?
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26908637 - 08/30/20 07:21 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kelazam said: I don't drink anymore
Congratz brother. You're on a good path. Crazy how quickly things change huh? I didn't start abusing alcohol until I was 23. I never got hooked though. You should wait longer and do better than me.
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Psion
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Shiithead] 1
#26908767 - 08/30/20 08:59 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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stay strong, Kelazam! staying sober isn't easy, and you may stumble. remember, seven times down, eight times up! it's not about the falls, it's about the courage to get back up and never quit no matter how hard and painful it seems, no matter how difficult it feels, even if you feel like you're never getting anywhere.
growth comes in many different forms. i remember hearing somewhere it's like learning to play the piano - to learn to play the piano, the first form of growing one must do involves... simply waiting. you must do nothing at all, because your body has to grow big enough simply to access the piano keys, to even play them, and grow some more to reach all of the keys. then there's the growing involved from practice - one does not simply play "in the halls of the mountain king" on the first try! even when you manage to play a song for the first time, there still involves more growing in the form of practice - it takes even more effort to get a song to play smoothly, and more practice still to play it smoothly consistently.
there's the growth that comes from learning how to read the actual musical script, and the growth from hearing a musical note and corresponding it to the proper key on the piano - the growth of playing the proper tempo and gods, the nightmare of learning how to use those horrible pedals on the bottom of the piano and the nightmare of using both hands at once!
likewise, don't think that your spiritual growth and your path to sobriety will be a linear path, nor quick or easy. it's a lot like a trending upward line with a lot of peaks and valleys, but so long as you keep striving toward growth, it WILL trend upward. (ok so maybe there's a few squigglys in there. but still! it WILL trend upward!)
interestingly enough, one kind of growth often interlinks with others, even if it seems totally unrelated. you may read a fantasy book and find it's story resonating with your life at some point, helping you get through a tough situation, or even some random fact from it helping you with surviving out in the wild. you may find your hobby in drawing being put to new use coming up with your new entrepreneurial endeavor, coming up with your company logo, or even becoming your actual business itself! don't be afraid to try new things - try them out, see which ones you like, and learn from all of them! i can guarantee it will make you a very interesting person to talk to if you are constantly learning and trying out new stuff, if you're the kind of person who likes to talk to people. and if you're not, you may find it easier to talk to people in situations you have to. ;3 i'm not much of a social butterfly, but from living this way, i found out people went from being terrifying to talk to, to being an occasional joyful occasional event to share my experiences with, something to look forward to.
i think we all are given certain lessons to learn in this unending journey, and when we learn them, are given new ones. so long as we are willing to listen, willing to feel the world around us and not shut out what it's trying to tell us, life can be full of joy, even if there are times of great pain and fear. feel and hear what it has to tell you, reflect on it, and it will bring you greater wonders than you can even imagine.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Psion]
#26912939 - 09/01/20 10:40 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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This really cheered me up thank you. I will continue to do my best even though I don't see a point right now I know I will in the future
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Psion
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26912963 - 09/01/20 11:05 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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i'm rooting for you! it takes a long time sometimes, believe me. some days are better than others, and sometimes you feel like you're at the bottom of a well and you think all your efforts were futile.
when those days come, i want you to look back to when you first started, to these first days. in fact, maybe you even want to have some keepsakes, pictures or some other physical mementos of this time when you were at this point of your life, and hide them away. when you come to those low points at that time, weeks, months, or years later... pull those pictures out, or those keepsakes. reflect on them, and look back... and see just how truly far you actually have come from where you started, and take heart that you will surmount these difficult times as well, just as you did in the past.
life is an blank canvas, waiting for your magic touch to bring meaning to it. you can either go through the same old routines and let others dictate your life for you, or carpe diem!
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26913083 - 09/02/20 02:10 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Have you meditated? Theres places that you can go to meditate, and you can just focus on yourself. DM me if you are interested in looking into this.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Psion] 3
#26913088 - 09/02/20 02:26 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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if youre only 18 I would suggest that you get out and experience as much of life as you can. all around, everything. no time for rest and laziness. work a few different jobs in completely different fields, do this for about a year and then get your ass to college. somehow just make it work if it has to be community then fine. go there for a while, study something and do alot of shit. then when your done dont rush into a boring career, get out and enjoy life.
thats just an idea. you could also just fuck everything off for a few years and party/travel all around. literally just take every experience/opportunity that comes to you and dont worry about fucking up. its not a big deal. dont live too safe afraid to do something stupid, thats what kids do, they do stupid shit and they learn from it. this is how you live life.w go into everything with a positive mindset always moving forward and looking for new opportunities.
heres the real deal, if your not on track to be a doctor, lawyer, professional whatever, then it just doesnt really fucking matter. there are people that fuck there lives up for years living nowhere and using meth/heroin and finally get clean in their late 20s early 30s and within a few months of getting clean have an above average full time job with benefits. ive seen it plenty of times. what im saying is if your not on track for something spectacular then just go crazy and live life to the fullest while you can. get a cool seasonal job somewhere, or just straight up move somewhere you think is cool, go do/see the things you want to see, or start some business from scratch and see where it goes young people do that all the time and some hit it big. dont skip out on anything because when you are older you will regret it. laziness will destroy your life.
you have no lease, no kids, no girlfriend, no dog, you are literally a free man so go do whatever it is you really want to do. this may be the only chance you get do it. life can change in an instant and you could be tied down one way or another very quickly.
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Psion
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Led Zeppelin]
#26914576 - 09/02/20 09:09 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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well, i wouldn't say no time for rest. do take the time for rest and laziness, as that's important too, to process the experiences you've had. boredom is an important tool too - it leads to you daydreaming, which leads to creativity and coming up with interesting new ideas, as well as seeing as how what you've learned connects to your life and how it can help you in the future.
also sleep is damn important. :P you can go weeks to months without food, if you got fat on you. you can go a week or two without water, unless you're in like Death Valley or something. only air is more important. you can only go a couple days without sleep before you start hallucinating, and even before then, a single day with a few hours of missed sleep results in needing a week or more of rest just to make up for it. you cannot "bank" sleep. you cannot "catch up" on the weekend. get your 7-10 hours of sleep, depending on your individual needs, every day, and your body and mind will thank you. also, it will stave off Alzheimer's and you will stay looking younger far longer. sleep is very important for staving off wrinkles, processing what you've learned that day, and clearing your mind's memory banks so you can actually remember things the next day instead of living in a fugue state of barely remembering what you did the day.
i would say play hard, but rest hard. don't be afraid to try new things, but don't be afraid to take breaks as well. be like the cat. cats are fickle, chaotic creatures. cats don't give a fuck. cats will lick their balls while you watch. cats will take a nap, then suddenly sprint across the hallway in the middle of the night at breakneck speed. cats are very silly creatures, who do not take themselves seriously at all, except when they feel like doing so. whatever is the most fun and relaxing.
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