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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Crazy_Horse]
#26903679 - 08/28/20 08:10 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Crazy_Horse said: "There's still time to change the road you're on" - Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Shiithead]
#26903680 - 08/28/20 08:11 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah and I worked for and deserve that money.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: PatrickKn]
#26903683 - 08/28/20 08:13 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Mental disability that has developed to the point that I am unable to work right now. Paranoia, depression, anxiety, adhd, ptsd. All that stereotypical crap, yeah except I have it all to a degree.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam] 1
#26903684 - 08/28/20 08:13 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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WHAT!? Been working for years have you? Been putting in/getting taxed major amounts of cash have you?
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam] 1
#26903685 - 08/28/20 08:14 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Cut out all nasty drinks and only drink water. Cut out all processed foods. Eat healthy for just 1 month and see how you feel. I'm 9 days into no soda or processed garbage and I feel AMAZING.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: spirit_shadow]
#26903690 - 08/28/20 08:15 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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spirit_shadow said: Cut out all nasty drinks and only drink water. Cut out all processed foods. Eat healthy for just 1 month and see how you feel. I'm 9 days into no soda or processed garbage and I feel AMAZING.
Sound advice. I might have a soda once a week.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: tyrannicalrex]
#26903691 - 08/28/20 08:15 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Let's just say.. wait. No let's not say anything other then I found that money on the ground.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: tyrannicalrex]
#26903694 - 08/28/20 08:16 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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tyrannicalrex said:
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spirit_shadow said: Cut out all nasty drinks and only drink water. Cut out all processed foods. Eat healthy for just 1 month and see how you feel. I'm 9 days into no soda or processed garbage and I feel AMAZING.
Sound advice. I might have a soda once a week.
Did you know if you switch to water for just a month your cognitive processes increase up to 30%? That's a MASSIVE increase
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam] 1
#26903709 - 08/28/20 08:25 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah, pump the brakes, homeboy.
You have more than enough time to right the ship. First step, stop or cut back the drinking. Second step, find a job and get a steady place of residence. Probably beg, borrow, steal the residence first, get a job no matter how bad it is, pay that person who helped you with a living space back. Do that with interest. Money might be tight, but that person that helped you probably isn't in that much of a different state. Step three, start a reasonable exercise regime. Ride a bike, go for a run, take a long walk. Either way, go clear your head. Work sucks, bills suck, you have to create a positive form of relief. Step four, develop hobbies and interests. You are living for a reason, and that isn't to be a slave. Find ways to enjoy life by partaking in things the are rewarding. Step five, flourish. The world is in front of you. Forget the negatives that have brought you down. You own this life, and it will be what you want.
Steps four through five are the slow burners. Be patient, keep digging, and keep going! Also, take advantage of programs like food stamps, energy supplement, whatever you can get. These programs are meant to help you grow and contribute to society, there is no shame in using them. I say that as somebody that lived on the streets and in his car for some time. I now have a house, a family, three cars, motorcycles, all sorts of shit, and life is good. You can do it!
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam] 2
#26903774 - 08/28/20 09:21 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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You were victimized as a child, and that's very difficult to deal with, especially with no role models to show you how non-abusive people act. With no examples or guidance towards how to heal those wounds, you quite naturally turned to dulling their pain. Society tends to think that that is somehow your fault, you made a bad decision and deserve to be where you are. Well, I'm telling you that's bullshit. You were a kid when you were abused. What were you supposed to do? The people who you should most be able to trust abused you and perhaps even more importantly, they broke trust with you. I'm not exaggerating when I say this, I'm tearing up right now because my soul hurts for what you went through. I'm sorry that happened to you.
I think you should seek out a Celebrate Recovery program near you and go. It isn't an addiction recovery program, at least not exclusively like it sounds like. It's actually for anyone who has come to the end of their rope and said, this can't be what I was made for. They can help you in a holistic way.
The reason I don't think you should necessarily start with a community mental health type place is because they don't work very well. They're overburdened, and have strict guidelines and rules, and you may see a therapist only once a month. But the main reason is this: You need some people to love you right now and remind you that no matter what has happened to you, you are a singular, unique person and you matter. You aren't going to get that at a mental health center anywhere near as good as you will at Celebrate Recovery. The people there are more genuine than you'll meet anywhere else in any program. This is how I think of it: The "trained professionals" in mental health are the ones to look to for advancement of understanding, but the trained laypeople, in groups like CR and others, are where to look for the application. At CR, you may well find a person willing to build into your life, every single day of your life, for the rest of your life. A therapist at a CMH center has entirely too many patients to ever do that.
I can't imagine what you've been through, but I know you were made for more. All your damage and all your bad decisions you may have made up until now have not changed your value at all.

The stains on this $100 bill have not changed its value at all. I'm going to say a prayer for you after I post this. I genuinely hope you find your way.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Srirachi]
#26903793 - 08/28/20 09:36 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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, excellent post!
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: tyrannicalrex] 1
#26904211 - 08/28/20 01:25 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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The first step to a better path would be accepting responsibility and accountability.
Quit blaming things on your parents. Quit defining yourself as a victim. Figure out how to be productive.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: InfiniteDreams]
#26904251 - 08/28/20 01:39 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yep.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Srirachi] 1
#26904587 - 08/28/20 04:42 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you for showing me what I have been blind to. I actually had a pretty good day today, it must of been because of the prayer.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26904607 - 08/28/20 04:54 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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No it's fine man, if you are blind that just means you can take others eyes without losing yours
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26904823 - 08/28/20 07:23 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kelazam said: Yeah and I worked for and deserve that money.
Uh didn't the government give you the money. How did you work for it?
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Patlal]
#26904866 - 08/28/20 07:57 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Kelazam said: I was kicked out of my mothers house when I was 16. Been in and out of the mental hospital totaling over 4 months of being a prisoner I mean patient. Lost all friends and family Can't seem to find a permenant place of living. Moving out tomorrow AGAIN super nervous drinking again i drink a lot usually vodka. I just pay my friend to get me absolute vodka and he thinks im weird for drinking it straight out of the bottle and sometimes i get called a drunkerd but im only 18. Any suggestions?
Change path
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Patlal] 1
#26905312 - 08/29/20 12:12 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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first off, the idea of "normal" is laughable. no one is normal. there is no "normal" person with perfectly average IQ and perfectly average income and perfectly average looks. get that toxic shit out of your mind right this minute - everyone is secretly a COMPLETE FREAK INSIDE AND OUT. i don't mean this in a bad way - we all have our flaws and our amazing talents.
and here's another secret - it's sometimes our flaws that our our best strengths. sometimes stubbornness can become our resolve. sometimes anger can be channeled into righteous fury. sometimes seeing the world in a weird way can be used to connect dots to lead to new inventions - it's all about using your strange quirks in the right way. there are no mistakes and flaws, only hidden treasures waiting to be used correctly, if you have the will and cleverness to find it. and don't be afraid - it can take a lifetime for people to realize how to use their flaws and turn them into their greatest strengths. it's merely part of your personal growth.
but it's difficult to discover such things when your mind is clouded by drink. it's called a depressant for a reason. it's best to keep that stuff away from you as much as possible - leave it for social occasions, or even entirely if you can. as an added bonus, you will save a lot of money by doing this, which will help stabilize your financial situation, making it easier for finding a place to live on your own. most habits aren't cheap. except maybe online video games, like final fantasy XIV. that's only 13 bucks a month. unless you're spending a ton of money on crap in the mog station for glamour outfits and mounts for some reason, but you don't need to do that lol. (a real fun game by the way, great story!)
regardless of how shitty your lifes been, you can't go through life going "I'VE HAD A SHITTY LIFE OK, SO I'M GOING TO KEEP WALLOWING IN MY SHITTY FILTH FOREVER! WAAAH!". sorry, but do you really want to live like that? yeah, didn't think so. pick yourself up. clean yourself off. the best kind of revenge you can have is showing that you're better and stronger than your tormenters. don't be bound by the past - be like a lotus plant - unstained by the filth of the past. like a plant, take the shit of the earth, turn it into nutrients, and grow from it. turn it into a beautiful flower, defying Discordia itself, and shout out your love for yourself and your joy for the future, because you can see a brighter tomorrow. it doesn't matter if you can't see it yet - even if you can't see the sun, you can still feel the warmth of it on your skin, yes?
if you close your eyes, and feel closely, you just may feel it with your heart. the future's promise, the faint call of love and hope from the distance. if you strive toward it, seek toward it, you will eventually reach it. it may not be tomorrow, or even the next day, but you WILL reach it, if you keep striving toward it, just as a seed reaching through the mud eventually breaks though and finds the sun.
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Psion]
#26907599 - 08/30/20 11:24 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: I don't think I'm going down a good path [Re: Kelazam]
#26908172 - 08/30/20 03:26 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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You, consciously or not, posited your biggest barrier - and then reject notions to quit.
Say wut
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