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Anonymous #1

Does anyone else feel horribly alone?
    #26885822 - 08/17/20 10:03 PM (3 years, 5 months ago)

I'm not talking about the quarantine. I just feel alone, even when with people.

The sad part is that I at least do have people. I have a girlfriend, who I'm not totally in love with, but she is my best friend. I have a few friends I've been able to get together and play poker with. It just feels like every little thing irritates me.

I dunno; I have a few issues I've been working through in therapy and whatnot. I'm just curious if anyone else struggles to really connect with people.


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Anonymous #2

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #26885845 - 08/17/20 10:37 PM (3 years, 5 months ago)

Yes, is the bottom line answer. But I can offer zero words of wisdom.  I had a dysfunctional childhood and have also had some counseling which has helped. But I feel different from other people.  They go out, laugh (at ridiculous things, IMO) dance, go to concerts (well, before COVID), and do all sorts of social things... I guess I'm just not a very social person. I'm an introvert who likes to think about things deeply and have meaningful discussions, so my friends think I'm kind of a drag.  It's okay. It's not great, but I'm getting through.  I figure eventually I'll find some people more like myself.  Maybe then I'll be happier, I dunno.  Good luck to you.


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Anonymous #3

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #26885884 - 08/17/20 11:23 PM (3 years, 5 months ago)

My guess is that you are very empathetic and somehow translate the lack of empathy others show you as a feeling of isolation.

Expect nothing from others, as the vast majority of people are very selfish, anything you do recieve be thankful for, if you can get used to training your feelings in this way, you will always feel content.

Keep in mind my diagnosis is not nearly as important as my prescription, which is a healthy dose of joy right down in your heart.
:heart:

And I am never alone when the joy is in my heart.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #26885934 - 08/18/20 12:56 AM (3 years, 5 months ago)

I appreciate your input, thank you. I feel very similar in some respects. I hope things can get better than just "getting through", for you and all of us who feel that way.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #3]
    #26885936 - 08/18/20 12:59 AM (3 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #3 said:
My guess is that you are very empathetic and somehow translate the lack of empathy others show you as a feeling of isolation.





I like this, thank you for your insight. I was an incredibly empathetic as a child, almost to a fault, and although I feel like I've lost some of that it's likely I still give more empathy than I get in return. I should adjust my expectations accordingly, as you say.

I will do my best to cultivate joy in my heart, even when it is most difficult.


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Anonymous #4

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #26918957 - 09/05/20 09:56 AM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Yes, even before quarantine I was isolated. Now people are afraid to leave their homes and stand 6 feet away from another. Being close to your inner circle, there is anxiety you will get them sick or vice versa. The politicization of every problem is slamming the stake to further divide us. Being an introvert on top of it is tough. You're not alone.

I -highly- recommend a book- Quiet, The power of introverts in a world that can't stop talking, by Susan Cain.  It really helped me.


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Anonymous #5

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #26923714 - 09/07/20 07:55 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Most people are alone, it's a side effect of technology.

Hit up some conventions, plants, comiccon, furry, etc, find people, jump into a D&D group (read the player's hand book first).


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Anonymous #6

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #5]
    #26938203 - 09/15/20 11:21 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Yep, and anxious too. Finally, after 40 years going to see a psych and a shrink about my issues.


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Anonymous #7

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #26941312 - 09/17/20 08:39 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Yup thanks Covid and Trump


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Anonymous #8

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #7] * 1
    #26945465 - 09/20/20 02:54 AM (3 years, 4 months ago)

You smoke weed
You get baked
You play the ukulele
thats life mon.....


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Anonymous #4

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #8]
    #26945991 - 09/20/20 11:02 AM (3 years, 4 months ago)



So I wait, for the day that I hear the key,
As it turns in the lock as the guard will say to me-
"Oh my patient prisoner you've been waiting for this day, and finally,
You are free,
You are free,
You are free."


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Anonymous #9

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #26948555 - 09/21/20 09:55 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Your really not alone. I had a highly respected job and covid fucked that all up. Now I’m scraping by. Most of my friends got married and are having kids and I’m quarantined in a different city. It sucks and I feel your pain. I too saw a psych for the first time and oh man the look on his face said a lot. This has to be how Kim Jong Un feels super isolated.

sadly we live in a time where if you feel like shit all the docs do is throw chemical spaghetti at the wall. I told the doc I used to drink a lot in college and he said I could be an alcoholic but I dont even drink anymore. One bht even wanted me to go to rehab for weed and im a mmj card holder. I feel super alone cuz the docs report positive drug test even if its from medical marijuana. My family way too old school to explain that which drives me even crazier. 

see your not alone. I’ve been bored out of my mind for weeks.


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Anonymous #10

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #9]
    #26950190 - 09/22/20 09:53 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Yea, literally all i do now is jerk my durkin all day long.

I havent even seen another creature in years.

So i just jerk my durkin until it durks .


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Anonymous #11

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #10]
    #26950577 - 09/23/20 07:09 AM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Perhaps some respect to privacy. No one wants that information. If you need a wedding then that can probably be arranged but what you two do when no one else is around is between you two.

Literally my wife read this and spit out her coffee and asked what the sanctity of marriage means anymore? We are literally about to get divorced plus she has been bothering me with her real estate job making more money then me one upping me so this divorce was coming from a mile away anyway.

But still. Cmon you have no fucking decency?


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Anonymous #8

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #11]
    #26952050 - 09/23/20 11:49 PM (3 years, 4 months ago)

Ketamine cures depression.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #8]
    #26993123 - 10/19/20 02:34 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #8 said:
Ketamine cures depression.




For two weeks* IME

But yes, it does. You can even get a prescription for it now.


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Anonymous #12

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #26993172 - 10/19/20 03:06 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

Yes


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Anonymous #13

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #26993782 - 10/19/20 10:42 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

i do ig cus no1 likes me


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Anonymous #14

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #13]
    #26993812 - 10/19/20 11:07 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

I feel the same way man. And not having any drugs has made it worse. Havent smoked in nearly a year and I'm itchin for it a little bit.


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Anonymous #15

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
    #26993998 - 10/20/20 06:03 AM (3 years, 3 months ago)

In the late sixties and into the seventies I did acid hundreds of times, and although I had great trips, I did see other people who had varying degrees of bad trips.
The one thing that all those bad trips had in common was the basic realization that we are all here so very alone.  It is the profound existential price one pays for being an individual in a universe that seems indifferent to our presence.


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Anonymous #15

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #15]
    #26994028 - 10/20/20 06:56 AM (3 years, 3 months ago)

And freedom, oh, freedom, well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walkin' through this world all alone

````Desperado


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Anonymous #14

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #15]
    #26994787 - 10/20/20 03:12 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #15 said:
In the late sixties and into the seventies I did acid hundreds of times, and although I had great trips, I did see other people who had varying degrees of bad trips.
The one thing that all those bad trips had in common was the basic realization that we are all here so very alone.  It is the profound existential price one pays for being an individual in a universe that seems indifferent to our presence.



I've realized that too, only person that's really there for you is yourself.


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Anonymous #16

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
    #26998492 - 10/22/20 06:46 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

I want to move somewhere to be alone but there are no jobs and you end up living on someones property anyway with the house being small


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Anonymous #17

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
    #27005104 - 10/26/20 05:44 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

Get up, go to work, no one's there anymore, come home to a stressful home life.  Not a way to live. This is why I'm a little hesitant to try shrooms again.  40 years ago I tripped a bit, both man-made and shrooms.  Used to call it "scrubbing bubbles for the brain" (old bathtub cleaner jingle).  I've always struggled with depression, and the doctors just want to pill you into oblivion.  Want to grow some cubes and try microdosing.  Anything more than that and I'm afraid that 40 years of mental baggage will make it unpleasant...some truths you just don't want to face.


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Anonymous #14

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #17]
    #27005427 - 10/26/20 09:15 PM (3 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #17 said:
Get up, go to work, no one's there anymore, come home to a stressful home life.  Not a way to live. This is why I'm a little hesitant to try shrooms again.  40 years ago I tripped a bit, both man-made and shrooms.  Used to call it "scrubbing bubbles for the brain" (old bathtub cleaner jingle).  I've always struggled with depression, and the doctors just want to pill you into oblivion.  Want to grow some cubes and try microdosing.  Anything more than that and I'm afraid that 40 years of mental baggage will make it unpleasant...some truths you just don't want to face.



I think microdosing would really help and I highly recommend it. Especially if the other option for you is taking pills


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Anonymous #18

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
    #27038422 - 11/14/20 08:46 AM (3 years, 2 months ago)

Alienation is just the normal side effect of living in a modern destructive capitalist dog eat dog world. Generates a lot of profit.


Edited by Anonymous (11/14/20 09:26 AM)


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Anonymous #19

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #18]
    #27053365 - 11/23/20 04:58 AM (3 years, 2 months ago)

Maybe you need a personal relationship with God.

Whatever that factually is, God or naturally occurring chatbot, it works for Asante.


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Anonymous #20

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #19]
    #27053435 - 11/23/20 06:25 AM (3 years, 2 months ago)

Horribly alone, yes

Lonely? Idk. I barely tolerate people, but that's because I am touched in the head and I assume everyone wants to tussle or fuck with me in some weird manner...which, idk, theres been thousands of "coincidences" or it's people being assholes every single time a d for some reason it is to me. Also I don't trust people nor have I found someone who clicks enough with me. Closest friends are a zillion km away.

I understand that the world doesn't revolve around me

But I get the feeling that there is nothing in this world for me, that I wasn't supposed to exist. I get that feeling a lot...and I did get confirmation on that. Also my childhood sucked...and early adulthood sucked...and adulthood sucks. I really do not understand the point of this. Even if there was a God, after I die, if a god exists and I get to meet it, I am going to yell "wtf, that entire 'existence' was absolutely pathetic, what do you even call that? You call yourself a god?"

And yeah if theres a hell I imagine a God that never was nice to anyone and thought we could all be their little puppets or playthings, will condemn me to a fiery eternity. In which case, idgaf. What, so my soul has feelings? Nah. I have no feelings. If you were to touch my soul you'd get frostbite immediately and you'd have these droopy arms /charliesheen

Nah I don't believe in a god. Not really. If believing in something that I cannot even imagine exists, then no...I am done. Plus, I have plenty of my own subjective evidence that suggests that there's not much to life, all this is an accident, and...well, when the piss flies in the direction of the wind blowing towards you each time, it kinda sucks.

Honestly, done with life in general.


Edited by Anonymous (11/23/20 06:28 AM)


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Anonymous #21

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #20]
    #27062377 - 11/29/20 02:29 AM (3 years, 1 month ago)

OP, are you alone or do you prefer your own company? Is it alone, lonely, or both?


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Anonymous #22

Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #21]
    #27065729 - 12/01/20 03:13 AM (3 years, 1 month ago)

I know exactly what you mean and everything you said in the OP totally hit home. I enjoy being alone. I'm alone but not lonely. When I'm hanging out with people I feel alone and very distant with them because most people just don't talk about the deep philosophical things that I like to talk about.

I don't really connect with people much other than with superficial small things like talking about the weather or some dumb bull shit like that. Even the guy that I'm sort of dating, I can talk to him about deep things but I can't talk to him about drugs. He hates drugs. I would love to be able to talk to him about my tripping experiences but I don't have anyone except for the people on shroomery.

So yeah I know exactly how you feel.


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