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Anonymous #15
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #15]
#26994028 - 10/20/20 06:56 AM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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And freedom, oh, freedom, well, that's just some people talkin' Your prison is walkin' through this world all alone
````Desperado
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Anonymous #14
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #15]
#26994787 - 10/20/20 03:12 PM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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Anonymous #15 said: In the late sixties and into the seventies I did acid hundreds of times, and although I had great trips, I did see other people who had varying degrees of bad trips. The one thing that all those bad trips had in common was the basic realization that we are all here so very alone. It is the profound existential price one pays for being an individual in a universe that seems indifferent to our presence.
I've realized that too, only person that's really there for you is yourself.
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Anonymous #16
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
#26998492 - 10/22/20 06:46 PM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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I want to move somewhere to be alone but there are no jobs and you end up living on someones property anyway with the house being small
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Anonymous #17
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
#27005104 - 10/26/20 05:44 PM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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Get up, go to work, no one's there anymore, come home to a stressful home life. Not a way to live. This is why I'm a little hesitant to try shrooms again. 40 years ago I tripped a bit, both man-made and shrooms. Used to call it "scrubbing bubbles for the brain" (old bathtub cleaner jingle). I've always struggled with depression, and the doctors just want to pill you into oblivion. Want to grow some cubes and try microdosing. Anything more than that and I'm afraid that 40 years of mental baggage will make it unpleasant...some truths you just don't want to face.
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Anonymous #14
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #17]
#27005427 - 10/26/20 09:15 PM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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Anonymous #17 said: Get up, go to work, no one's there anymore, come home to a stressful home life. Not a way to live. This is why I'm a little hesitant to try shrooms again. 40 years ago I tripped a bit, both man-made and shrooms. Used to call it "scrubbing bubbles for the brain" (old bathtub cleaner jingle). I've always struggled with depression, and the doctors just want to pill you into oblivion. Want to grow some cubes and try microdosing. Anything more than that and I'm afraid that 40 years of mental baggage will make it unpleasant...some truths you just don't want to face.
I think microdosing would really help and I highly recommend it. Especially if the other option for you is taking pills
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Anonymous #18
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #14]
#27038422 - 11/14/20 08:46 AM (3 years, 5 months ago) |
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Alienation is just the normal side effect of living in a modern destructive capitalist dog eat dog world. Generates a lot of profit.
Edited by Anonymous (11/14/20 09:26 AM)
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Anonymous #19
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #18]
#27053365 - 11/23/20 04:58 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Maybe you need a personal relationship with God.
Whatever that factually is, God or naturally occurring chatbot, it works for Asante.
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Anonymous #20
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #19]
#27053435 - 11/23/20 06:25 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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Horribly alone, yes
Lonely? Idk. I barely tolerate people, but that's because I am touched in the head and I assume everyone wants to tussle or fuck with me in some weird manner...which, idk, theres been thousands of "coincidences" or it's people being assholes every single time a d for some reason it is to me. Also I don't trust people nor have I found someone who clicks enough with me. Closest friends are a zillion km away.
I understand that the world doesn't revolve around me
But I get the feeling that there is nothing in this world for me, that I wasn't supposed to exist. I get that feeling a lot...and I did get confirmation on that. Also my childhood sucked...and early adulthood sucked...and adulthood sucks. I really do not understand the point of this. Even if there was a God, after I die, if a god exists and I get to meet it, I am going to yell "wtf, that entire 'existence' was absolutely pathetic, what do you even call that? You call yourself a god?"
And yeah if theres a hell I imagine a God that never was nice to anyone and thought we could all be their little puppets or playthings, will condemn me to a fiery eternity. In which case, idgaf. What, so my soul has feelings? Nah. I have no feelings. If you were to touch my soul you'd get frostbite immediately and you'd have these droopy arms /charliesheen
Nah I don't believe in a god. Not really. If believing in something that I cannot even imagine exists, then no...I am done. Plus, I have plenty of my own subjective evidence that suggests that there's not much to life, all this is an accident, and...well, when the piss flies in the direction of the wind blowing towards you each time, it kinda sucks.
Honestly, done with life in general.
Edited by Anonymous (11/23/20 06:28 AM)
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Anonymous #21
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #20]
#27062377 - 11/29/20 02:29 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP, are you alone or do you prefer your own company? Is it alone, lonely, or both?
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Anonymous #22
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Re: Does anyone else feel horribly alone? [Re: Anonymous #21]
#27065729 - 12/01/20 03:13 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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I know exactly what you mean and everything you said in the OP totally hit home. I enjoy being alone. I'm alone but not lonely. When I'm hanging out with people I feel alone and very distant with them because most people just don't talk about the deep philosophical things that I like to talk about.
I don't really connect with people much other than with superficial small things like talking about the weather or some dumb bull shit like that. Even the guy that I'm sort of dating, I can talk to him about deep things but I can't talk to him about drugs. He hates drugs. I would love to be able to talk to him about my tripping experiences but I don't have anyone except for the people on shroomery.
So yeah I know exactly how you feel.
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