Heroic dose trip report, 5grams. I experienced ego death, complete love and acceptance of myself, lost my fear of death, processed years of trauma, felt the entire spectrum of emotions, and fell in love.
Man words can't even describe the trip that I had tonight but I'm going to try so here's my trip report. I can honestly say this has been probably the best experience of my life so far holy crap I'm still trying to process it. So I took five grams and went into my room completely alone with the intention of spending it in silent darkness. before the trip I asked the mushroom to heal my heart of all the trauma that I've been through I mean I've had like three heart surgeries by the way. so I will have to admit I had a complete loss of self, complete ego death experience, I couldn't tell myself from the the background and everything was just connected. I was seeing crazy visuals everything was alive and I was talking out loud and I was speaking and I was doing all kinds of like self therapy in that space of consciousness.
This magical mystical space of consciousness ended up taking me on an adventure outside. I got up and realized hey I'm having a really good trip let's go outside and get some fresh air. ended up going on at least an hour long walk with my dog around the neighbourhood. Everything was alive I was connected to everything the clouds were moving so fast and there was like crazy lines and visuals around them and the trees look like lungs and I was walking around saying I love you and thank you to the trees and walking around probably looking like a crazy person talking to myself doing this crazy therapy work on myself. I felt like I was performing magik.
Ended up sitting in a field looking up at the clouds for a little while and then kept going on the walk and went to a park that overlooks the city. Sat on a bench there for the while looking over beautiful downtown area, spectacular wow. I felt years and years of trauma being lifted away, years of depression and anxiety and fear just being completely lifted and torn to shreds as my ego was forced to bow down to the magnificence of the universe around me. And I just have this profound appreciation for the universe now and the midnight gospel has been one of the best shows in my life by the way I love it.
After sitting in the park for a little while I decided to head home I was feeling thirsty, a little bit dehydrated, sweaty and wanted to get home. I was feeling tired and starting to come down a little bit. On the way home I could feel myself just completely letting go of the trauma, I threw up a few times like you do on shrooms, it's a cleansing. they detox you, your nose runs, you sweat, it's medicine. I finally got home collapsed in the bed got some water, connected with people online listen to music and came to the realization that maybe I might be in love???
I went to a drive-in movie with this girl last night and probably the best date I've ever had to be completely honest and we have a ton in common, she wants to do shrooms with me. She's also had heart surgeries and met her at a heart camp last year. and I'm starting to realize that maybe I do. I don't know I've never had a relationship, I've never had these feelings and I don't know what to do with it but this has been the best mushroom trip of my life and I feel amazing. through this trip I felt every emotion from sadness loneliness fear ecstasy joy passion love every emotion just running through me. This has been one of the best experiences of my life mushrooms are amazing and they are healing and therapeutic and I can't honestly talk about them enough. They have helped me more in my spiritual emotional Journey than anything else.❤️🍄✌️😁 I wish you all love and peace.
Namastex ❤️
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