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willowsmind
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analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip
#26834659 - 07/20/20 05:39 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hi guys, I wanted to share with you my experiences and foray into Psilocybe subaeruginosa. I became curious about mushrooms at the age of 36. Hadn't tried any other drugs before that except for weed which I've been smoking a couple of times a week for the past few years. I started enthusiastically foraging this season and have consumed about 6 times. Only small doses, maximum I did was 2 grams but I'm quite sensitive and get a similar experience with 1 gram. My experiences were mostly really positive and fun on low doses. Did it with a friend, smoked a joint or two a couple of hours in. Minor visuals, colours so vivid, child-like wonder, deep thinking, very empathetic, connecting with nature etc. I wanna share with two experiences that were the most profound for me. One of them was a 1 gram dose. When it hit, I went to take a bath. It was amazing. I used lots of salts with essential oils and my legs were floating in the bath, the steam was trippy and the music soothing. But then I got really sentimental and started to think about all my relationships with people and I cried a lot. Tried to pull myself together because I wanted to go outside and enjoy the sun but I had to stay in my room. It was a pleasant sadness though. I was even laughing at the same time as my nose ran and dripped all over the desk that looked out onto the front garden. It was very therapeutic and the next day I felt great. Obviously needed a bit of a release. The most interesting experience was last weekend, alone. I ate 1.5 grams but I wanted to try the lemon tek method (i usually grind to powder, steep in orange juice for 5 minutes and drink it down). I wanted to try the lemon tek and then strain out the solids to try and reduce the nausea. I'd also read mixed things about straining and losing potency. Soaked for half an hour in plenty of lemon juice, strained it then drank with a bit of added OJ. Thought the effects would come on a lot quicker, it's usually 30 minutes with my usual method. Didn't feel much after 50 minutes so I ate another large dried mushroom. Probably was almost a gram on its own. Started to feel quite nauseous as the effects came on. Maybe 1 hour later I smoked a joint. This weed is strong as f*ck. Boom, it kicked in. The shift. This is when, for the first time I took some notes and for probably an hour it was amazing but then it started to get challenging and it went a bit down hill. The one thing that stands out the most in the first part was the clouds were rolling in. They were marching in in huge sheets and they were quite low, It felt like they were watching my and controlling everything below. They weren't ominous but as I wrote below, you respected them. I felt they were a force that was in charge. I'll share with you my notes and then I'll explain how I feel about it. Holy shit this is funny.
Amplified senses What do you know about the sun? Colours so vivid and alive Objects pop out Laser focus Noticing and observing skills improve Smiling at cloud shapes You feel equal to the plants and trees. You don’t dominate them Went to check on sausage roll Excursion to garden, wind communicating, plants vibrating Delicious sausage roll Lady struggles with bins. I have a giggle from the safety of my room Man proudly dominating a hedge with an electric hedge trimmer. Weather changes, clouds remind you they are powerful, it makes you respect and realise how powerful nature is. It dictates so much of how we live our life. Noticing myself. Connecting with the mind. Vision distorting slightly being aware of your self. Notice I write self not yourself. Equality with nature. Why am I writing this? Can definitely notice my mind and my brain working. You notice your thoughts. Noticed that I was relaxed. Noticed my mind. Harder to spell. In and out of tripping and different levels of mind. Acsessing different levels of your mind and also noticing that you have stored memories. So this is a trip. In and out of different modes of operating the mind Noticed myself thinking that this will be funny to read tomorrow. The mind is powerful. Can see how hippies come about. Can connect and plug in to your mind. Set the intention before. Should stop eating these m&m’s. This is a trip report. Some quite scattered thoughts. Probably shouldn’t share this with anyone. Awareness of your emotions. Have a break from eating mushrooms. Maybe I shouldn’t eat mushrooms again . Weird experience.
I must have been in my bed for about 2.5 hours. Then I noticed the weather getting really hectic. A small storm. And I got a message from my housemate whose car window is broken and she wanted me to move my car so she could get under the carport (which we don't use for cars). But then the firewood was in the way and she couldn’t close the electric door which is a problem because the dog will escape. I came out and she was in a rage trying to fit her car in. It was hectic. I’d just woken from the trip and the weather was grim and I had to deal with someone’s anger and negative emotions. Spoke to her today and she’s fine was annoyed but obviously I was more sensitive and in reality it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. The next day I felt a bit down, very drained, slightly nervous, a bit irritable, trying to piece together my trip and how I felt about it. One thing that I didn't write in my notes was that I kept getting a warning, that I probably shouldn't take mushrooms again. I remember thinking that this is how people become psychotic and crazy. So I'm not sure if I should listen to that warning. Obviously I'll give it a decent amount of time before I think about having another experience, but I was really looking forward to having a higher dose. I'm not sure if the warning was a result of fear of the unknown. Because this was the first time I had gone deep inside my head and been so conscious of these different levels of 'consciousness' that you can go in and out of and that perception of self and being so aware of your thoughts. It feels like I was trapped in that mode for a while and at the time, I didn't really find it pleasant, it was quite strange. Honestly, I'm not really sure what it was but I was in bed for 2 hours in this state and oblivious to the crazy weather outside and all the other shit that was going on outside my bedroom. I want to know what you guys think about this experience. How much do you listen to and how much do you ignore when you get these messages from experiences? Is it common for people to experience fear after they have a challenging first experience? I think it may have been the combo of the mushroom and herb. Not sure. And I think my lemon tek dose hit at least an hour later which is odd. Thanks for reading and I look forward to your comments. Hopefully that amused you but I'd also like some constructive comments about managing these types of feelings based on your experiences with this powerful little fungi. Cheers
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microbiome88
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: willowsmind]
#26834793 - 07/20/20 06:48 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thanks for the interesting read. I am a novice tripper and I feel the same apprehension as you about going "big" and so I look forward to the guidance forthcoming from the experienced trippers in this community
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: microbiome88]
#26834858 - 07/20/20 07:42 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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I would say such feelings are normal, at least for some days after the trip, since you probably are still digesting what had happened. I have found that when everything finally is processed through the less good emotions and thoughts disappear and you are ready for the next trip and can go in with increased knowledge and expectations. The experience with your housemate probably didn't help, someone else's state will easily rub off to you when under influence of the mushies.
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: willowsmind]
#26834961 - 07/20/20 08:35 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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you do not have to decide about tripping again for at least 4 months. let the memories of this brew in your mind.
it's always a personal decision, and to respect the person (yourself) you need to give them time to sort out the facts and impressions.
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: redgreenvines]
#26834977 - 07/20/20 08:42 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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microbiome88
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: redgreenvines]
#26835437 - 07/21/20 04:36 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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redgreenvines said: you do not have to decide about tripping again for at least 4 months. let the memories of this brew in your mind.
it's always a personal decision, and to respect the person (yourself) you need to give them time to sort out the facts and impressions.
Can I ask why 4 months is the period you recommend?
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: microbiome88]
#26835446 - 07/21/20 04:46 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Within 3 months you will have recovered completely physiologically and will probably be in a more stable situation.
this question should not realistically come up unless your friends or dealer are chasing your decision. A future commitment to trip is not very realistic while you are still processing the last one, unless you are convinced that tripping will take you back to what you need to face in order to get the understanding of the previous trip (it can get complicated)
I said 4 months because by then you will have enough distance to begin detached mature consideration on your own.
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Re: analysing my first deep and somewhat challenging trip [Re: redgreenvines]
#26835508 - 07/21/20 06:34 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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microbiome88 said: Thanks for the interesting read. I am a novice tripper and I feel the same apprehension as you about going "big" and so I look forward to the guidance forthcoming from the experienced trippers in this community 
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redgreenvines said: Within 3 months you will have recovered completely physiologically and will probably be in a more stable situation.
this question should not realistically come up unless your friends or dealer are chasing your decision. A future commitment to trip is not very realistic while you are still processing the last one, unless you are convinced that tripping will take you back to what you need to face in order to get the understanding of the previous trip (it can get complicated)
I said 4 months because by then you will have enough distance to begin detached mature consideration on your own.
Yeah I think I was just so enthusiastic about the whole thing. I've been reading, listening, foraging and preaching everything mushrooms over the last few months. Even though I had only had smaller doses I did that with not enough space in between. Obviously not a good idea. I'll mull over everything for a while and see what happens. Thanks for the comments. When you talk about physiological recovery, is that just based on personal experience or is there evidence to demonstrate that tripping on mushrooms takes a heavy toll on the body and brain?
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