Trip #3. Never eaten dried shrooms but tasted good. Before trip I was a bit exhausted from walking but decided to trip this evening.
They came up pretty quick. First thing I notice is that my every-day working ego stopped working. No more of that chit chatter. Body felt lighter, but lifting an arm would feel heavy.
I didn't trip mega hard and my intention was to keep it under control. I was afraid that I would leave the house or call my parents in a delirious state. I spent first ½ of this trip reflecting back on what I had forgotten from my first trip, but I was now able to remember. That 1st trip was massive, but I had forgotten most of the "spirit" part of it. I had dabbled the idea of "spirit molecule" and how reality felt very dream like in that state. But it becomes hard to remember afterwards. I'm actually semi-anxious of time. The trip was hitting harder and I tried to "make time go faster". Feeling good though as the best was still ahead.
Midway: I'm losing identity. Same feelings of being immortal arise. I laugh at the idea of a body and aging. They feel like an illusion. Why do I need food? I keep thinking that all diseases and sickness of the body are made up. The body feels ecstatic and unbounded. It's like if you do bicep curl and have that feeling in your entire body.
Peak: Feeling unbounded. I do various rituals, dance and move the body around. I try to play WoW but its close to impossible . I don't know where I am at the map, it's very lucid and trippy. Forgiving thoughts even though I had been negative and depressed for a while. Filling my body up with more energy and courage.
All this time, my tongue and mouth have been going crazy. I find the connections that it's a way to try to verbalize the experience and keep it going! I go to bathroom and enjoy silent darkness. This is the part where I remind myself that I am the conscious creator of the experience. Pretty hard to describe this one, but its as if reality feels "6d". I play god and try to create more reality in my mind. There's definitely a "tone" to this and more I do it, the more unbounded I feel. It's like this gif: https://giphy.com/gifs/mrw-wow-impressed-V0IdVIIW1y5d6
Reflections on ego death: I remembered what it was like to experience total reality breakdown. It's a very brief memory, but something like this: I'm in sitting position. As I think of my leg, I morph it into two. In this fashion reality and form loses sense, like I could be anything. Just a vague memory but it came up early on.
tl;dr Slowly tripping more and more into the spirit world again. Whole new appreciation for the body. Reminder that you're hallucinating the experience. I find new appreciation for tribal drum music. Same old forest vibe as from last trip.
I come back. While on the trip I felt no separation, but that same old separation starts to kick in. I'm humbled and play some tunes on the guitar.
Just the perfect dose and very introspective trip!
Edited by nomorefear (07/17/20 02:18 AM)
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