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Tripsurfer
Bring Back Asante!



Registered: 08/01/12
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Re: I'm becoming a real asshole. [Re: NOUS333] 1
#26819778 - 07/12/20 04:03 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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My wife and kids love me, thats all that matters
Now please go and clean the toilet out back, someone had a little accident there
-------------------- Ach en wee ben ik de klos, met mijn boog schoot ik een albatros... A philosopher is a person who knows less and less about more and more, until he knows nothing about everything.

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NOUS333
Stranger Than You


Registered: 12/26/15
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Re: I'm becoming a real asshole. [Re: trees]
#26822620 - 07/14/20 09:43 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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trees said: I have become very embittered too, by employers and family and hypocritical things in every tiny corner of my life experience. I thought yesterday that I am living in a fractal of hypocracy and lies and delays and defunct systems and all around just a shit hole of society. It's been impossible to feel happy lately. I'm increasingly tempted to abandon ship, sell all my possessions before I destroy them myself just survive deprived style, stealth camping every day and just roam around the continents on my motorbike. Deliver grubhub if I need extra cash. I don't want to work for anyone anymore, I have a really bad taste left from my industry that I used to think there was pride to work in, but now I believe that pride and honor in working for society is a fabricated enslaving belief force fed to you through guilt and shame
I feel you man
I get such a bitter taste when people talk themselves and others up for sacrificing their individuality and their own potential for someone elses goals/dreams/means of survival.
I understand we all have to work for someone else at some point. But to get comfortable with doing that for the rest of your life. That is something i cant and wont ever understand. But i guess that is what seperates those who work for themselves and those who work for others. Some oeople can do it. Others cant.
I think when you are like me and it sounds like you are, and you have a competent voice in your head and you see the world for what it really is, working for other people and doing subpar bullshit in shitty environments with shitty people just eats at you. Its not sustainable for people like us. Sure you earn a living but the work you do for that living is killing you at an equal rate your earning. Theres no getting ahead. And i think what happens is, is all these people who are in the najoritty who dont mind working for someone else and submitting to the way things are, they unconsciousy and consciously begin to convince us that the way things are is how its gotta be for everyone. The last thing they ever want to acknowledge or even imagine is possible, is that they are reaponsible for their own destiny and that they have the potential to either save themselves or keep themselves in bondage. They are terrified of the choice itself. Because if the choice exists, who they have really chosen to be comes to light. And they dont want you or anyone else seeing them in that light. And so it seems the majority of society is just participating in this giant collective lie scheme where everyones just covering for the next guy so they can all do the minimum amount of working and thinking required while still being able to sleep at night with their perception of themselves.
Those of us who see and call bullshit, need to figure out by whatever means necessary a way to nurture the side of us that sees it for what it is and seperate ourselves from the lies and the comfortable decievers that want to see us blend in and give in. It gets hard for me personally because i tend to be empathetic and compassionate and sometimes its hard to say to myself ‘fuck what they say, fuck what they think, fuck what they believe’ and just trust fully in myself and my initial judgment. But im starting to think/realize thats exactly what needs to be done. Otherwise who the fuck am i even living for. Whats the point of having a fucking brain at all?
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