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8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness 2
#26780752 - 06/24/20 11:38 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Hello everyone, 2 nights ago i consumed 8 gr dried shrooms. I just sit in meditation position and was recording myself in darkness and silence. When i closed my eyes i just felt into like a black whole, and just vanished in the black whole for almost 3 hours and 45 minutes. In that state, i dont know how to explain it, but i will do my best. Me is(me) happening (meeing). Thats why nothing is happening because i am nothing. Just everything is gone, nothing and infinite. You cant feel, touch, think vs. nothing is happening just you infinite nothing. And nothing is happening. You are not sleeping nor awake, not exist nor exist, not human nor god. You are just nothing infinite singularity. After that i become aware that i am in the body (i left the body for 3 hours 45 minutes and all existence was gone everyone of you), i had crazy energy and worked out 2 and half hours in order to sweat and get rid of toxin of shrooms. I just felt so less in the body, i let the body worked out and watch. I was completely free and had nothing to do with body. It is just unbelievable. You are not even aware that you are nothing, because you are nothing how can you know something ? Infinite nothingness. Existence stopped. I was the core as nothing.
Because this is not an knowledge, knowledge comes from language. This can never be understood with language, because there is no me how can i understand what the language is. Thats why no one will understand me, i will better to shut up. i cant even say being or awareness . Just Empty. Nothing, me. Truth can never be learn with thinking or comes through from language. I am looking forward to hear your responses. Much respect and love.
Edited by KhanCcc (06/25/20 12:18 PM)
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: KhanCcc]
#26780765 - 06/24/20 11:49 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Maha Prajna Paramita Hridaya Sutra ( The Heart Sutra ):
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Avalokiteshvara Bodhisattva, when practicing deeply the Prajna Paramita, perceived that all five skandhas in their own being are empty and was saved from all suffering.
O Shariputra, form does not differ from emptiness, emptiness does not differ from form. That which is form is emptiness, that which is emptiness, form. The same is true of feelings, perceptions, impulses, consciousness.:
O Shariputra, all Dharmas are marked with emptiness. They are without birth or death, are not tainted, nor pure; do not increase, nor decrease. Therefore, in emptiness no form, no feelings, no perceptions, no impulses, no consciousness, no eyes, no ears, no nose, no tongue, no body, no mind, no color, no sound, no smell, no taste, no touch, no object of mind, no world of eyes, through to no world of mind consciousness. No ignorance and also no extinction of it, through to no old age and death and also no extinction of it. No suffering, no origination, no stopping, no path, no cognition, also no attainment, with nothing to attain.
In the Three Worlds all Buddhas depend on Prajna Paramita and attain unsurpassed, complete, perfect Enlightenment. Therefore know: the Prajna Paramita is the great transcendent mantra, is the great bright mantra, is the utmost mantra, is the supreme mantra, which is able to relieve all suffering and is true, not false. So proclaim the Prajna Paramita mantra, proclaim the mantra that says:
Gyate, gyate, paragyate, parasamgyate, bodhi svaha!
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Like an empty mirror confronting a form, it left not a trace behind. Sounds akin to primal non-dual awareness & emptiness, Ring a bell? Or a swing an a miss? Either way - Thanks for sharing. + 5 shrooms for you (ck rating).
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It is infinite emptiness but there is nothing there. So called life fades away so quick like a season of fall. My vision has changed, i feel i see everything same but i am in the movie theater and sitting all the way back. Additionally i dont feel directly, i start to feel through the body (there is distance between me and body). It is so quite here. And i feel less in the body. Do you have any idea of these circumstances? I am in the body as nothing, thats why i am not here. Thank you. Much love. Namaste 🙏
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: KhanCcc]
#26780832 - 06/25/20 12:24 AM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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That's great. Hope it helps you on your way. Can you elaborate on magic mushroom toxins? Never heard of that. Mushlove to you, brother!
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I am not sure how toxic it was, but they were so aggressive. Because as soon as when i was aware that i am in the body (4-5 hours later consuming shrooms), i had a crazy energy (i was about to break my teeth, because i was Squeezing my mouth so much). Therefore i had to work out to sweat. Much love brother ❤️
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: KhanCcc]
#26783428 - 06/25/20 11:07 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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And now you are just telling traces of memories left by feelings By the way, what type did you consume?
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: mattbrd]
#26783494 - 06/26/20 12:17 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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I believe, it was Psilocybe cubensis. But there was no feelings. There was no emotion, just nothing empty me it feels like infinite, and deepest conscience sleep. You are vanished , gone, but awake as nothing.
Edited by KhanCcc (06/26/20 12:28 AM)
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: KhanCcc] 1
#26783766 - 06/26/20 06:17 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thank you for your interesting post! I have been contemplating the concept of nothing myself as I am starting to lean toward the belief that nothingness is the "true" reality, and existence is some sort of tear or ripple in that reality, and such things as matter, space, time, the components needed to realize "existence" are in some ways, flaws, or corruption of the "true" state of nothingness. I totally understand why you find it difficult to put into words, as existence is the only thing we could ever know, because the reality we are in is existence. To me, the nothingness would be the "true" reality (if you can even call it a reality) because existence is a binding, a limitation. In order to move, it takes time, energy, to survive you must consume matter and your dna decides what to do with the matter you acquire, whereas, if you could hypotethically be concsious of a complete and incomprehensible void of everything without having any matter (I know this would not work) it would have a net benefit of being void of both "good" things and "bad" things, to me that is the only freedom.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: KhanCcc]
#26784184 - 06/26/20 10:07 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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KhanCcc said: Because this is not an knowledge, knowledge comes from language.
Doubtful, since you can think quite well without the use of language. Brain has many modalities... 
But Re your experience - awareness doesn't have to have an object but it can be disturbing when you discover that firsthand.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: psyghtseer] 1
#26784217 - 06/26/20 10:18 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thank you for responding back. Your have an great analogy and understanding, i just want to add something to make you comprehend the situation easier. “Existence, world, thoughts, feelings, life, death, god, human” these are all coming from language, all the words are illusion and distinction. There is not 2, only 1. Additionally, you dont eat anything, body eats, you are in the body as nothing, body is empty, whatever you see in the moment is you. Even word of “seeing” learned by body and body sees not you. You are the witness as nothing inside of the body (if i have to put in the words from ultimate truth, this “Me” write these messages to you is an completely illusion, i dont eat anything body eats, i have no control whatsoever), but how can you be everything in the moment? You must be formlessness in the first place to take other forms (thats the reason why body is empty). There is no life happening now (life is just happening with thoughts), if you forget everything in the moment right now, you realize the same thing. As you said only thing that you cant forget is YOU Additionally for freedom, just look at the mirror where are you in the body? Or are you just existed by thoughts? When you get the answer, you will realize it sooner or later it is right in front of you.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms, Infinite Nothingness [Re: PrimalSoup]
#26784237 - 06/26/20 10:26 AM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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KhanCcc said: Because this is not an knowledge, knowledge comes from language.
Doubtful, since you can think quite well without the use of language. Brain has many modalities... 
But Re your experience - awareness doesn't have to have an object but it can be disturbing when you discover that firsthand. 
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KhanCcc said: Because this is not an knowledge, knowledge comes from language.
Doubtful, since you can think quite well without the use of language. Brain has many modalities... 
But Re your experience - awareness doesn't have to have an object but it can be disturbing when you discover that firsthand. 
Definitely. It is doubtful. Thats why truth never comes with language or thinking, which are duality and illusion. Actually, it is nothing but aware. Thats why it could be anything. Even language:) there is not 2, only 1. You are already it, however, you add that you can born, can learn, feel, touch (because you are human lol), think, world, human, death vs. just dont add any. It will finds you.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: KhanCcc]
#26784870 - 06/26/20 02:02 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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KhanCcc said: It is infinite emptiness but there is nothing there. So called life fades away so quick like a season of fall. My vision has changed, i feel i see everything same but i am in the movie theater and sitting all the way back. Additionally i dont feel directly, i start to feel through the body (there is distance between me and body). It is so quite here. And i feel less in the body. Do you have any idea of these circumstances? I am in the body as nothing, thats why i am not here. Thank you. Much love. Namaste 🙏
Do you think perhaps you stumbled upon Śūnyatā (voidness)?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C5%9A%C5%ABnyat%C4%81
8 grams would probably do that!
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: wolf8312]
#26785145 - 06/26/20 04:09 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Do you think perhaps you stumbled upon Śūnyatā (voidness)?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C5%9A%C5%ABnyat%C4%81
8 grams would probably do that!
Thanks for responding back. I did 10 gr. Before but it wasnt so heavy like this i read the article. Yes it is exactly that. Because where is me, life or death? I dont see them, where are they? I was trying to get enlightened, but i cant find myself where am i? I am the moment, i dont see any life, do you see something says that life is exist or me is exist to be enlightened. I cant see anything. I feel like, I thought i was born or alive before, now i am the moment, i never die because i didn’t born. I cant think about death because it doesn’t exist. I feel like i am transformed something else, i am not human now.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: KhanCcc] 1
#26785696 - 06/26/20 08:32 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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I had a similar experience a few years ago. Ate somewhere between 10-12 grams but powdered, so it probably only lasted about 90-120 minutes.
Everything melted into black emptiness. Not darkness, just a void. There was nothing for awhile, no light or shadow, no universe, no humans, no me, no thoughts, no concepts. To explain it in detail would betray its complete and utter blankness.
It felt like a beginning though, a starting point. As I gathered understanding of myself and my world, other beings, language, it was not a reclamation of something lost, but rather a discovery of something new.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: Phrontist]
#26785748 - 06/26/20 09:00 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Phrontist said: I had a similar experience a few years ago. Ate somewhere between 10-12 grams but powdered, so it probably only lasted about 90-120 minutes.
Everything melted into black emptiness. Not darkness, just a void. There was nothing for awhile, no light or shadow, no universe, no humans, no me, no thoughts, no concepts. To explain it in detail would betray its complete and utter blankness.
It felt like a beginning though, a starting point. As I gathered understanding of myself and my world, other beings, language, it was not a reclamation of something lost, but rather a discovery of something new.
Well said brother. It is not darkness too people get confused as darkness. Can we call it infinite singularity? I believe, quantum physics is a great analogy to comprehend the truth.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: KhanCcc]
#26785763 - 06/26/20 09:09 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Infinites border begins at you and ends with me. Between us all that we think we can see. Necessary confusions obscure the casual glance. What's the flame going to do next? Not a chance.
Order is random. Truisms fluid. Notions define. What is concluded.
What is matter is trust. Between you and me it must. Even though the great nothingness is true. I alone could never prove it without you.
Now is just another thing built that we don't understand. Contantly changes because finite is contraband. All that our sciences can and will percieve. Is emptiness limited only by what we can both believe.
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: pineninja]
#26785769 - 06/26/20 09:11 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: pineninja]
#26785772 - 06/26/20 09:11 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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My question to you Op is.
Do you have any more questions?
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Re: 8 gr dried shrooms [Re: pineninja] 2
#26785823 - 06/26/20 09:39 PM (3 years, 6 months ago) |
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pineninja said: My question to you Op is.
Do you have any more questions?
No i am 😎. Thanks. I am dead, become the moment much loveee
Edited by KhanCcc (06/27/20 12:10 AM)
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