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SARAtonin
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: psi] 2
#27084065 - 12/11/20 02:13 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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We are down in Denver doing Hanukkah stuff at my wife’s parents.
I’m chillin with her dad watching Midnight Gospel and drinking some Hennessy XO.
I’m excited for latkes later, they are my favorite!
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Asante
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: koods]
#27084126 - 12/11/20 03:03 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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koods said:
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Asante said: FUUUUCK that morning pain when the Naproxen no longer diminishes the inflammation reaction and the associated pain.
Switched from Dakin's to Povidone-Iodine.
I feel like giving the Povidone-Iodine company customr service a call regarding their claim of it being "pain free iodine":
Willing to change back if the P-I wont give the daytime relief that Dakin's does.
The fucking antibiotic is not fucking working so far.
Using the combination of a sucking antiseptic wound dressing covered with a 10mm Hg compression sock to squeeze out more.
HOW CAN A WOUND THAT LOOKS SO GOOD BE SO EXCRUCIATING?!
The only thing that helps with the pain is Naproxen.
Willing to make a deal and sprinkling heroin into the wound for Christs sake!
I can't even TEXT CHAT, it hurts so much.
Its an abomination how much this hurts.
Stop using the topical antiseptics. They cause tissue damage and kill immune cells along with microbes. You probably have cellulitis. You need IV antibiotics. You need proper medical intervention.
Keep your leg raised at the same level as your heart to maximize circulation
Its under medical treatment and supervision. If tomorrow is worse I bother the doc again.
The flucloxcillin hasnt had enough days to act yet.
Problem is, I have a great amount of lower leg edema, It requires pressure from the outside to better be reached by blood on the inside.
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: Asante]
#27084159 - 12/11/20 03:23 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hey Asante, know any remedy against parkinsons ?
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: Gypsy Boy]
#27084356 - 12/11/20 05:09 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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The voice is pissing me off again due to it's jealous kissing and i cannot avoid the voices kissing and that is what infuriates and causes me intense restlessness in my legs. I want to poise myself and start destroying my room in a jealous rage and killing everything in my room smashing apart my TV and breaking window and ragely heaving books into the walls to kick in the wall where i hear the voice so that i can kill it. I am trapped by it and i cannot run away from it's kissing and it makes me REALLY angry 
It rejects my ideas of moeny and residence and peace of mind and i dont believe it's rejection because my envy is far too high so im fucking screwed that i can't kill it and it keeps kissing the envious distance in tbetween my soul's pulling to bring it in faster and killt he stupid fucking voice 
I am not alb eot do any of this and it keeps pissing me off tellin gme to type it out not only here, but on the growery too. I dont belive any of it is needed and it gains satisfaction when i am forced to listen to it kissing even tho it causes me extrreme angry and annoyance. I wish it was fucking dead i hate it so much
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psi
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084380 - 12/11/20 05:19 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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That sounds very tough to go through ShroomedOcean. Have you had any contact with medical professionals about this lately?
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ShroomedOcean


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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: psi]
#27084388 - 12/11/20 05:23 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah and they put me on Artane and my symptoms keep getting worse
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psi
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084400 - 12/11/20 05:32 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Have you kept them updated on how things have got worse since you went on that?
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gopher
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: psi]
#27084406 - 12/11/20 05:35 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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It says artane is used to treat muscle spasms, he needs clonazapam to calm down
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: gopher]
#27084463 - 12/11/20 06:05 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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no, i dont talk to them, no appointment
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gopher
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084472 - 12/11/20 06:09 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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make an appointment, if you smashed your TV you are screwed, people need TV's
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: gopher] 2
#27084497 - 12/11/20 06:22 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Based on the responses to my wound, I did an experiment, which was to remove both pressure bandaging and wound dressing.
This rapidly resulted in the pain intensifying to a far greater intensity than in the many hours previous.
I then went to lie down to put the wound at the same height as my heart as per Koods, and in a short while almost all pain vanished.
So, the pain after all this desinfecting is mostly due to pressure effects due to edema.
That should mean that, dressing the wound with an UrgoClean desloughing pad and applying my prescribed 40mm Hg pressure, the pain should become less when sitting down. Were the extrenal pressure the culprit, the 40mm Hg pressure surely would make it worse.
I applied the dressing, the fixation and the pressure, initially it hurt a bit more from pressing an UrgoClean pad in the wound, but then it became less and even so when sitting down.
So - the pain is primarily related to internal pressure and is relieved by external pressure, as per Koods advice I will indeed stop with further desinfection, stay on my antibiotic and switch to 10mm Hg pressure at night to further assist the decrease of the edema without giving me a charley horse in the early morning.
Thanks for the care and consideration guys, sound advice Koods
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: gopher]
#27084518 - 12/11/20 06:30 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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gopher said: make an appointment, if you smashed your TV you are screwed, people need TV's
NO, i dont feel like it
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084609 - 12/11/20 07:29 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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ShroomedOcean said: The voice is pissing me off again due to it's jealous kissing and i cannot avoid the voices kissing and that is what infuriates and causes me intense restlessness in my legs. I want to poise myself and start destroying my room in a jealous rage and killing everything in my room smashing apart my TV and breaking window and ragely heaving books into the walls to kick in the wall where i hear the voice so that i can kill it. I am trapped by it and i cannot run away from it's kissing and it makes me REALLY angry 
It rejects my ideas of moeny and residence and peace of mind and i dont believe it's rejection because my envy is far too high so im fucking screwed that i can't kill it and it keeps kissing the envious distance in tbetween my soul's pulling to bring it in faster and killt he stupid fucking voice 
I am not alb eot do any of this and it keeps pissing me off tellin gme to type it out not only here, but on the growery too. I dont belive any of it is needed and it gains satisfaction when i am forced to listen to it kissing even tho it causes me extrreme angry and annoyance. I wish it was fucking dead i hate it so much 
As is well documented on this site I have an internal dialogue too. I know what it is to communicate with something other, inside of you. I can relate to that.
My inner dialogue is just about the most ideal imaginary friend one could wish for. He is being a true friend at all times. We have standing agreements that I for whatever reason can have him back away, regardless for how long, even forever, if I choose so.
He never guilt trips me, never plays blame games, never talks down into my weaknesses and on the contrary is supportive and helps me actively to get more out of life.
This could not be more different as what you describe.
You two are at odds with each other, he upsets you seemingly deliberately and to the pont of you destroying your property in frustration to Just Make It Stop.
This does not sounds like an imaginary friend or muse, but more of a psychotic voice or other phenomenon that enhances you lack of mental balance.
Voices often react poorly to medication, the degree to which you get upset, however, is more susceptible to intervention.
Idially you either attempt to make peace with the voice, without giving in to blackmail or underhanded tactics, or you try to stonewall him by caring less and less about what he says as he is apparently out to get a rise out of you. Ignoring trolling is the best, if you can.
Doctors and meds can held, and in some cases a psychologist's intervention to get the two of you back in synch.
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: Asante]
#27084636 - 12/11/20 07:46 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I knew a guy in the mental health facility that got Electroconvulsive therapy for voices, he said it would stop the voices for a few weeks
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: gopher]
#27084704 - 12/11/20 08:29 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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thanks for that insight, i isolate very easily and angered easily. i got to hold on for now, but i dont know if there is alot my doctors can do right now beyond therapy. voices are scary and that is an understatement
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084755 - 12/11/20 09:18 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hearing voices sounds intriguing and scary. What do the voices sound like?
Life is pretty boring for me right now. I work two jobs and barely sleep, lots of issues stem from that but it also feels good to strive. It is hard to find the time for romance and lots of other important things while working these said jobs...I miss freetime a whole bunch. I hope this date coming up is great, and I hope I get a day off soon to trip on some new acid I picked up. It's maybe silly to think I would be able to get both birds stoned at once but the idea is fun
I really miss the days of cultivation, can't wait til I have the opportunity again!
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: MorphinTime]
#27084762 - 12/11/20 09:22 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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low whispering, spoken words like regular people, saying the thoughts that i have repeated to me etc...i gotta get over it
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: ShroomedOcean]
#27084769 - 12/11/20 09:29 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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When you say the voices sound like regular people, whispering low, do they have a particular tone? I would assume negative tone, but do you hear voices with positive tones too?
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: MorphinTime]
#27084774 - 12/11/20 09:37 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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usually a more high pitched tone
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Re: Esoteric Musings of Carcosa | EMC/MDC/LNC | Part 2 Electric Boogaloo [Re: MorphinTime]
#27084777 - 12/11/20 09:40 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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when I use to take a gram of gravol every night to sleep id hear voices too, they never had a positive tone, though one time, and it only happened one time, I heard fucking music, and not something I heard before, my mind was making up a new song and it was like I was hearing it with my ears, but every other time I was hearing stuff in a negative tone, mostly my name, didnt like mozart or behtoven or something write songs by hearing them in thier head?
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