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CatsLoveHouseMusic
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Abusing drugs due to drug testing (somewhat of a confession.) The last 1.5 years
#26742638 - 06/13/20 08:20 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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So Ive had a lot of drug related stuff going on, if you remember my name here you know that. It all started when i couldnt smoke weed anymore and just need something to relax. I abused kratom, psychedelics (with nitrous at one point, that stuff isnt to be taken lightly,) phenibut, gabapentin... anything to dodge tests and get a buzz. Im finally coming to terms with the fact that this isnt ok.
The phenibut is the worst to abuse in my opinion, and I just started like a month ago. It can drive you crazy when in WD, atleast me. There was a point where I had to take heavier doses (3-4 gel tabs,) because of a tolerance AND use nitrous oxide or the acid felt too bland. Thats really fucked up. Who the hell sits on their front porch every weekend, takes LSD and blows gas all night. I cant bwlieve I used to do that. I was running from life in general, after abusing psychedelics a second time around, and having that panic attack 8 hours in, i am happy to have my mind. I dont ever want to lose it, I am Happy to be intelligent, maby not enough to not do theae substances to the extreme, but I am not mentally handicapped. Im almost 30, I have a good job, a supportive girlfriend for the last ten years (shes the one who wants dreads.) I used kratom (about 2 gram doses,) multiple times a day. I grow mushrooms, and was eating them too often as well.
I have since stopped taking anything besides phenibut and kratom. Phenibut will go first, then ill work with kratom until I fan smoke weed in 3 months. Just wanted to confess this as its been weighing on me. I know people will bash me, rightfully so. I uave grown sooooo much in the last few months though. Besides my drug use, theres this switch that flipped after the quarantine. I wake up in the morning, get out of bed IMMEDIATELY rather than snooze my alarms. I turned vegetarian, and eat healthy. Im not just a shitty person, I just need to break this cycle. I have had this absolute need to have a buzz, not intoxicated, just something to take the edge off. Lately it has turned into a “I need to get high” though. So much could be said. I hope someone can relate to my last statement. Thank you for your time.
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IntergelacticPal
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Re: Abusing drugs due to drug testing (somewhat of a confession.) The last 1.5 years [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic]
#26742812 - 06/13/20 09:52 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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No need to be hard on yourself, everything is a learning experience. If you needed to get blasted for a few months to get it out of your system, I dont see a problem. It's not like you were doing tons of cocaine and opiates. It's not ideal to abuse anything, but it gives you the opportunity to learn about yourself and your resolve
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Shiithead
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Re: Abusing drugs due to drug testing (somewhat of a confession.) The last 1.5 years [Re: IntergelacticPal]
#26742819 - 06/13/20 09:55 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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I know what you're going through. Lucky for you, it only takes 3 weeks to rewire your brain. I'm rooting for you. All the way home.
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Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
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Shiithead
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Re: Abusing drugs due to drug testing (somewhat of a confession.) The last 1.5 years [Re: Shiithead]
#26742828 - 06/13/20 10:00 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Be sure to take b12 in supplement and folate in the form of oj. Unless you're drinking milk and eating eggs. Nitrous already prevents your bones from making red blood cells when it drains your b12 levels. Veggietarian is dangerous if you don't check b12 either.
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Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
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