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Golden Teachers 10g 145lb 22y/o female (ego death?)
    #26666642 - 05/12/20 03:49 PM (1 month, 21 days ago)

My trip started just before sunset, I usually do mushrooms during the day but I decided it felt like a good time to do them. I also did this alone. I should also note that this is the highest dose I have ever taken, the most I've taken in one day in the past was about 3.5g.

When I first started feeling them kick in, I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth in the mirror. I was looking into my eyes and could feel my life playing through. I was the only one it showed me though (my family or friends weren't a part of this at all). My childhood and my future, kind of just a feeling inside but nothing visible, like I couldn't see myself aging or anything, just a deep feeling of how things will play out.

it wasn't scary at all, it felt like it was preparing me to deal with loved ones dying and new people coming into my life. just the feeling of my human body aging but my soul staying this eternal energy. Becoming okay with that concept is something I've struggled with for a while because I've never lost any loved ones.

Went to my room and I was sitting in my desk chair with my head back just feeling everything coming to me, there were these shapes and outlines that were appearing over everything, with these glowing, bright and rainbow colours...which I've never seen before on mushrooms (colours of any kind).

I could feel my mind just emptying completely of every thought and was just replaced with this feeling of understanding. It felt like my soul was leaving my body. This energy that started in my arms and my hands slowly spread through my body, it was powerful. It was warm and reduced me to the feeling of nothing.

My being just became this shapeless energy and it felt like there was a different, all-knowing energy in front of me guiding me through the trip, it never spoke or used words, just seemed to provide me with feelings and had a glowing aura with no physical traits.

I became extremely aware of the fact that I don't own my mind and I'm just here to observe the thoughts that it has. Something about a third eye opening had kept coming into thoughts and it truly felt like that was happening.

This lasted a while, if I were to guess maybe an hour or two, and I just sat there taking it all in, accepting what it was showing me.

I was getting tired though and everything was calming down so I assumed my peak was over. I wanted to sleep so I laid down in bed and watched some TV. I don't know how long I was laying there but suddenly everything was different, I became extremely aware of the fact that time seemed to vanish, as if it never existed to begin with. I couldn't grasp the words on my TV, they were just sounds with pictures.

The angle of the room wasn't changing at all and when I closed my eyes I could still see the room as if I was still looking. It felt like I have been there since the beginning of everything and would be forever, like it was just how things have always been. Me floating in my bed, with no body, just an awareness of being.

My self identity had disappeared and I felt like nothing and everything at the same time, I was aware of the fact that I was separate from my human self. There were definitely some feeling of being an all-knowing god-like being, but also feelings of being absolutely nothing but a field of sight.

I completely lost the concept of space and time, it was like the room at that exact moment was the only thing to ever exist. It was everything, the entire existence of the universe. everything felt completely eternal, just the same present moment that didn't change once. There was this insane feeling of bliss and understanding and appreciation of everything.

I couldn't remember anything about the past, I could only focus on just how things were now. It was apparent that my human body was dead, and this would be my resting place for eternity. It was my spot in the cosmos.

I decided at some point that it was too much to handle  and had trouble accepting what was happening to me, so I tried to get up to get some water from my desk across the room, my brain was telling my body to move, but I couldn't feel anything physically. just like that sense (touch) has never existed, and I could only feel the room. The only reason I actually knew I was successfully moving was because I lifted the cup of water up in front of my face and could see it in my hand, but I couldn't feel myself holding it.

It still felt like I was floating in the corner of the room, at all times, this feeling stayed for a long time. And the room looked different, my field of vision had changed and I could see more than the furniture, I think I could feel that my consciousness had taken over this space and I could feel things like sounds and feelings floating throughout it and bumping into each other before disappearing from the realm forever.

I kept going to the washroom to look in the mirror and try to ground myself, and Everytime I did it still felt like I hadn't moved and was still in the corner of the room, but I could see myself in the mirror. Doesn't make much sense but things like this are hard to put into words. It felt like there was something in the space telling me to feel "this is how it's always going to be from now on and to accept it" like I had broken through something huge.

Overall, this was the most spiritual trip I've ever had, I do wish I didn't panic and got to enjoy it more.


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Re: Golden Teachers 10g 145lb 22y/o female (ego death?) [Re: Catstellation]
    #26729407 - 06/08/20 07:05 PM (25 days, 15 hours ago)

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Re: Golden Teachers 10g 145lb 22y/o female (ego death?) [Re: Catstellation]
    #26731168 - 06/09/20 01:25 PM (24 days, 21 hours ago)

I don’t know if I’ve missed something here, but you do mean 10g fresh, don’t you?

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Re: Golden Teachers 10g 145lb 22y/o female (ego death?) [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26795454 - 06/30/20 09:59 PM (3 days, 12 hours ago)

Thank you for sharing and taking the time to write well.  Re: Ego-death, you may have gone beyond ego without the intensely uncomfortable feeling of being forced to let go, without having to have that fight.


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Re: Golden Teachers 10g 145lb 22y/o female (ego death?) [Re: thevoluntaryway]
    #26796258 - 07/01/20 07:15 AM (3 days, 3 hours ago)

This sounds like a pretty interesting trip, I wouldn't mind having one like it at all.


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