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PrimalSoup
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26717353 - 06/03/20 05:35 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Haven't read all of it, but, you know, you can be "special" without being full of it. It happens.
What you need to be doing is talking to the "special" people around you, just to get grounded and not be coming off as Jeebus or shit like that.
Believe me, they're there. Use your new found connections to find them.
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: PrimalSoup]
#26717367 - 06/03/20 05:44 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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PrimalSoup said: Haven't read all of it, but, you know, you can be "special" without being full of it. It happens.
What you need to be doing is talking to the "special" people around you, just to get grounded and not be coming off as Jeebus or shit like that.
Believe me, they're there. Use your new found connections to find them. :cookimonster:
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PrimalSoup said: Haven't read all of it, but, you know, you can be "special" without being full of it. It happens.
What you need to be doing is talking to the "special" people around you, just to get grounded and not be coming off as Jeebus or shit like that.
Believe me, they're there. Use your new found connections to find them. :cookimonster:
Keep reading man. Everything does happen for a reason. I’m sure of it in a way. I just don’t know what that reason is. Tonight I am taking a big bite out of in Enlightenment. Do you know grandiosity isn’t the worst thing in the world, especially not as a defense mechanism in the beginning. I’ve i’ve been to some of the best psychiatrist in the country. I’ve been very lucky in life in a lot of ways, in a lot of other ways I always thought I was cursed. But the doctors never just told me how it was. When I saw shutter Island I thought it was about me you know. They kind of fit into my delusions more and more, that’s what I honestly think but I’m not a reliable source always for past memories of psychotic times. thank you for your insight though. Innoway I knew I was ready tonight to hear this. I just wanted to see what you guys had in store and a way. Ha ha ha. Joking you need to help yourself before you help others
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26717380 - 06/03/20 05:53 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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I wasn’t ready for this board before. I always had too thin a skin. Always in my life. Maybe I was bullied at a young age I don’t even really remember it. I know I was really bullied traumatized at around 11 years old and I remember that. Psychedelics have only really heaLed me I believe Innoway even the bad trips gave me when I need it to you or see at the time
I I can go trip by trip and give a self-centeredless Account of why I had a bad trip that time. I always blamed other people for my problems. You know people always notice me people always give me attention. Now they still do but it’s the wrong attention sometimes. But I think things are about to change a bit for me
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26717400 - 06/03/20 06:08 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Were you raised Christian? Being raised in a religious family has an insane influence on a child - literally. The fact that you're entertaining the idea of Jesus is cute but utterly stupid. Messianic experiences are common on psychedelics, especially if you're raised with the concept of a messiah.
You have good intentions, but don't get lost in an ego fantasy.
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: Icon]
#26717562 - 06/03/20 07:34 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Many have experienced that kind of thinking on psychedelics. I even once did the whole Jesus thing, including the resurrection (in hospital).
Narcissism though, is not healthy. Many people consciously or unconsciously use psychedelics ironically for the purposes of ego expansion (I am beyond and above mere mortals) but their true purpose is I think, as the Buddhists teach, to let go of all that.
Here is a fantastic book on the subject (not psychedelics but essentially the same topic) that I think will benfit you a great deal. I have it on audible, but although brilliant I think it might be better as a book, so you can go at it, at your own pace.
https://www.amazon.com/Why-Buddhism-True-Philosophy-Enlightenment/dp/1439195463
In other words you will be more Jesus-like (and happier) when you have found a way to truly let go of your ego, and the narcissism that feeds, and keeps you clinging onto, or even enlarging it.
If you speak to older adults, most will tell you they are happier than they were when they were younger. Most young people will disbelieve this, thinking it to be nothing more than cognitive dissonance, but many older people are indeed happier and more content, compared to when they were teenagers, simply because they have learned to take themselves less seriously, while being less competitive and vengeful socially. They stop worrying so much about what others think...
Some lucky people possess this level of emotional maturity from an early age, and while I unfortunately didn't, I have also met others who displayed astonishing emotional (rampant boastful egotism) immaturity, at middle, or even old age! Narcissism especially when it gets out of hand can cause people a lot of unhappiness, and although a psychological defence mechanism, is also a form of repression that ultimately is not healthy psychologically, or good for one's relationships with other people.
Besides, you can't be Jesus OP, because I got it on good authority that I am Jesus. And there can't be two of us damn it!
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PrimalSoup
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26717767 - 06/03/20 08:56 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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PrimalSoup said: Haven't read all of it, but, you know, you can be "special" without being full of it. It happens.
What you need to be doing is talking to the "special" people around you, just to get grounded and not be coming off as Jeebus or shit like that.
Believe me, they're there. Use your new found connections to find them. 
Keep reading man. Everything does happen for a reason. I’m sure of it in a way. I just don’t know what that reason is. Tonight I am taking a big bite out of in Enlightenment. Do you know grandiosity isn’t the worst thing in the world, especially not as a defense mechanism in the beginning. I’ve i’ve been to some of the best psychiatrist in the country. I’ve been very lucky in life in a lot of ways, in a lot of other ways I always thought I was cursed. But the doctors never just told me how it was. When I saw shutter Island I thought it was about me you know. They kind of fit into my delusions more and more, that’s what I honestly think but I’m not a reliable source always for past memories of psychotic times. thank you for your insight though. Innoway I knew I was ready tonight to hear this. I just wanted to see what you guys had in store and a way. Ha ha ha. Joking you need to help yourself before you help others
No thanks, I'm not gonna read it all. But glad you found it useful.
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing] 1
#26718572 - 06/04/20 07:58 AM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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everything does not happen for a reason that is simply christian fatalism with zero comprehension (silence is way better than repeating empty words)
the high from your dope feels good and you want some words that make it ring true but it does not work that way.
all the crap you are spewing is incomprehensible nonsense which you are unable to accept because it is plain dumb, and you know that. repeating plain dumb stuff does not make it smarter.
druggies since forever have echoed this stuff as they face their own selves and go mad while seeing an impressionable empty space that connects impressions and feelings coursing through time and space. go for some exercise and hard science or engineering with the last dregs of your youthful life.
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26718831 - 06/04/20 10:38 AM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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In case you may feel I am being harsh on you, I apologize for my apparent attitude (smitdjen of guilt TBH).
naturally you want to fit in with this community and are echoing phrases that are acceptible, that defuse concerns, that show alignment with compassion, that show interest in higher things...
the journey means nothing, however if it means nothing to you except being part of a group. by meaning something, I do not mean that it means something like you have previously heard or something that is expected. your life is happening now, and that is what you want to connect with, and be honest with yourself what you see, feel, hear, think.
it's an ongoing process, not a matter of being christ or buddha or coming down from way up high with tablets of stone with commandments written for the masses.
it's a matter of being you, and being honest about being you to you. we do not matter, our acceptance of you will happen anyway. dont try so hard.
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: redgreenvines]
#26719888 - 06/04/20 06:07 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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The Jesus complex seems to be a newb thing. This flood of never before considered realization comes pouring in.. ego’s gonna eat that up. Once that same flood becomes a little more the ‘norm’ then a person can roll with it a little better and be more humble with it.
It’s like having a nice car, when you have 800 hp under the hood you don’t need to go burning wheels at every red light. You can slow roll just knowing it’s there..
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: Amanita86]
#26720537 - 06/04/20 11:38 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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What can you do?
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: amazing]
#26720562 - 06/04/20 11:56 PM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yes, you are special.
However, so is everyone else. We're all literally made of star dust. Whatever the alien told you is true, but don't take it too seriously
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#26721033 - 06/05/20 06:10 AM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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mainly don't take yourself too seriously
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Re: So I have something interesting to say the least, i need to share it but i wont go too far into depth until [Re: redgreenvines]
#26721183 - 06/05/20 07:34 AM (3 years, 7 months ago) |
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Enlightenment is an on-going process that does not announce its completion. If you are convinced you found it, you probably haven’t.
Redgreenvines is right, don’t take yourself too seriously. You are as much nothing as you are everything. For every messianic figure in you, there is equal parts inconsequential dust.
Ground yourself while you can or, while your reason remains, seek the help of an experienced medical professional or spiritual healer.
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