Last month I fell heavily and smashed my hip resulting in a stay in hospital and a hip replacement operation. I was given painkillers while the doctors decided whether to screw and plate or a full replacement. I had 10 mg of morphine sulphate orally every four hours for 36 hours then I was given IV morphine and transferred to another hospital where I had more opiates prior to the operation. I had a spinal and given fentanyl as a sedative. Further IV opiates after the op, eventually I was given 30mg oral dihydrocodeine foue times daily.I was offered more morphine but I refused. After a week I was listening to the radio through headphones, it was about 2am then it happened. The radio was playing psychedelic chart hits from the 60's and 70's when I realised that I was tripping. beautiful closed eye visuals and lengthy time dilation. I got into it, eventually they played Riders on the Storm, the piano solo was fantastic, extreme time dilation and beautiful visuals,that's when I got quite deep. I can't remember the next few records, but I remember looking at a calm lake, there were gentle waves, it was coloured deep red. I got closer to the water and saw that the surface was made up of small balls. Closer still and the balls turned into faces, closer, and the faces became evil demonic goblins, they were bright red. One of them turned and saw me, then they all turned and looked at me. I felt that I shouldn't be there, they confirmed this feeling with their accusatory looks. One said 'here he is, we've got him this time' I realised this was a going to be a bummer, I started to think of the lyrics to the Beatles All you need is Love. They didn't like that, but they got over it. I then thought 'this is all in my head, lets turn a page, I've been through worse than this before. They reappeared, this time they said if we can get him to run we've got him. Anyway, the struggle continued for I don't know how long, eventually I overcame my darkest fears. My question is this, I have done well over a thousand trips during the last 47 years yet I've never experienced hallucinations like these. Was it stress induced? Was it opiate withdrawals? Was it just a flashback? Were these hallucinations similar to other hallucigens that I have not experienced. I've only ever had LSD and Libs? Any comments welcome.
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