Greetings all who read this! i feel im going togo into ramble mode like a diary entry, but i guess thats what this is suppose tobe!
Firstly these mushrooms were the first time ive consumed mushroom that i grew, from agar to fruit, so it felt a little extra special just to be doing that, i harvested these along time ago, ive since gave some to close friends, but never felt the need to have any myself! until today 
Me and princess peach went to newly found area in some woods where i was certain we wouldn't see any muggles, and set up camp. (tarp n blankets)
We had our ceremony and consumed our 3g each, we like todo ginger tea! We like to listen to the ICL playlist when we trip, its just perfect every time!
Coming out of the trip, i feel so much more self aware of the boundaries i have with people and how people play a role in my life, im quite the introvert so i dont associate with to many people!
Main thoughts were how people don't always seem to give a shit about me, or what im doing, it can be quite insulting and even hurtful when it comes from people you love, mainly family.
I use to think that with my mushroom farm of cubes i would shove them down peoples throats and it would all be good! this proved quite difficult! people arnt always so willing to try psychedelics and put them in the 'drugs are bad' bin, so became more cautious of who i chose to be my victim!
I now feel that if you show enough interest in me, maybe you want to know why i am the way i am? then you'll maybe ask me to have a ceremony one day! but until that i day i shall not offer them to you! you choose me, i don't choose you.
Not to sound gimmiky but (enter gimmick.... haha) i have what bhudda has, i found myself, it was hard work, it took alot of courage, and i am very well grounded man, i can look back on my recent life and know that i did those things because i wanted to and i planned to, and i can look forward and i know exactly what im going todo. that i find is solid, its very grounding and it feels great!
I was stuck in a dead end job working for my dad who was quite a tyrant, and to make it worse i still lived at home with him! i would smoke to much weed ( i look back now and i dont know how i functioned! ) and i was just wasting thu life, the change started for me when i decided to up and leave to india for 6months, i just needed out! and belive me that took courage!! i wasnt high on self esteem at the time, it eventully led to me 'finding myself', i was introduced to psychedelics thu a san pedro ceremony and the rest is history, my mum always says that i came back from india different, and dam right i did! i started laying down the road that i now look back on and say fuck yeah! im now loving my life, and everything in it.
I see people looking for life changing experiences from mushroom, but its not the mushroom that will provide that, it will show you the way, it gives you the ability to look into the nooks and cranys of your mind and make minor adjustments that have hugh effects. i dont think its the more the merrier, have more and you get what your looking for. The mushrooms can only show you the path, you have to walk it!
So to summerise ..
-My mushrooms worked a treat! also i didnt suffer with nausea half as bad as i normally would. -My mushrooms are free, you just have to ask, very few will get a mail order, in fact just one person i know of will ever get any without me being me being there. not many will ask, more for me! -just got alot of love for myself and all others at the mo
until the next trip! im of to have a cuppa T and watch a episode of lost, feeling very satisfied with my day!
edit add - also on the walk back to civilization we went and harvested some COTW that we spotted 3-4 days earlyia ! perfect
peace
Edited by SuperMario940 (05/20/20 11:43 AM)
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