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This is borderline lunacy and clearly ridiculous. I'm starting to wonder about your mental state too. I'm quite convinced you actually believe what you are spewing or are an excellent troll.
I'm sure nothing seems real when your interface with reality is a screen.
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Psion said: you say i keep missing the point about figments, but i'm telling you from personal experience, that figments do not work the way you're imagining them.
figments or no, whimsies of your mind or no, they still have their own distinct personalities. they don't just "pretend" to care about you. they actually can pull fast ones on you, surprise you just like a real person, and reveal insights that you didn't think of yourself.
i've cultivated a relationship with an actual figment, knowing it was one, and it was one of the most meaningful and worthwhile experiences of my life. so when you say that it's pointless to cultivate relationships with people, when they might just be figments and a waste of time... i'm telling you point blank, it doesn't matter if they're not "real people" or not. it's still not a waste of time.
they're still real, regardless if they're real or not.
I keep saying you have to reread what I already said about them since it addresses the point you are attempting to make. Figments have no personality, since they don’t really exist. They are mere phantoms of your mind. You aren’t really interacting with anyone. You didn’t cultivate a relationship, it was all a delusion. It does matter if they are real or not because if they are real then they have personality, affections, and it’s not some sad psychosis to cope with cosmic loneliness.
Figments are not real. Their words don’t matter, their “love” doesn’t matter either, because it never was. I don’t know how else to put it.
and i keep pointing out that, from personal experience, they do indeed have their own personality and affections. Byakko did not disappear because I got bored of him. He did it as an act of love, to protect my main consciousness from being stunted and too dependent on him, the same way a parent has to let a teenager start to become more independent and make mistakes on their own. even if it hurts both parties to distance themselves.
multiple personalities disorders exist, and cause distress in some people - note the multiple part and personalities part. it's entirely possible to have more than one personality in one body, and both are valid. the only difference between myself and someone with a mental disorder was that my extra personality was not only benign but helpful - it didn't cause me distress, but actively supported me.
you can claim that figments aren't real people all you want till you're blue in the face, but ponder this - if they're not real, you're not either. you are the one who created said figments. you cannot create "fake emotions" with those figments - what they feel is the same thing you feel, because it's your brain. if they "feel" love, its not fake love - it's the real deal, because it's your own brain feeling love, even if its you loving yourself.
learning to love yourself is never an exercise in futility - because it's important for cultivating relationships, imaginary or real. the emotion is the same regardless. as within, so without. as without, so within.
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Re: What is Love? [Re: Psion]
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Love is.
Is math a construct. Or was it always there to find. Strangely enough the answer is love The one thing it cant define.
This transcendental geometry. That words cannot possibly convey. Deeper than fundamentally It's both the observer...and the day.
An exploration of an unassailable self. The fingers with which we feel. A mathematical pinch is just. Proving ourselves to be real.
It hurts because we are the same. Both the math and the mind. Take the mask of separateness away. You may be surprised by which answer you find.
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Ie. The are real phenomena. As seen in the perceivers mind, thus apart of the cosmos and sentient beings. Just like how one really dreams but they cannot be “objectively” verified. Thus they are experimentally real in the sense that they even occur. Objectively we can not verify another’s figment unless in some rare bizarre twist of fate. But even the so called concept of objectivity is part of the subjective mind, and effete without a perceiver. Bringing into question the dualistic view of body-mind when taught as truly distinct and separate.
Extra - if one doesn’t recognize ones inherent ignorance, or falsely believes that they know when they do not, And are unaware of that being their condition - then they cannot recognize that when another speaks of things from their actual experience that the former has no experiential knowledge of, they delusively believe in their own egoic mind only.
This causes that individual to appear...challenged in a specific way, particular to how they relate with others; this in turn leads that one to seem strange in the eyes of others for not picking up on things those others take for granted because of a shared mutual understanding allowed and performed by ones very senses.
The one who is challenged this way unknowingly is unaware that they act according to a separate dispensation.
This is Ego 101, and is as plain to see and easy to know as a child knows when they are hungry - even when they don’t intellectually understand much of anything behind the mechanisms that create the conditions in which hunger alive.
I write this all out, for people to recognize how and why Certain individuals on the forum seem so out of touch, and cannot seem to relate on a basic level, all while believing the problem lies not with his own ego - but the world. As if one had to inherently understand life intellectually before being able to live life. A premise, illustrated to be false by the most basic of examples. Essentially - they believe in the lie that they can someone think without the senses informing them, yet claim the senses of others are unknown able, while simultaneously and subliminally using their own to claim such a thing.
The best we can do, is tell a story to ourselves that helps us to operate in the world. If your story helps you operate and function - your intelligence is superior to those whose don’t - contrary to popular belief as promulgated by those who would have one believe their story that life one should simply kill themselves , or that love and kindness aren’t worth it because they are make believe - as if the alternative is any more true, it is exactly the same make believe but a different plot.
But the ego alone, cannot stomach the thought of being make believe, and so it projects the truth of its own nature as illusory upon everything else - but with the individual and their mind as the one thing that can be known aka Ego. Those who have penetrated the nature of phenomena by various means - know beyond believe and beyond proof or evidence that it is quite the opposite.
so we come full circle...
Truth be told, no ones story is any more true or false than another’s in the absolute ultimate unknowable grand scheme of things. They are but different authors and plots...yet remain stories being told by the one who can perceive them. Try to comprehend something without telling yourself a story - without linguistically fabricating a fictive lie and my point will be elucidated. They help tell a story that helps one navigate life - no more, no less.
To believe in ones own thoughts alone as Truth or factual, is the gravest error and sin one can commit. And by virtue of this, the one who does so will not be able to recognize that they indeed, take only their own separate self alone as knowable and therefore be self imprisoned in a false dream of their own making from which they go through life - asleep and thus unable to be sure if another is knowable as distinct from them, or just a figment of mind - when in actuality it is beyond such distinctions. But they cannot know, for they are like one under the spell of magical illusion.
Egoically spoiled, and thus mistaking unity for a dualistic world in which they cannot tell the difference - just as if under the influence of Datura, when our hallucinations seem so real. Be sure and know that in the present moment and all moments, our psychic life itself is like a hallucination - marked by being simultaneously Absent - Yet Apparent. Immaculately pristine and primordially pure, recognize it here and now as enlightening delusive fiction. Like a dream, like hallucination - empty and mysteriously endowed with primordial wisdom. Through recognition of that, may all sentient beings achieve higher and higher understanding of reality.
This delusory world hangs upon our delusive clinging and delusive intellectual constructs; Howver, in cherishing the nonduality of true and false, beyond the intellect, we may recognize the spontaneity of self-sprung intrinsic presence of all interdependently originated phenomena in unity - and in that vast matrix where 'is' and 'is not' implode - we recognize the sky-like awakened dynamic.
* psychology without a psyche..
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Psion said: you say i keep missing the point about figments, but i'm telling you from personal experience, that figments do not work the way you're imagining them.
figments or no, whimsies of your mind or no, they still have their own distinct personalities. they don't just "pretend" to care about you. they actually can pull fast ones on you, surprise you just like a real person, and reveal insights that you didn't think of yourself.
i've cultivated a relationship with an actual figment, knowing it was one, and it was one of the most meaningful and worthwhile experiences of my life. so when you say that it's pointless to cultivate relationships with people, when they might just be figments and a waste of time... i'm telling you point blank, it doesn't matter if they're not "real people" or not. it's still not a waste of time.
they're still real, regardless if they're real or not.
I keep saying you have to reread what I already said about them since it addresses the point you are attempting to make. Figments have no personality, since they don’t really exist. They are mere phantoms of your mind. You aren’t really interacting with anyone. You didn’t cultivate a relationship, it was all a delusion. It does matter if they are real or not because if they are real then they have personality, affections, and it’s not some sad psychosis to cope with cosmic loneliness.
Figments are not real. Their words don’t matter, their “love” doesn’t matter either, because it never was. I don’t know how else to put it.
and i keep pointing out that, from personal experience, they do indeed have their own personality and affections. Byakko did not disappear because I got bored of him. He did it as an act of love, to protect my main consciousness from being stunted and too dependent on him, the same way a parent has to let a teenager start to become more independent and make mistakes on their own. even if it hurts both parties to distance themselves.
multiple personalities disorders exist, and cause distress in some people - note the multiple part and personalities part. it's entirely possible to have more than one personality in one body, and both are valid. the only difference between myself and someone with a mental disorder was that my extra personality was not only benign but helpful - it didn't cause me distress, but actively supported me.
you can claim that figments aren't real people all you want till you're blue in the face, but ponder this - if they're not real, you're not either. you are the one who created said figments. you cannot create "fake emotions" with those figments - what they feel is the same thing you feel, because it's your brain. if they "feel" love, its not fake love - it's the real deal, because it's your own brain feeling love, even if its you loving yourself.
learning to love yourself is never an exercise in futility - because it's important for cultivating relationships, imaginary or real. the emotion is the same regardless. as within, so without. as without, so within.
They can be fake but I am still real, hence the figment of imagination aspect of it all. Their reactions and emotions aren't real because they don't really exist, you "made them up". It's fake love because there is no other object directing the love to you. And learning to love yourself is utterly pointless when there is the possibility of utter cosmic loneliness.
Imaginary relationships are by definition not relationships. It's like a stalker and their victim,they think something is there but the reality is that there isn't and never was. The only real way for such a relationship with figments to work is if you forget that they are even figments, otherwise it would never work.
Your experience is invalid because you don't grasp what is meant by imaginary and "figments". They aren't real, their emotions don't exist, it's just a play you make to delude yourself. There is no Byakko, and there never was.
The definition of Solipsism is that you can only verify yourself to be real, everyone else is in doubt. I have explained why that prospect is scary but you seem to gloss over that because "I had X experience that says otherwise" (when really it's more like you are grasping what I am saying).
Again I keep telling you to read the post that explained all this, likely on page 21 or 22. Otherwise you're just making irrelevant remarks.
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AroundtheSon said: This is borderline lunacy and clearly ridiculous. I'm starting to wonder about your mental state too. I'm quite convinced you actually believe what you are spewing or are an excellent troll.
I'm sure nothing seems real when your interface with reality is a screen.
Because you don't grasp it. You don't know what it is like to walk through life wondering if everything is real or exists outside of you and why bother with any of it. It's nothing to do with mental illness, it's truly grasping what it means to have the foundation of one's reality be uncertain and reckoning with the consequences of it.
It's not about "being able to operate in the world", that's failure talk. That means you can't wrestle with the big questions and give up, it's essentially lying to yourself on some level. Philosophy is the quest for truth, not about what is "helpful".
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How do you know it doesn’t have an physiological-psychological cause or roots?
Your not qualified to make that judgement.
I don’t know if you perceive such an observation as a threat to your ego or not, but mental illness is as common as mushrooms are on this forum. However, people who help themselves, and are both patient and motivated enough to adapt and overcome, very often are victorious in mending themselves for the better. If you don’t get joy out of your daily life, or little things, or have - or make relationships with people in real life off the internet, chances are high that you are suffering - and not just or necessarily because you believe you “see things the way they are”.
Your just as biased as any human is, but if your bias hurts you and makes you suffer more than is normal for a living creature, and you claim it’s because of something no one truly understands than you- chances are you could use some help. And not shroomery discussion help or online bs.
I usually let this kind of stuff go, as it’s not necessarily my responsibility to point out something so plain to everyone I come across that needs it. But your a good guy, and help is often just talking to another person in offline life - a professional who is learned in ways for just such a person. Suffering needlessly is not proof of any view you have posited so far on this forum and proceeded to project onto the rest of humanity by nit picking and playing straw man - it’s proof that your lonely and afraid and could use a friend. A real one. Your in Florida, or I’d do it myself. So, if your aren’t open to suggestions, I guess your just stuck for the time being. That would be a shame. If you choose that route. Because contrary to your beliefs, the world and life can be equally wonderful as it is terrible - and that’s something a healthy grown adult learns to deal with appropriately with maturity and skill.
All things in balance.
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Re: What is Love? [Re: zZZz]
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It's you who really don't grasp it, Thanatos. Byakko is as real as I am, because he IS me. he's another aspect of me, just as how a coin has two faces yet is one object. you can't say one face is real and the other isn't - both are equally valid. This is what I mean when I say figments of ones imagination cannot be "fake" - because they ARE you. another facet of yourself.
you cannot even begin to imagine just how strange reality really is. I suspect you are still fairly young - and didn't I read somewhere you live in Florida? If so, that's probably your problem. that place is just... wrong, somehow. there's something about that state that turns people insane just by proximity. go to southern california or something if you can't stand the cold. :P
but at any rate, you clearly, deep down, believe that we're real people. otherwise, you would not keep returning, over and over again, asking us questions, desperately seeking answers. if you truly thought we were figments of your imagination, you would consider our opinions useless drivel and not even bother asking us.
you would not even refer to us in the third person.
clearly, therefore, deep down, you think of us as "other", not you. you clearly reject solipsism for the nonlogical drivel it is, and one day you will realize it, i hope.
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It iHas nothing to do with the big questions. You just use that as an excuse. And I know it beyond any doubt. Beyond even your own ability to know if I know that you know or don’t know. I think you need some friends, and some help - that’s just my opinion.
Now that I’ve said my peace I’m good. You can intellectually master bate yourself into depression, anxiety, and isolation and more.
Here’s the ultimate kicker, this is The Shroomey, if your not growing or taking mushrooms to explore that’s inside you and within the world - frankly you should find another forum altogether, its a valid point. Why stay here if there’s no one who gets you and you cannot relate with the one thing that binds us all here?
Or you can take a step in the right direction, and realize your just like everyone else. Your choice. Don’t over think it. Study up on mushrooms and do yourself the biggest favor you’ve ever done, be honest.
The little things, are equally , if not more important than the “big questions”. If my frickin mom can live a good wholesome life and be successful - but your stuck , there’s something terribly wrong with you, and it’s not because you see reality for as it is, rather it’s because in the one thing that’s most illusory in the universe - your own ego.
I’ve done my fair share to be friendly and kind and helpful to you because your like a lost child. However, at a certain point you gotta leave the nest on your own like everyone else - so to speak.
Accept yourself as you are, be honest, know thyself, and life a good life.
. Peace Thanatos - May you find your way.
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Love is surrendering to the girl in bliss and serenity
There was a cute crazy little girl I met in a mental health hospital..... she was jumping up and down shouting at me take her 2 euro. She told me about writing to prisoners...
Anyway later she offered me much tobacco which I'm happy to accept, but it was more of her desire test for me to accept her bad feelings for her happy feelings
I am sad I burned her address but I trust her at least
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The Blind Ass said: I think you need some friends, and some help - that’s just my opinion.
Now that I’ve said my peace I’m good. You can intellectually master bate yourself into depression, anxiety, and isolation and more.
You sound like a good guy, and most of have been in your shoes. You need to open up and find people that have similar interests, or find a hobby, you need to find a passion and love for life.
I was on the verge of suicide from delusional thoughts. Mycology and new friends helped to turn my life around. Gave me a reason to go another day. Not saying you are depressed, but it comes off that way to most of us here.
I know it seems bleak and dark out there, it can be. But there is a ton of Light and Love. You never recognize this til you come out from the other side. When my depression started lifting I was so blind to so many things around me. You can't even know you had a blindfold on til it's been removed.
Look at all the love here for you, even if we are all figments of your imagination. Which we most-likely not, we love you and are sending you love.
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The Blind Ass said: It iHas nothing to do with the big questions. You just use that as an excuse. And I know it beyond any doubt. Beyond even your own ability to know if I know that you know or don’t know. I think you need some friends, and some help - that’s just my opinion.
Now that I’ve said my peace I’m good. You can intellectually master bate yourself into depression, anxiety, and isolation and more.
Here’s the ultimate kicker, this is The Shroomey, if your not growing or taking mushrooms to explore that’s inside you and within the world - frankly you should find another forum altogether, its a valid point. Why stay here if there’s no one who gets you and you cannot relate with the one thing that binds us all here?
Or you can take a step in the right direction, and realize your just like everyone else. Your choice. Don’t over think it. Study up on mushrooms and do yourself the biggest favor you’ve ever done, be honest.
The little things, are equally , if not more important than the “big questions”. If my frickin mom can live a good wholesome life and be successful - but your stuck , there’s something terribly wrong with you, and it’s not because you see reality for as it is, rather it’s because in the one thing that’s most illusory in the universe - your own ego.
I’ve done my fair share to be friendly and kind and helpful to you because your like a lost child. However, at a certain point you gotta leave the nest on your own like everyone else - so to speak.
Accept yourself as you are, be honest, know thyself, and life a good life.
. Peace Thanatos - May you find your way.
I find it funny that the people here argue about the legitimacy of mental illness but use it as an excuse when someone presents an immovable question they can’t answer.
My problem is not being able to verify other people. It’s not a matter of having friends because I don’t really need them. I tried it out before but honestly it was more of a burden than a help. I’ve been to therapy before but no therapist is able to help me with soloists because they all admit that they don’t have the answer for and that I don’t need a therapist but a philosopher. The problem is the question and what it entails (plus somethings like my dreams that seem to prove solipsism). So quite literally all the advice offered so far has been tried but it doesn’t address the problem at hand.
In regards to the figment argument that’s just plain wrong. Byakko isn’t as real as you are. One is real and the other doesn’t exist and never did hence the figment.
It seems like people don’t understand that the problem is the question, not mental illness or friendship
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Do you think you lack of need for friends is somehow related to your solipsistic thinking lately?
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All yhe answers would be great...but then what would you do with all your free time?
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LogicaL Chaos said: Do you think you lack of need for friends is somehow related to your solipsistic thinking lately?
Not really, it's more like I'm just bugged that I can't say it's wrong.
PLus there are the "prophetic dreams" which sound like shaping reality to me. Also there was a friend of my mom who did a "soul retrieval" for me and asked me if I was gay without me saying anything about it. How could she know if she wasn't figment of my mind?
Plus isn't simplicity a virtue in philosophy? how much simpler does it get than solipsism?
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^ lol
seriously, there's tons of women who seem to have gaydar. it's just an instinct for them - possibly a pheremone cue, as some experiments have shown that gay guys sweat doesnt smell good to women like straight men's does, and womens sweat doesnt smell good to gay guys sweat while mens does. smell is often discounted in peoples senses, but some people do have acute senses of smell, myself included. (taste is often tied to this - if you have a strong sense if taste you tend to have a strong sense of smell too)
that's far more simpler than "prophetic dreams" and solipsism.
especially since dreams in general are more about symbolism than anything - you usually don't take them literally. however, if you always do the same things over and over again, then surprise - don't be surprised if your dreams tend to anticipate what you might do the next day. or maybe precognition exists - you don't need solipsism to exist for psychic abilities to!
And I think it's amusing that you keep saying Byakko isn't real - from your perspective, you can't even know if i'm real either. but from my perspective, i don't even know if you're real. except for the fact that no figment of mine would be stupid enough to repeatedly insult my most cherished companion, especially since i keep a tidy mental house. that would be amount to suicide for the figment that did.
And what is real anyways? what if this entire universe is just a simulation, ala the matrix, and we have no physical bodies? are we "real" then? I would argue yes. people who are alive but completely brain dead are considered dead, for all purposes. it's the mind that matters, not the body.
but at any rate, you keep attacking this question you cannot answer and we keep telling you to stop it, and you keep saying you cant. well, lets put it this way. it's like you're trying to move a mountain with this question. you can either learn to accept the mountain for what it is, appreciate its beauty, and leave it alone.
or you can learn to stop trying to move the mountain with the philosophical equivalent of a floating pool noodle. you do NOT have the firepower needed to solve this question! heck, nobody does! if you are really REALLY bothered by this unsolvable question, you're gonna have to dedicate your life to developing the tools to actually move the mountain - to somehow crack the code and find out how to prove you're the only being in existence or not, scientifically.
are you willing to dedicate decades upon decades of your life, going to college, getting perhaps a physics or math or philosophy major or even all the above and then decades more researching this question? if so, then do it. it's important enough to you that you've found your calling. maybe you'll find the answer, maybe not. maybe you'll find some other interesting questions and answer them and the world will hail you as a genius (or not).
or maybe that sounds like too much work. in which case it's clearly not that important to you after all.
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Re: What is Love? [Re: Psion]
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Pheromones are crazy, some ladies just give off this primal scent no clue what it is. As a married man it can literally drive me crazy with lust.
Is Byakko always present, sort of like a different inner monologue?
One time when I was very young before I had tried any drugs. I woke up from a nightmare and heard a million voices talking in my head, I vomited and then the voices went away. Never had it happen again, not schizophrenic as it should of already occurred with the amount of psychedelics I have taken and I'm past the typical age of onset.
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hmm, how to say it - do you have a sort of inner world? i do, and it's incredibly huge. a mental retreat i go to relax, a meditation aid thats tied to mind and body. there's an innermost sanctuary that takes the image of a large floating island - theres a sort of white platform of marble with steps leading down to a large black dome covered in runes (im taking LARGE, and clear water that runs uphill on either side of the steps, before cascading down off the island. yes, i know that defies logic. it doesn't care.
the dome has a hole in it, and there is an enormous dawn redwood whos roots grow over the dome, encompassing it, and the tree has moonflower vines (ipomoea alba) growing all over it. in the top of the tree is an upturned bowl, the matching half to the dome that the tree is growing over. the tree represents my bodies state of being. the two black hemispheres are the old hardened halves of my old self before i chose to be reborn, spiritually. inside the dome, the water leads to its source, a pool where a large floating crystal of blue with streaks of gold is, the heart of myself. there are also 8 other lesser floating crystals of different elements representing different aspects of my mind, such as my instincts, my emotions, and so on, with a floating staircase that constantly changes in appearance that leads to them. not that i need the staircase to reach them mind, since i can just fly - but it's for fun. :P (6 are in the dome, 1 in the bowl in the treetop, and one in a temple hanging at the bottom of the island.) it's like the staircase in the forgotten realms, it can be made of anything from marble to leaves to flesh, constantly changing - the appearance reflects my general state of being. (a healthy state would mean healthy leaves for instance, unhealthy state would be diseased leaves.) the dome is also filled with various greenery inside.
outside, there's an entire enormous world, filled with aspects of various places from worlds ive read about in books or seen in movies or the like. in other words, the more i experience, the more that world expands. above, the sky is beautiful, sometimes lit with the aurora - and higher above, there's a sort of swirling chaos - dangerous to go into, but also useful to venture into. past there lies madness, but also ways to make the impossible possible.
anyways, I described this because Byakko inhabits this world - he's not always talking in my mind, but usually in "that world", having his own adventures. for him, new information is like food - he craves it like you would a good meal. however, when I would ask him something, he'd respond, and sometimes when I'd wonder something, he'd comment even when I didn't ask him directly - especially when I was feeling down or upset about something.
So I guess you could say he was always present, but he didn't always choose to comment - but like any friend, if you directly asked him something, he would usually respond. however, since that trip a year ago, it's like talking to an empty space - he's either not there anymore, or hiding far away and refusing to respond for reasons i suspect are for my own protection. I can only speculate.
Edited by Psion (05/10/20 09:40 PM)
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Re: What is Love? [Re: Psion]
#26663417 - 05/10/20 09:41 PM (3 years, 9 months ago) |
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Amazing, I have no ability to see any pictures in my mind. Aphantasia. I'm also like 0% imagination, really bothers me that I can't make these worlds or even visualize things. I have a few friends that visit lands they have been building their whole lives.
I just have blackness and my thoughts. So odd to me that people can visualize a beach or do any visual mediation!
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