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watermelon mon
Willow Trees


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Being alone 12
#26637717 - 04/29/20 09:34 PM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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Man for over a decade i pretty much had no friends or anything.
It used to make me sad. It's not so bad though, know what i mean? I used to help the wrong people out a lot. It's hard to explain.
There's way too much to explain. If you really knew you would really understand.
I'm also happy with how it turned out so far. Life is way to short so it's cool to just be alive. I'll never forget that isolated, left out feeling of how i used to feel, for so long.
When i look back at what I've seen out there & who made me feel that way, i didn't miss out on anything anyway.
I just missed out on more problems. Maybe it's all just a bunch of idiots out there anyway. Who think they're smart. It was all just a learning experience. From those who wanted a free ride in a bad way.
I'm not one to judge. Maybe they think they're better, because they were socially conditioned to see within a lie of oppression and just shallowness. Just to see within a border without a opened mind.
It did lead to mistrust but not anymore, not if you're happy and you finally found trust just in yourself.
Thats all you need.
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zZZz
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crackbaby
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social aptitude and subsequent status tend to be overrated imo. For instance, John Wayne Gacy and Ted Bundy were both considered to be very charming, fine upstanding citizens until they became linked to all dem corpses
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brk
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Chin up WM. I know deep down you're a good guy. I'm going though some shit at the moment too. Things will get better. You just have to wait it out. Hopefully one day you'll look back and laugh.
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The Blind Ass
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Re: Being alone [Re: brk] 2
#26637942 - 04/30/20 12:06 AM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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Same amigo. 
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enjoi-more
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Any good solo books like what Henry Thoreau wrote you all know of?
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MightyWhite

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Quote:
watermelon mon said: Man for over a decade i pretty much had no friends or anything.
It used to make me sad. It's not so bad though, know what i mean? I used to help the wrong people out a lot. It's hard to explain.
There's way too much to explain. If you really knew you would really understand.
I'm also happy with how it turned out so far. Life is way to short so it's cool to just be alive. I'll never forget that isolated, left out feeling of how i used to feel, for so long.
When i look back at what I've seen out there & who made me feel that way, i didn't miss out on anything anyway.
I just missed out on more problems. Maybe it's all just a bunch of idiots out there anyway. Who think they're smart. It was all just a learning experience. From those who wanted a free ride in a bad way.
I'm not one to judge. Maybe they think they're better, because they were socially conditioned to see within a lie of oppression and just shallowness. Just to see within a border without a opened mind.
It did lead to mistrust but not anymore, not if you're happy and you finally found trust just in yourself.
Thats all you need.
You're a fairly smart guy, I always look for your posts, I enjoy reading most of what you have say.
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pixelpopper
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The Blind Ass said: Same amigo.  
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Shenmue
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I completely understand. I use to be a popular person but I couldn't handle it anymore so I left town and started to isolate. I just couldn't handle the drama anymore. I've been isolating for the past 5 years because I suffer from depression and anxiety. I honestly don't regret it though because it's given me a lot of time to think about life and the universe. When you're alone and have the internet you learn a lot of shit!!
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magoogle
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Re: Being alone [Re: Shenmue]
#26638145 - 04/30/20 02:51 AM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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There's wisdom in your words, thank you for sharing.
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Magenta
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I have always had friends, but i've never been close with any of them. I personnaly was brought up in a very isolated setting and i think that has something to do with this. Whether my deduction is right or wrong, i know for a fact that i have always struggeled to make friends. I have no problem making acquaintances and am probably better at doing it than most people but navigating that bridge from acquaintance to friendship has always been something that doesn't happen often for me. I have grown up like this and am used of having no one close. I feel lonely like you but you are so right, it has its advantages too. I see the world differently to most people.. I'm no genius i assure you but i think my unique view allows me to see things that others don't. Makes me feel pretty cool sometimes. I love your positivity man. It's not all bad, stay awesome!
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If you'll notice I still love the quote I have in my sig.
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Asclepius
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Re: Being alone [Re: Magenta] 1
#26638801 - 04/30/20 11:23 AM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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Magenta said: I have always had friends, but i've never been close with any of them. I personnaly was brought up in a very isolated setting and i think that has something to do with this. Whether my deduction is right or wrong, i know for a fact that i have always struggeled to make friends. I have no problem making acquaintances and am probably better at doing it than most people but navigating that bridge from acquaintance to friendship has always been something that doesn't happen often for me. I have grown up like this and am used of having no one close. I feel lonely like you but you are so right, it has its advantages too. I see the world differently to most people.. I'm no genius i assure you but i think my unique view allows me to see things that others don't. Makes me feel pretty cool sometimes. I love your positivity man. It's not all bad, stay awesome! 
You are lucky if you live your entire life and are blessed with just two great friendships! I've personally only had one of those friendships in my life, but I lost touch with the person as they now live in a different continent. In my humble opinion, I don't think you, me or anyone else is an exception to that apparent truism. Like you, I am good at making acquaintances but have not had a true friend in many years... I think around five or six. Hell, the last time I got out of the house to have fun was back in November. I have come to accept that I am the only person who can make myself happy. That is not to say I do not desire friendship sometimes, but then I think of all the people who have lots of "friends" and who feel just as alone as me. I've gotten comfortable being by myself, not having to try too hard to please others because of what their expectations of me might be.
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trees


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I remember the feeling caused by getting left out at times in the past when I was like 17-early 20s. Looking back, those people that I would have hung out with at those times where i felt left out were actually full of shit cringe thug wannabe losers who had completely false perceptions of coolness.
I have had some of those people try to reconnect with me down the years when they stared realizing they arent cool anymore and their popularity was bullshit. The people who they chose to party with turned out to be "back stabbing every man for himself "druggies and the people like me who wernt badass enough at the time now seem like the "true friends who could save their new found loneliness". I'm so passed all of that I can barely bother take time to even think about those old friends anymore even if I get calls from them
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Re: Being alone [Re: trees] 1
#26638831 - 04/30/20 11:40 AM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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I keep a small circle but I try to be friendly everywhere I go. Besides my girlfriend I spend almost all my time by myself. I enjoy it a lot. I have always been a homebody and being alone allows me to focus more on things that my heart begs me to follow.
I have three friends in particular from over the years who all live in different places but they are basically the most important people in my life. I know that they are often thinking of me and I of them and that makes me feel at peace with being and feeling alone. If I didn't have at least one or two friends like this in my life I feel I'd be missing out on a lot honestly.
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Re: Being alone [Re: Magenta] 1
#26638838 - 04/30/20 11:42 AM (3 years, 8 months ago) |
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That's pretty much how I am too. At some point between 10-12 I got more depressed and feeling alone and lost the outgoing joyous personality I had earlier. Maybe it was just childhood's illusions of life being shattered now that I think about it and life got less fun with family and friend issues. Well, I still made friends throughout the schools, but like you said friends never stuck permanently. Like I don't have good friends that I have known most my life. It is always like getting new friends who are my friends for a while and even close and then drift apart or they turn out to not be such good friends to me. I think I have one permanent good friend now though which makes me happy. I have been thinking about this and I don't think it needs to change anymore. After all, I don't really want many new friends, if I did I would go after those possibilities. On the other hand, maybe it's more just being comfortable in the way of life I have that hinders me from changing it too much. Still, with all the friends I have, I sometimes wish we were closer, like a family of likeminded people, but they always seem so much different from me. Can still enjoy their company from time to time
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ninja cat 09
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I feel sad sometimes because I lack friends too, but then I think and realize that if I were important to some of the people I make an effort to stay in contact with, they would make the effort back. Like some of you, I'm good at making acquaintances, but not great at making friends.
I thought I had made a forever friend a couple of years ago until she disappeared into the ether of bits that is the web, where the friendship we had was originally forged.
I love your positive attitude WM, it's one I've been trying to have lately. Positivity and productivity. It's tough sometimes though, when it feels like we don't matter and we need to reach out to someone.
Thankfully the shroomery is here for me, and so are a few friend-quaintances on the net, whom always seem closer on line than in real life.
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watermelon mon
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Thanks i am doing good.
I hope all of you guys are doing good.
Paintence is a good thing.
I'm not sure who Henry Thoreau or any of those guys are. I'll look into this.
I don't remember too much of what i write on here. Most of the time I'll just be chilled out in a meditative way.
The other day i was riding my bicycle and a thought jumped into my head. It was about my cat. I was just thinking hey man my cat is a pizza cat.
For some reason it had me laughing for a long time.
A few people noticed. It made them smile. They had no idea it was about this pizza cat.
Edited by watermelon mon (04/30/20 01:47 PM)
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watermelon mon
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I'll be your friend for life
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Envix
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I relate all too well to the OP post, which makes me feel like there are other like minded people out there, and that i am missing out on opportunities to meet them. But then i realize that they are probably isolating themselves rn
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