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Anonymous #1

Corona Virus, Quitting My Job, Mental Health
    #26612602 - 04/19/20 10:14 AM (3 years, 9 months ago)

I guess, my purpose for this post is to gather opinions/advice on my current situation. Here goes.

I was an essential worker up until maybe just short of 2 weeks ago. Handling cash, interacting with customers right up in my face etc. 

about 4 days ago I woke up with a sore throat, and throughout the day I developed a 'dry cough'.  It is very subtle, but it won't go away.  Both the sore throat and the dry cough get worse at night and it feels like as the evening approaches I start to feel weighed down, in my head and in my chest.

I feel more tired than usual also.  I have been congested but only in the middle of the nights really and sometimes early morning. I have no fever.

So, I don't know what the fuck is going on with that.


About 3 days ago I got a call from my boss.  He wanted me to come back to work. I should have said no right away, not even because I am sick but because I don't want to be there putting myself at risk and I have another reason but I will get to that shortly. I immediately said yes I can work, not even thinking, cause I am so used to saying yes to my boss just to keep my job(he is a real dick).  Then, as soon as I realized I had said yes I also realized, oh fuck wait, I am sick.  So after I told him this, he told me to call him the next day to let him know how I was feeling.  Next day I called, said I was still sick, he told me to call him monday with update.  Well, tomorrow is monday.

I am still sick, I am going to be sick tomorrow I presume because I just can't imagine this going away that quickly. But herein lies another issue.

I have been wanting to quit my job for a very long time.  I have never been treated worse at any other job in my life.  I would say that my position at work is of higher status, I have more seniority than all of my coworkers and even the asst manager.  I am not respected, but I'm respected..if that makes sense.  In other words, I get treated like shit but I work so hard and have such a good track record that I have leeway to fuck up if I ever needed it or to get days off whenever I want or even make my own schedule. I recognize if I quit, these things wont be easily regained if I decide to find another job.

But, here's the thing.  I recently inherited some money. A decent amount, I don't know the exact number off top but after taxes are paid and everything is sorted out I think I am looking at a little over 100k. In addition to this I have almost 10k in savings.  I don't have a lot of bills, and I don't spend a lot on anything really.  I figure I could easily survive for a year on my savings and still have some left over. 

The main reason I am really considering quitting though is this.  I figure life is short. These days seem to be going by faster and faster. When I work 40 hours a week, I have no freedom of mind. I come home, go to sleep, wake up, do school work (I am working towards a psych degree) and then go to work.  I do not even have time to think about my future or my interests.  Having the past 2 weeks off work has allowed me to reconnect with myself and really think about my future. It has allowed me to remember how reality itself works, how connected my thinking is to where I end up in life.  And working at this job has me constantly thinking negative thoughts or constantly trying not to think negatively instead of just easily flowing through a positive mental state and killing life like I have been the past 2 weeks.  I mean shit has just been coming to me effortlessly, my grades went up in my classes, I have been learning new things in my spare time and getting tons of great business/financial ideas. I feel empowered. Working that job makes me feel trapped and stuck, makes me feel like I am missing out on working on myself and putting myself where I could be.

I acknowledge the fact that it has allowed me to save and accomplish a lot so far, it has basically payed for my associates degree. But, I think it might be time to transition into the next chapter of my life. The answers are not going to come to me when I am stretching myself thin and trying to scrounge up every last penny I can while neglecting my health and sacrificing the time needed to really sit and think about my life. And, if I really don't NEED every last penny I am sacrificing all of this for, is it really worth the sacrifice right now?


So I am curious.  Do you think I am letting this inheritance get to my head? Should I forget about it and just buckle down and go back to work?  Or, should I take this opportunity to really embrace life and connect with myself. To focus on school, goals, and better forms of income that will allow me to have time for myself and my health?

Thanks for taking the time to read and respond. Hope your doing well considering all that is happening right now. :thumbup:


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Anonymous #2

Re: Corona Virus, Quitting My Job, Mental Health [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #26617798 - 04/21/20 01:22 PM (3 years, 9 months ago)

I understand working a job you hate with people that don’t jive with you.  I quit that job of mine a little over a year ago.  It took some time to find a new job but I’m much happier now.  Being at a job you don’t like with shitty people is not worth the time you spend to make some money. 

If you quit this job, my advice would be to stay busy.  Have a plan of what you want to accomplish and make it happen. 

Congratulations on your inheritance and I wish you the best!


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Anonymous #1

Re: Corona Virus, Quitting My Job, Mental Health [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #26618397 - 04/21/20 06:14 PM (3 years, 9 months ago)

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Anonymous #2 said:
I understand working a job you hate with people that don’t jive with you.  I quit that job of mine a little over a year ago.  It took some time to find a new job but I’m much happier now.  Being at a job you don’t like with shitty people is not worth the time you spend to make some money. 

If you quit this job, my advice would be to stay busy.  Have a plan of what you want to accomplish and make it happen. 

Congratulations on your inheritance and I wish you the best!



thanks for the response.

yeah... my boss called again today and told me to come in in a few days even though I'm still sick.  Kind of a careless decision on his end. 

I have a plan though, for the most part.  But, I am kind of worried about the downtime having a negative effect... somehow I have developed this habit of getting really harsh with myself when I am not doing something productive. I think it has to do with getting older, knowing my time is finite. 

I think I am going to just go back to work, and the first time it gets in the way of my new goals and plans, or the first time I get treated like shit and it starts effecting my mental health, then I'll just quit.


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