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3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side.
    #26576982 - 04/04/20 10:04 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

I'm going to start off and say that this may be a little lengthy. I appreciate the read if you do -  but I'm also using this as a way to vent because I don't have many people I can talk to about things of such.

Anyway.. yesterday morning I woke up and seen that the sun was shining, it was a gorgeous day. I woke up at a fairly reasonable time and decided to pack a little day pack and go hit the woods for a little bit.

Ended up bringing my bike and hammock. Did a nice little bike ride to a nice spot and set up the hammock. I broke out my mushrooms and ate 3G (which is fairly low dose for me). I just wanted a nice recreational trip. Just wanted to enjoy the day and get out. Nothing more, nothing less.

As I'm lying in the hammock the comeup was hitting extremely hard. Very discomforting. The trees were all dead and bent in weird shapes - it was just offputting once the trip began. I decided to take my bike for a ride (because why not). I got to some pine trees (they're my favorite) - and the breeze was making the trees do such an amazing majestical dance.

I set my bike down, sat down in some grass and sat there and watched this beautiful show around me. Also, had this weird thought that if someone came across me and I was just sitting there looking at these trees they'd think I was weird as shit (lol).. but then I was like "like looking at your phone is normal"??:lol:

Anyway.. as I was watching this beautiful majestical dance take place in front of my eyes.. these amazing visuals where I was able to see every single part of detail within these trees that just made it so much better... I got SMACKED WITH A WAVE OF MY DARKNESS.

I know I kind of have some things south in my head.. but I'm very good at silencing them when I'm sober because I'm an extremely active person. Really don't give myself that time to be emotionally reflecting on myself. Especially with heightened emotions that mushrooms give you.

This is weird for me to posting this because I've never talked about this with anyone - but I had a full on conversation with myself in the car on the way back from this trip and it felt good to talk about it outloud. So, I'm using this beautiful forum to vent and maybe feel something different with bringing it to light like the mushrooms did for me yesterday.

For about the last 5 or 6 years I've developed this "sex addiction". Not even so much of going around with fucking everything that walks. But jacking off.. sometimes multiple times a day. And the slightest things would set me off.. very difficult to talk about this as it is very personal but I'm hoping if I put this out there I may find peace like I did yesterday in my car.

But I treat girls like shit. I ONLY think about fucking them or don't consider them worth my time if they don't have a nice ass or tits. Also, I am on a dating app and within 10 minutes of a first conversation I'm asking them if they want to send nudes.

I'm by no means a bad looking guy. Girls say I do look like "trouble". Maybe its the tattoos and muscles and beard idk. But I haven't been able to hold a relationship because I'm always trying to see other girls naked and whatnot.

I'm in my mid 20's which is normal to have a high sex drive. But I know mines extremely excessive. If I get horny.. i almost have to jack off shortly after (which happens a lot when if I'm bored).

This trip really tore me apart and showed me that my ways are NOT normal. I treat these girls like there nothing more than a piece of ass and I'm only trying to show them my dick and offer them nothing more. Then I thought about if a girl only used me for my dick. If she would only hit me up to fuck and then not care to ask how I am or anything. Especially if I kind of liked her.

I've been hurt pretty well a few times and I think these devopled me into what I am. This trip definitely ate me alive and I felt SO DISGUSTED with myself. It was eating me alive- "you're sick", "do I have a problem"? .. "am I bipolar"? Because after I cum I feel bad as hell for what I've said to these girls and how i treated them.. but then I'm right back to it a few hours or day later.

I really think this trip opened up my eyes and I had some extremely self reflective messages that the mushrooms sent me. It was brutal. I felt so worthless. I was thinking what a beautiful mother I have and if some guy were talking to my mom the way I talk to some girls I would fucker murder him.

This feels good. This is what I needed. This was the first time the mushrooms EVER revealed this side of me and I've always feared they would.. but after over two dozen times they never did. This was the FIRST time ever.

I'm happy to get this off my shoulders. This is what I needed. I needed to post this. It feels good to talk about this openly with no judgement. I appreciate this community more than I can explain and I'm thankful for anyone of you that have taken the time to read this.

I got changes to make. This is day one in my journey. Stay safe & healthy my friends.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26576994 - 04/04/20 10:18 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Thanks for sharing. The personal stuff is always difficult to get out in words.

I wanted to point out where you say you are offering your dick and nothing more. I think this could be true, but possibly not as true as you may think right now. Don’t beat yourself up, even if you are a piece of shit... like you mentioned, most of us are able to develop terrible relationship patterns as a self defense against past relational injuries. The way you behave in these relationships isn’t worse than everyone else.

The good thing is,  now that you have noticed the problem from new perspectives, I am willing to predict that new methods of interaction will also start to become more available.

As you go through processing this, something that might be worth considering is what actual values you are able to provide for a partner, and what, besides sex, would you want in a partner?


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26577004 - 04/04/20 10:27 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

It’s always good to get those things off your shoulder. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have similar masterbation issues. It’s multiple times a day still sometimes but shrooms have tried to straitened me out more than once and it wasn’t fun. Iv definitely got better with my issues over the last couple of years but I definitely still have a porn addiction. I wake up wanting to watch it and I go to sleep wanting to watch it but I’m trying to break the cycle. It’s kinda fucked up because I am married but my wife knows what I do and is ok with it for the most part but it still makes me feel dirty. In the past we have broken up over some of my issues especially treating her like a piece of ass. The mushrooms have shown me if u want to be happy with a wife you have to treat the woman right. We’re happier then ever now and I credit the mushrooms for making me conscious of my problems and helping me understand I was In the wrong. I glad you shared this, it’s good to release these things and improve your life from it:rockon:


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast] * 1
    #26577066 - 04/04/20 11:10 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Brutal honesty, Vibe_Enthusiast, much respect ✊🏻

I’m quite a lot older so stuff like that changes, naturally. Did some body building 10 years ago and with the supplements I literally wanted to shag post boxes!

I’m pleased this has been cathartic for you. I’m taking a break for various reasons; losing the magic jn the last few trips, all sorts of stuff going on, freaking out with cannabis after years of tripping with weed synergistically. So a break and then the magic will return.

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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: SFS96]
    #26577084 - 04/04/20 11:24 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

@Shr00meater -
Thanks for the response man. I do think we are our own worse critics and let the ego make it feel like we are the center of disaster. Mushrooms are really good at making it worse because of the heightened emotions. Other drugs help you escape from your issues, mushrooms make you deal with it full force. It was extremely difficult but was needed.

I am alone, not lonely. But lately I have been wanting to find someone to do fun things with and do hikes with. I have a lot to offer I just sell myself out as this sexual pervert from the get go and sometimes it fucks a lot of things up for me before things even get going well. I'm going to try and work on putting it on the back burner and slowly release it instead of coming out full blast. Because what's going on now, just is not working.

@SFS96 -
Wow man I actually feel comfort with this now. I'm glad you shared your experience as well, makes me feel less dirty talking about this but I'm feeling a sense of weight being lifted and its exactly what I needed. It's a very strange addiction to have. Because afterward do you feel dirty? That's always been my thing. After I cum I'm like "why are you doing this". "Thks needs to stop". May just be me. But I do have thay conversation with myself almost every time I finish.

Thanks for the response brother. This is very good! For both you and I to talk about such things with zero judgement.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26577096 - 04/04/20 11:28 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

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Brutal honesty, Vibe_Enthusiast, much respect ✊🏻

I’m quite a lot older so stuff like that changes, naturally. Did some body building 10 years ago and with the supplements I literally wanted to shag post boxes!

I’m pleased this has been cathartic for you. I’m taking a break for various reasons; losing the magic jn the last few trips, all sorts of stuff going on, freaking out with cannabis after years of tripping with weed synergistically. So a break and then the magic will return.

Peace brother
DJ Ed



It was a tad unfortunate for the reason being is I just wanted a day out by myself to relax and enjoy the sunshine. Now,  I did have a good half the trip but the next 4 hours were me just belittling myself and talking down myself thinking what a pervert and idiot i make myself out to be. I know my thoughts toward myself were more aggressive than normal just because the mushrooms really wanted to get the point across.

It was 10 weeks since I took them last so I was really looking forward to it. Though, cliche as it sounds.. the worse trips build the most character. It wasn't a "bad" trip, it was I just finally looked at those things that I usually put in the category of "out of sight out of mind".

Cheers brother - I hope things look up for you in the future. I know you've been struggling. But I'm right there with you man..


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast] * 1
    #26577098 - 04/04/20 11:29 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Dude,you sound a lot like me 20 years ago.  I'm in my mid 40s now.  It isn't that you don't have anything to offer other than your dick, it's that you don't know how to offer it.  While I have grown and changed its still there the need and drive, the lust. 

You are on the right path because you realize what's there.  You don't need to change it, embrace it, figure out just what you are and accept it.  Learn to love the pervert that you are and then find someone who will accept who you are.  My wife is very aware of who I am and what a perv I can be.  It's awesome to get to share the real me with a partner and have her just accept it and still love me. 

It all comes down to honesty.  It sounds like you are starting to get honest with yourself.  As soon as you are honest with yourself you can then be honest with someone else.....


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Samiam76] * 1
    #26577120 - 04/04/20 11:44 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Hell yeah man. I've had some great relationships with girls that accepted my ways. Because they were fine with me being aggressively sexual, cum.. and still have interest in talking and getting to know each other. Unfortunately I think its just I haven't found someone I actually want more than that and I know I have zero intentions on nothing more than them being a piece of ass.

Kind of lost in the aspect - because I would love to meet someone who accepts me for who I am and I have full interest in them as well. Its just hard these days man. So much shit is different these days. Social media has made the dating scene a complete and utter mess. But in time I know i will be able to be myself. I just have extreme sexual desires randomly. Almost like right when I get horny I gotta take care of it.

I have kept this to myself for 6 years and I can't explain how nice this feels to lay it all out on the table


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26577305 - 04/04/20 01:51 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Awesome trip! Mushrooms have their own intentions for you as well, and they give you what you need and are prepared for, especially if you ask, in my experience it's always a bit naive to go into a trip thinking it will be what you expect or "recreational" I'm always prepared for some huge lessons because they have their own plans for you once you get in their realm.

Those are the trips I love!


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Eclipse3130]
    #26577354 - 04/04/20 02:11 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

It is nice to write it out and even discuss it when the time to do so is needed, I have quiet BPD and had similar struggles but it is more towards myself. I am very proud of you for writing your experience and it encourages me to think more openly while tripping as well as during normal life.

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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Qyu]
    #26577668 - 04/04/20 04:34 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

I agree with most all the various affirmations above. And you are smart and very brave to ask for ideas. I'm approaching 60 and looking back being a good person, as opposed to a selfish person, is more important. Good is all about respect and selfish is all about fuck'em and forget'em. Ask yourself if you really respect girls who throw their pussy around. Prol not. A strong sex drive is wonderful but maybe try to be graceful about it with women.

Ps. Mushrooms are always teachers if we listen. Sometimes they make us pay attention.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Qyu]
    #26577678 - 04/04/20 04:37 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Good things are on your horizon friend. You seem very committed to integrating your experience into your every day life and I know that you're capable of that. I've personally found with addiction  that being hyper critical of ones addiction can lead to extremely low and self critical mental states, which in turn make it much more tempting to relapse. I'd hope that you can recognize that your addiction doesn't make you a "dirty" person, or lesser in anyway. It's an illness that you're capable of overcoming.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: WASTE]
    #26577714 - 04/04/20 04:51 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

I appreciate all of your responses - nothing short of amazing. You guys are making me feel extremely comforted especially with talking about something I've NEVER spoke to about these things going on in my head. It's for sure apart of me - and I'm just going to try and maintain it until the time is right opposed to surrendering to it every time it comes around. I definitely wasn't thinking this trip was going to pan out this way - but it did and I'm grateful for it,

I knew it was a good idea for me to post on here - it brings light to my situation on something I've felt has been dark for so long and it's freeing. I know we all deal with something we want to change - some worse than others. I just do feel like I ruin potentially good things because I come off like a complete pig and times. But that's not who "i" am in a sense. It's very hard to put into words but I'm sure you get the idea I'm laying down here.

The mushrooms REALLY did act like a bully. They made me think so little of myself - it was extremely depressing - but it was also like that one friend you have that calls you out on your bullshit because no one else is.

This did take a lot for me to post here - and I was actually cringing a tad when I was typing it.. but then it freely came out and I felt comfort in doing this. I'm going to take a break from the mushrooms once again - and let this marinate and see where I stand in a month or two.

You all are amazing - and I can't thank you enough for the support and the similar shared stories. This community is definitely one of a kind.

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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26577805 - 04/04/20 05:56 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Good people, including you, indeed. I added a ps to my post above but want to repeat it here.....

Mushrooms are always teachers if we listen. Sometimes they make us pay attention.

From this perspective you shouldn't worry about facing another challenging trip next time out. The spirits are, above all, benevolent. You'll be fine.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: InfraredRick]
    #26577857 - 04/04/20 06:32 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Absolutely! I agree completely and thank you for the optimism. Goes a long way. I was trying so hard to ride my bike and I had to keep stopping because my thoughts were destroying me - they MADE me face them. I give my hats off to mushrooms - they're by far one of the best things I've ever discovered even if they treat me like complete shit at times - because it is for the better.

It gave me the beauty for the first hour or two.. and then a reality check for the rest of the trip. 4 hours of completely being in my head and could not cling to anything else other than putting myself down and feeling terrible about myself.

Things will get better - because as discomforting as it was - I feel GREAT today. And I'm going to try and keep the momentum strong here!


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26578598 - 04/05/20 02:19 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

A few months back, the mushrooms were quite the bully with me, and I have not looked back since. They showed me what a nracissist I’ve been most of my adult life. It was quite a brutal lesson, and I felt me starting to hate myself. Once. I got this message though, it has really facilitated me making positive changes. Don’t get me wrong, you can’t undo 50 years of programming overnight, but that initial lesson where through the mushrooms I effectively recognised what I am or was, has been so helpful.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26579027 - 04/05/20 09:10 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

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A few months back, the mushrooms were quite the bully with me, and I have not looked back since. They showed me what a nracissist I’ve been most of my adult life. It was quite a brutal lesson, and I felt me starting to hate myself. Once. I got this message though, it has really facilitated me making positive changes. Don’t get me wrong, you can’t undo 50 years of programming overnight, but that initial lesson where through the mushrooms I effectively recognised what I am or was, has been so helpful.



Exactly where I'm standing at it with it too. It's not going to change right away - but now it has been addressed and this is where we can take hold and control the outcome and steer ourselves into the right direction.


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26579294 - 04/05/20 11:29 AM (3 years, 10 months ago)

Early adulthood shows you that you can do anything you want, even in excess. That feels great!
But the wisdom of getting older is knowing whether or not you should do anything you want.

Some fight that awareness all their lives-- some adopt that mindset slowly, and some integrate it early. For me it took awhile (and still I bounce off that wall every now and again)
It took me until my 30's to get out of a similar situation like you're in V_E-- like you I was rampantly horny in my 20's-- it's all I thought about.
Hormones are very real-- but they can shape your psychology and replace your social compass if you're not in control of it. That's generally no good.

It is a very good thing that you faced your feelings in a state of full honesty-- something shrooms grant sometimes whether it's expected or not. Better still that you share them, crystallizing them into clear thought means no fuzzy logic or selective excuses. You had this realization inside you already-- it was just looking for a release. Listen, learn, and understand. You wish for change in your life. :smile:

You own your body-- don't let it lead you around by the dick for too long--your discontent reveals that there is indeed too much of a good thing :wink:
Besides, you will never find true loving companionship if you're stuck on the physical-- and finding some amazing female companionship really framed sex in a fundamentally different (and better) way when I was really with someone having sex, and not just fucking a pussy to get off like some 2 minute porn scene. Just wait until you're madly in love with a girl-- what a pinnacle of ecstasy that sex is.
Good luck, and be at peace with your knowledge-- you're on a good path of maturing past adolescence into adulthood. :peace:


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast] * 1
    #26579414 - 04/05/20 12:33 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

I want you to know that there are many of us out there that appreciate you sharing these inner turmoils of yours.

It makes it easier for us to do the same. I applaud your vulnerability and am very grateful that you've shared :heart:

I've struggled in a similar way (and continue to). When I was younger, due to childhood trauma, I developed a porn addiction. Although it never directly lead me to lose a job or drop out of school, the internal damage did contribute to my many bad decisions. To this day I still struggle with the emotional and spiritual fallout. And I've never talked about this anywhere or to anyone. But your post reminds me that we all have some deep struggles and we shouldn't be ashamed of them.

I'm glad you got to face your demons. And I really hope that this lights your inner spark of change. Thanks again for sharing :heart:

P.S You mentioned that 3g is a fairly low dose for you. I know you are accustomed to 4-4.5g normally. But I have found, through all my low dose experimentation, that there are certain aspects where the lower doses can be "stronger". On a lower dose I have my wits about me and so I face my inner self with a higher degree of standard awareness. On higher doses I begin to dissolve elsewhere and, although the experience is more intense, I usually have such an altered awareness (in a good way) that I face the issues with a new set of eyes (which is probably better than the low dose, soberish experiences but, ultimately, feels very different).


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Re: 3G dose of mushrooms - unleashed my dark side. [Re: Socrateshroom] * 1
    #26584491 - 04/07/20 05:09 PM (3 years, 10 months ago)

I appreciate you guys so much on the responses and sharing your experiences as well. It really does make me feel SO much better about myself and I have brought light to this situation - and it's absolutely amazing. You all are beautiful souls.

I agree with the lower doses being "stronger" - I believe it's because of how it's more thoughts than visuals if that makes sense. You don't get caught in the "awe", you kind of stick around in your own personal shit! Was something else, and they bullied me extremely hard. I'm so glad they did.. also I'm thanking myself that I did post this. I feel so good about things right now...

You all are amazing and have given some great insights that I'm incorporating into my life... truly thank all of you from the bottom of my heart.


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