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Rigogpu
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1st trip report need help
#26542710 - 03/18/20 01:42 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Ok so I tripped last night for the 1st time ever. I think I took 2 grams I didnt know my scale does not measure in small increments. I'm trying to do this for healing or atleast I think I am. I started getting thoughts with the music and me focusing. Thoughts on how to handle situations. I even cried a little cause I was being honest with myself in hating who I was becoming. I actually embraced myself like the hate towards me like I was listening to the music and It told me "Dance with self hate it can't do nothing to you its powerless" and I started to realize I'm bringing this on myself. Other stuff happened but very suttle like I had to concentrate on the messages. I did feel nauseous but I remember it felt good I liked it and felt and knew it was purging the bad energy out. Then I got anxious and bought a pack of cigarettes and started to just feel the high and enjoy. Like therapy under the influence and it was and I was accepting me being high that way even though it almost made me think "now I found a new drug to trip off" and I told myself at least I'm getting some therapy this way the other way is just selfishness I thought I was trying to find a break through to healing but then wanted to just be high and trip off everything. Like why is this not profound enough for me. I still want to do all this shit I am trying to get away from Woman,sex,alcohol,cigarettes etc. Like what can I do should I do more tonight. Honestly I'm kinda depressed a little I'm not integrating my experiences with my life.
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Shr00mEater
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: Rigogpu]
#26542739 - 03/18/20 01:57 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Try Jesus?

I mean, you’re trying to get away from sex with women, alcohol and smokes. So, join a church. Plenty of people who eats shrooms actually enjoy at least one of those items, along with miscellaneous other human vices.
Ok, better advice. Take 3.5g this weekend, it still might not change anything that you want to change... but, at least you will have a better idea of what all the fuss is about.
Btw, what’s wrong with psychedelically influenced self therapy? It sounds like it was a cathartic enough experience.
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Rigogpu
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26542776 - 03/18/20 02:18 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Totally understand if people drink and trip or whatever they want. That's not a problem at all but for me it's different like I can't control when I want to stop those things. I was religious then fell off then found psycadelics and rediscovered something higher. I did ayahuasca months ago super profound and very intense. I came back a changed man. No woman,alcohol, nothing urges completely gone for like 2-3 months. Then I started to think I had control and could drink and do all the other stuff and ended up to squrae one where I started. I was going to run and stretch and try and piece together what happened and see what I need to do. Like I'm happy for the experience dont get me wrong its just i guess im expectating profound changes and getting myself down when I dont get it.
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Shr00mEater
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: Rigogpu]
#26542897 - 03/18/20 03:31 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Rigogpu said: .. its just i guess im expectating profound changes and getting myself down when I dont get it.
I think you said it right there.
Try a few more times, give yourself a week or two between. Try the patch for smoking.
Don’t try so hard, the mushrooms will do most of the work anyway.
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26543140 - 03/18/20 05:42 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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IMO you have only just started. The shrooms are self healing menatlly and gives you perspective. They expand your thinking. Try an eighth or more. I need to reach that goal myself..
Its truely a wonderful thing.
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: Rigogpu]
#26543232 - 03/18/20 06:32 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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In your first thread you wanted to try .5g -- myself and others counseled you to adjust up to a low-average dose to make sure you felt OK, based on your concerns with going too deep too soon.
Remember-- all shrooms are unique--but I don't remember you telling anyone you had no way to accurately measure your dose. You really need to spend the $20 to buy a good .001 scale so you can make sure you're absolutely accurate, or you're just guessing.
That said-- you've now peeked behind the curtain. You felt that there was more to be expected of the experience. There is. But since I don't know if you measured out 1.3g or 2.4-- I don't know if your particular shrooms are on the mild side, or you took a much lighter amount than you think you did-- so it's a challenge to appraise anything until you're measuring accurately-- I hope that makes sense.
If you try and trip tonight it will be significantly diminished from what it would have been-- nobody will tell you that it's a good idea to do it two nights in a row as a rule-- you will still have a modest tolerance, and it will probably be underwhelming again-- even at 3+g (as an example)
1) Buy a scale-- or use coins if you wish: One American dime weighs 2.268g A penny is exactly 2.5g A nickel is exactly 5.0g and a Quarter is 5.67g Use them as counterweights and you'll be able to get a very close approximations in a pinch.
2) Wait a week. Internalize what you experienced. Not in a woo-woo way, but be thoughtful and analytical. Learn from it.
Next time, you will have a scale (hopefully) and can try 3g, which is getting to the most common dose range, and you can start to see what the main show is all about.
PS-- I seriously caution against going out in public to buy anything (I pray you didn't drive) under the influence. One thing that is universal to anyone on a solid 3+g dose is that you will NOT be safe to drive, and would be very risky to be in public in general.
This is a process man, not a fix. You have dipped your toe in and want more-- so I say, mission accomplished. Don't be discouraged.
-------------------- I am certain of nothing but the holiness of the Heart's affections and the truth of Imagination-- John Keats Spore Trading List
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Re: 1st trip report need help [Re: coAsTal] 1
#26543374 - 03/18/20 07:34 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Your absolutely right I did get something's out of this trip and i probably did really close to 2 grams i had a thick stem and half a cap. I have a picture but cant load with my phone. Thanks I will wait I wanted to go again higher but your right Imma integrate what I got from it and try again in a week or 2. I did tip my toe and was experiencing phases of solution's to issue's, acceptance of my insecurities, and moment's of complete happiness I was one with my self at that moment I surrendered. I think I got what I needed and just need to integrate that experience and try and put it into my daily life because in reality thats why I'm doing it at this point in my life right now for healing. I did get it I just have to choose to see it. Thanks man I will get a better scale, wait, and put my experience into perspective in my life.
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