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Spiralspider
Bigguy

Registered: 06/20/16
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im depressed
#26537912 - 03/16/20 05:22 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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hey guys
Im currently in depression where I seem to have nothing to wait for in the future, no future accomplishments, no friendships at sight nor even a future relation with an individual of the other sex, i mean ladies.
My current situation is terrible because I smoke, my jobs is paid in comissions and im not making any money out of that, and im full of envy and jealousy about others life. My mind is always changing not getting any ideas just to adapt to make everyone happy. I cutted on every consumism i have, I only spend money in cigarretes and sometimes petrol to my car.
I dont have a house, i live in my family house and people sometimes even ask me when im gonna pay for the food too, its really unfair for me. I live in europe and there are more cases of people that live with their family until late but most of the times theyve graduated or have some formation and they re3ally are waiting for better times but not me i dont have any upbringing coming on that i can see.
Should i shoot myself? It would be worthy to steal some bucks and go live far away to try to make myself better and then pay back the money?
depression is shit and if i stay here i might be with depression for some more years and if i leave situation may clear up a bit. think with a rockstar attitude please :P
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Bph
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Registered: 10/11/18
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Hey bud. I feel ya. Sometimes I think myself and others would be better off if I was gone. but honestly that's not true. You have got this one chance in your current human suite, don't waste it on a bullet. Get a new job. Move to a new country. Teach English in Singapore or some shit. Maybe your life sucks. But this doesn't have to be your life. Hell go talk to a shrink. Sometimes we need medication to get through things. I like to eat mushrooms to pull me out if a tail spin like this. It's like if your not afraid to kill yourself than go ahead and eat 25 grams of mush. Maybe you will still want to kill yourself maybe not. Just don't give up yet. You will be taken when it's your time. Suicide is almost never the right thing to do.
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evlyshrooms
willi weilii



Registered: 08/08/19
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Hiya bud, sorry to hear you're struggling with this terrible ailment. Kudos to you for sharing about it and seeking some guidance. First of all trust me man, this sentiment is shared by many. You are far from alone with this one.
In fact, I'm desperately trying to pull myself up out of a similar situation now. I would strongly advise against stealing anything from anyone and running off to try and make a new life for yourself. You are fortunate to have a family willing to provide for your basic needs for the time being. I think a place of gratitude is a great jumping off point for starting to make some changes for the better. Personally I find I got overwhelmed and hopelessly discouraged when contemplating my current state and seeming lack of an enjoyable future. Which often led to inaction, potentiating my problems, and the cycle continued so on and so on feeding on itself.
A wise man once said a journey of a million bagillion miles starts with one step or something like that. Start with the basics. Aim to live a healthier lifestyle exercise, eat healthy, get outside and reconnect with nature. You 100% have to trust the process and believe change is possible which it definitely is. Work on developing good habits and make it easy for yourself. Start with a 5 pushups 5 sit-ups, 5 minutes outside, maybe consume junk food one less time a week. As time passes build this routine add in a few reps, spend a few more minutes outside, throw in a few healthier food options. Then you can start to stack in other habits you'd wish to adopt down the road with the same method.
Also try to find a hobby you enjoy. For me, it's hiking and foraging for wild edibles. It kind of knocks a few birds with one stone. Not only am I doing something I enjoy but I also get exercise and time spent in good ole Mother Nature. It's really a beautiful thing.
Over time you're guaranteed to feel better about yourself mentally and physically, which should work wonders with your performance at work and certainly won't hurt with the ladies. You'll be surprised at how making a few behavior changes here and there can really help to get the gears moving and get you into a new less negative mind state.
Depression is no joke man. Not sure if you've considered seeing a therapist already but obviously a mental health professional would certainly be able to help to provide some guidance and potentially work through any traumas you might have.
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evlyshrooms
willi weilii



Registered: 08/08/19
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Re: im depressed [Re: Bph]
#26537980 - 03/16/20 06:51 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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I totally second that. After a failed suicide attempt I felt nothing but shame and guilt for copping out on my family and friends. Not worth it man, there are people you'll leave behind with an immeasurable amount of grief and sorrow.
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