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Anonymous #1
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Considering who I am
#26528909 - 03/11/20 10:33 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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At this point, I'm not really sure what to do. This is the worst I've felt in a long time. Since this morning can't get stuff out of my head and I continue to dwell.
I've realized things about myself in the past month. Things that affect my relationships and are so much of a part of me that I can think of specific instances where they've occurred. I know my mind is a bit different, I've got pretty bad ADHD with a touch of OCD. That with a lack of social awareness is putting me in a position where all I can think in my head but I don't have means of affirmation. I'm not saying my realizations are bad, I'm just saying that because of the combination of some stuff I feel like I have no one meaningful to talk to. Overall I'm very outgoing and feel comfortable in almost all social situations. Most of the problems that occur when it comes to being "close" with someone.
The real problem is that I realize these things but have because I struggle to connect deeply with people I have no way of either confirming or denying them. This leaves my mind to dwell and continually think about the good and the bad in an attempt to reason them.
Not really sure what I'm asking but if anyone has advice I'm all ears.
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Anonymous #2
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You are "normal" at least that is my consideration - which may or may not be a problem for you to overcome...It's not easy being normal, but you'll get use to it. Don't be afraid of being "normal" - I promise you that most people that seem weird to you are actually fairly normal.
Remember "normal" is relative...and "strange" is only meaningful to a stranger?
You will get through this, be who you are - it's hip to be square and geeks are cool. Embrace your inner kindness!
Someday you'll look back on this time when your a senior citizen and wonder if anything ever really made any sense- even after a lifetime of pondering the fantasy of reality?
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Anonymous #1
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Thanks a lot for this. I've since then gotten help from a friend. I suppose I tend to dwell on things even when I know the truth. You're right about strange being relative and I know that. I have no fear of being weird or different, I just seek to form meaningful relationships.
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Anonymous #2
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Meaningful relationships are rare because of our nature of wanting to be loved, short comings and all exposed - thus revealing us as vulnerable human beings.
If you have a helping friend, then you may be in a meaningful relationship after all...
We all seek to form meaningful relationships in one way or another. But then wonder why so few are wanting to form them with us.
Meaningful relationships are often elusive for most people IMO...
My conclusion is this - what is meaningful to one person is meaningless to another.
True friendship forms where pain, sorrow and heartbreak intersect in those hearts who seek meaning!
You will encounter what you seek and remember be careful what you wish for cause you might just get it all.
Joy and laughter are a prayer away, with a trail of tears leading the way to paradise
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