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Peyote Road
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Re: Suicide [Re: AZZI] 1
#26533815 - 03/14/20 02:13 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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I've been planning to commit suicide for a few years now I'm just trying to wait as long as I can. Gotta wait for my dog to die and hopefully both my parents as well. Once they're gone I don't see myself sticking around much longer.
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SporeJunkie
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Well guys I just finished a stay in the psych ward. That shit is not for me. It really made me realize a lot. I know I can be happy and have a good life. Im just going to have to be strong and let go of the things I can’t control. I know it’ll take a while to get on track and I’ll have ups and downs but I fucking refuse to give up my one and only life because of a few issues going on atm. I love you all you’ve helped tremendously. And to all of you that are thinking about suicide, I’m always here if you need me. I understand what you’re going through and am here anytime.
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banquet
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SporeJunkie said: I am scared though. Is there anything after?
suicide doesn't help, or else i would also have done it...
listen now:
"When a man dies in great pain, or in great grief or in great agitation of mind and his last thoughts are full of fear, rage, pain or horror, then the Jivatman (soul) in the Sukshmasharir (subtle body) is unable to shake off these impressions from his mind for years, sometimes for centuries. The reason of this is the law of death; death is a moment of great concentration when the departing spirit gathers up the impressions of its mortal life, as a host gathers provender for its journey, and whatever impressions are predominant at that moment, govern its condition afterwards Hence the importance, even apart from Mukti(liberation), of living a clean and noble life and dying a calm & strong death..."
read more here:
https://auromere.wordpress.com/2011/10/31/on-suicide-euthanasia-and-capital-punishment/
the answer is a soul release - or liberation - release into the truth, release is the only way out brother!!!
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Re: Suicide [Re: banquet]
#26541944 - 03/18/20 02:07 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Those who would heap negativity upon someone who is struggling with this are quite truly, lowest of the low. I normally don't say things to contemn anyone but it's wrong and should be called out. Love, support, and friendship are positives which should be used to help.
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Re: Suicide [Re: AZZI]
#26542052 - 03/18/20 05:45 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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I would rather nobody takes their own life, but I know that it is not easy either.
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Pinkerton
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Re: Suicide [Re: AZZI]
#26542058 - 03/18/20 05:53 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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AZZI said: Those who would heap negativity upon someone who is struggling with this are quite truly, lowest of the low.
You just described someone on this forum.
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Dio
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Try dmt before you decide to leave us.
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Re: Suicide [Re: Dio]
#26548114 - 03/21/20 05:03 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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I’ve smoked a lot of DMT. Not as much as I need to before I die though so I’ll hang around lol
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laughingdog
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Easier than many types of exercise, and will increase circulation, and start many other good changes, but why take my word for it? especially when it is so easy, to be experiencing it for yourself:
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=Wim+Hof+Method+
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SporeJunkie
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Thank you. I’ll definitely be using that.
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SporeJunkie said:
Well guys I just finished a stay in the psych ward. That shit is not for me. It really made me realize a lot. I know I can be happy and have a good life. Im just going to have to be strong and let go of the things I can’t control.
It's interesting how a strong craving for control can have significant negative repercussions on our mental health and emotional resilience. Many believe this craving is at the root of the emotional swings often called bipolar symptoms. And obsessive disorders. I believe such a craving for control is usually deeply rooted in emotional trauma.
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SporeJunkie
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I’ve always had really bad anxiety and pretty bad depression too, but I do think it got a lot worse when my little brother was killed. It made me feel like if I had done things differently then it never would’ve happened. Now my depression is a lot worse because after that I focused on trying to control everything so nothing like that would happen again but now when something bad happens it sends me into the worst state I’ve ever been in.
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there's an Alan Watts quote somewhere about us trying to arrange all the little figures in life, and they keep falling down... I wish I could remember it. Anyway I think you are on the right track in learning to let things go. Releasing my mental death-grip on everything in life was the most freeing thing I've ever done, and probably saved me from an almost certain stress-induced death. Deep down you KNOW there's nothing you could have done to change the outcome. Listen to that voice instead of the others.
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I've been there mate. When things are so bad it is almost impossible to believe they can be better, but they do eventually change. Everything changes. That's the nature of things. Downs are followed by ups, unless you've got some weird geography where you are 
Try not to be so hard on yourself, take it easy and slowly things will improve.
And I think you're right on track about learning to let go control. That's great advice for all of us.
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I’ve been that way since I failed to kill myself when I was 12. Been in a bad funk for most of a year. Hobbies didn’t interest me, games , drinking... just couldn’t get into anything and was getting really dark. Even went through the motions one night.
Purely anecdotal but I started drinking pineapple juice, just cause a guy at work gave me a can and I was like, holy shit I love this stuff. Fast forward a week or two, my ED is gone, I’m getting rock hard again sometimes for no reason, I kinda happen to notice my mood had improved significantly. Color was coming back to the world. Things began to Catch my interest. Started this hobby so now I Have something to engross myself in. Haven’t had any dark episodes since before Christmas.
I’m not saying it’s going to fix anything but give it a try. At worst you drink some tasty pineapple juice. At best maybe it does something for you. Then again maybe just me saying these things will have a placebo effect.
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SporeJunkie
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Thanks guys. Your words of encouragement truly do help. Its been hard I know it’s still gonna take a while to get through everything but in the end I’ll be a lot stronger and ready for what comes next. Im excited for the future. I just hope I can keep it that way. And the pineapple juice thing sounds great. Just straight pineapple juice? Any specific brand or anything?
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D3_Myc
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SporeJunkie said: Thanks guys. Your words of encouragement truly do help. Its been hard I know it’s still gonna take a while to get through everything but in the end I’ll be a lot stronger and ready for what comes next. Im excited for the future. I just hope I can keep it that way. And the pineapple juice thing sounds great. Just straight pineapple juice? Any specific brand or anything?
Dole what I find, but any brand probably.
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