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OfflineVibe_Enthusiast
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Alphabet soup thoughts * 2
    #26518271 - 03/05/20 09:41 AM (3 years, 11 months ago)

I'm more than sure most have experienced this. Maybe some worse than others. My trip a few months ago left me so scattered brained that I felt as if I was losing every nut I had left in my brain.

I felt as if I was forgetting everything. It almost felt as if I was going "blind" because I was so fosuced on trying to keep my thoughts together. It almost felt as if I've lost all knowledge about everything.

I kept repeating my name.. saying what 5x5 was to see if I could still hold onto something. But I think thought loops and alphabet soup thoughts are the most two frightening things I've had happen to me.

And I don't think a lot of people know how bad thought loops are when you're literally consumed by them. Some people have it happen, but get over it and didn't even know they were in one.

The freakiest thing is knowing you're stuck in this thought loop and you are literally still going through the motions like you're a bystander and you're on auto pilot.

Alphabet thoughts are just as unappealing. I haven't had this happen to me since my last trip in October - but I know its hiding in the shadows and going to reveal itself once again, as it always does.

I'm pretty good at handling myself when it happens as well. I focus on my breathing and just tell myself it's the mushrooms I consumed and I will come back. But holy shit.. for anyone who has ever gotten stuck in a terrible thought loop process and or alphabet soup thought pattern.. has to agree with me that its gotta be one of the most terrifying things that instantly turns you off to tripping.

Curious to hear any experiences of such and your ways of coping & grounding yourself from such an epic experience. Though these experiences are very frightening and non enjoyable, they do teach you something - they teach me how much to cherish a functional rational brain - don't take mental health for granted. They've definitely made me cherish the beauty of a sober mind - as much as a tripping brain has made me cherish that headspace as well.

Just because they're terrible experiences, doesn't always mean it's a terrible lesson. Some of the most profound experiences have left the biggest impact which have sculpted a lot of my thought patterns to this day.

Anyway.. feel free to share - very curious to hear responses on "grounding" techniques that work for you personally. Never know, someone who reads this may use your technique and itll save them from the chaos! (Including myself). But I've found focusing on breathing to be one of the biggest ones. Though, when I think about breathing too much, I lost the automated breathing and feel like I "need" to breathe which then it becomes difficult like I'm doing it wrong:lol: - sometimes that just how it goes though.

Always gotta remind yourself, its the drugs. Still never really makes me feel that much more comfortable when getting lost in letters and thoughts patterns and feeling like I'm losing all cognition.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26518429 - 03/05/20 11:20 AM (3 years, 11 months ago)

I think there are a lot of different ways to be terrorized by a "trip". I remember when I smoked, I had one experience that, from the moment it hit me, I was "tripping" and couldn't keep a single thought beyond Fuck I'm freaking out. It got so bad I had my buddy pull over and I just bolted out of his car :hehehe: and he picked me up 10 minutes later. Everything was just coming down all around my reality.

I've seen some people in some pretty bad thought loops at festivals. They look absolutely terrifying. I've had one, of sorts, on a trip late last year. I was stuck in a pretty destructive thought loop and I couldn't stop thinking to myself "I'm a fucking failure" as I writhed in my bed for an hour. It was dreadful.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Socrateshroom]
    #26518472 - 03/05/20 11:44 AM (3 years, 11 months ago)

I used to get them on the regular up until my one trip that hurled me into a prolonged psychosis.
Ever since then, my inner voice has been rather muffled... so I may be speaking with a bit of bias.

It was always just one of those compounding things... like an echo if the echo were to intensify and add layers of confusion as it reverberated.
I kind of just succumbed to them until *snap!* some little stimulus would grab my attention away from it and it would just stop immediately.
Or I'd just have to sober up as it slowly lost intensity.

These days, I don't know if it's discipline, a finely tuned sensor, or what. But if I'm queued that those thoughts might start happening, I immediately distract myself from abstract thinking. I focus my attention on something basic - the rhythm of my walk or my breath; some deep stretches; something with a tangible reality to be able to simply analyze the physical attributes of... like the sound of water or the texture of a surface. If you're proper hallucinating, just let your physical senses take over and there's an endless world of basic perception to keep yourself out of that hole of abstraction.
From that basic concrete thought, you set yourself up for a tendency of more linear thought.. and you can then kind of dive back into the romance of it all.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast] * 1
    #26518512 - 03/05/20 12:05 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Hey vibe_enthusiast,

Firstly do me a favour and clarify what you mean exactly by “alphabet soup thoughts”?

You’ll be aware three of my last four trips have gone south after smoking cannabis. The worst yet was the last (isn’t it always?). And yes I got stuck in some horrible thought loops. The loops were centred around my belief that, this time, I was actually going into a psychosis. And stuff me, what poor timing; Thursday go into psychosis, Sunday supposed to travel 300 miles to start a new job.

I was hating myself for being such an impulsive dick, I mean taking mushrooms so close to a major life event! I changed rooms and clothes a few times, but at each turn, my thoughts reverted to psychosis!

I came out of it alive though, and with all my faculties intact (thank the lord!).

So my advice to you, and to anybody else reading, is: DO NOT PANIC!

I had no option to ring my wife (well I did, but she wouldn’t have answered!). So it was even more essential not to panic. I started feeling really depressed over it, and going over the same thoughts, as you obviously know. But I didn’t panic and kept it all together.

But get this, that wasn’t the worst or scariest aspect of it all. The scariest thing that ever happens to me on a trip is the following.....

On good trips, one of the most magical and mystical parts is transcendence. You feel like you are outside of time and space and it is sheer bliss. Now get this, when a trip goes south, this transcendence is THE WORST! Let me explain: sitting there as the cannabis started to kick in, a few seconds after I’d been high-fiving my bestie (telepathically as he wasn’t there!), I got “the feeling”. I knew I’d been there before. Then I realised what it was and thought OH FUCKING CHRIST! Everything stopped, and everything went silent. My huge wall clock went Salvador Dali on me, for example then just drooped there motionless. The visuals were spectacular in that everything literally stopped in time. It felt like I was in a bubble, outside of space and time. You are literally on your own.

Similar bad experiences of this phenomenon I would describe as when you get the feeling that “all the laws of the universe” no longer apply! All bets are off.....

So again, my only advice I can give is not to panic and just ride it out. Change music. Turn music off. Change rooms. Go outside. Go inside. Change clothes. Sit with elbows on knees, head in hands, and just ride it out.

Stay safe brothers and sisters,
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DJ Ed


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26518552 - 03/05/20 12:17 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

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DJ Ed said:
Hey vibe_enthusiast,

Firstly do me a favour and clarify what you mean exactly by “alphabet soup thoughts”?

You’ll be aware three of my last four trips have gone south after smoking cannabis. The worst yet was the last (isn’t it always?). And yes I got stuck in some horrible thought loops. The loops were centred around my belief that, this time, I was actually going into a psychosis. And stuff me, what poor timing; Thursday go into psychosis, Sunday supposed to travel 300 miles to start a new job.

I was hating myself for being such an impulsive dick, I mean taking mushrooms so close to a major life event! I changed rooms and clothes a few times, but at each turn, my thoughts reverted to psychosis!

I came out of it alive though, and with all my faculties intact (thank the lord!).

So my advice to you, and to anybody else reading, is: DO NOT PANIC!

I had no option to ring my wife (well I did, but she wouldn’t have answered!). So it was even more essential not to panic. I started feeling really depressed over it, and going over the same thoughts, as you obviously know. But I didn’t panic and kept it all together.

But get this, that wasn’t the worst or scariest aspect of it all. The scariest thing that ever happens to me on a trip is the following.....

On good trips, one of the most magical and mystical parts is transcendence. You feel like you are outside of time and space and it is sheer bliss. Now get this, when a trip goes south, this transcendence is THE WORST! Let me explain: sitting there as the cannabis started to kick in, a few seconds after I’d been high-fiving my bestie (telepathically as he wasn’t there!), I got “the feeling”. I knew I’d been there before. Then I realised what it was and thought OH FUCKING CHRIST! Everything stopped, and everything went silent. My huge wall clock went Salvador Dali on me, for example then just drooped there motionless. The visuals were spectacular in that everything literally stopped in time. It felt like I was in a bubble, outside of space and time. You are literally on your own.

Similar bad experiences of this phenomenon I would describe as when you get the feeling that “all the laws of the universe” no longer apply! All bets are off.....

So again, my only advice I can give is not to panic and just ride it out. Change music. Turn music off. Change rooms. Go outside. Go inside. Change clothes. Sit with elbows on knees, head in hands, and just ride it out.

Stay safe brothers and sisters,
❤️
DJ Ed




How's the job going?

Awesome story, thanks for that! I'm getting ready to take my first 4g experience next week and it's good to read up on strategies and experiences of handling the difficult trips.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26518591 - 03/05/20 12:39 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Thanks Vibe for making a post. Alphabet soup thoughts are definitely weird af and we need to work together to figure out wtf.

I find weed in the experience can make them worse.


DJ Ed: Alphabet soup thoughts how I define them are completely random nonsensical words (feelings and images too) that pop in your head and out very rapidly during a trip. Its different than normal thought because it is impossible to follow and all you can really do is just chill and try to make the soup tastier lol.

For example, my brain would just be caught thinking.. Pancake.. blue..blender....... Its not a loop its just an endless soup. Not necessarily as spelled out as real words are, but you know how weird this shit is.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Socrateshroom] * 1
    #26518601 - 03/05/20 12:49 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Thanks for the love, Socrateshroom

The job is going really well. I’ve met loads of familiar faces, got work I actually enjoy doing, have been given responsibility that I’m thriving on. Yep, definitely the right move. Haven’t smoked cannabis or drunk alcohol for a week, though have struggled sleeping, even with lemon balm tea. But what’s made the sleeping worse is I started with toothache on Monday morning :-( Makes you miserable; but aren’t we so fortunate to have access to paracetamols etc.?

I would highly recommend before your first 4g trip, to search out some videos on YouTube featuring Rosalind Watts. She has joined the team at Imperial College London, with Robin Carhart-Harris and David Nutt, and she just oozes love and calmness.

She describes the psychedlic state that people achieve in their therapy studies. It was from her I first heard the ski slope analogy; if you haven’t heard this, let me know and I’ll explain. And she has loads of great advice for when the trip gets challenging.

I used her advice for my 4.1g trip in November 2018. Sure enough it got very challenging on the come-up; usual higher dose stuff like waves coming in with more and more intense (translate: scary) visuals, feelings, thoughts etc. So I took her advice and explained out loud to the mushrooms that I had come to them for their help and advice, and why were they being so mean and negative with me. The trip became much easier (I do not mean it became easy, just easier). But it allowed me then to focus on the therapy. With eyes shut, headphones on, and Space Ritual playing (first time I’d listened to it in years - I would HIGHLY recommend it), I basically travelled back in time in my sub-conscious until I reached the 20 year old me; same thoughts, feelings, aspirations etc. It allowed me to see what life had been like and what it had become. And I came out of the trip with the realisation, after many years of depression, that it was me that had cemented my depression, but I had the choice now whether to continue to be depressed, or to not be depressed.

As I’ve said before, I woke up the next day and my depression had completely disappeared. I was buzzing. And I was depression-free for just shy of 1 year. In that year I did not trip; maybe that was a mistake?

I’ve since realised, certainly for me, that mushrooms are not a quick fix, and that I need to continue working with the mushrooms, and on myself.

Hope this helps, dude.

Please let us know how it goes. Have an awesome journey, friend.

DJ Ed


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: The Mycologist]
    #26518607 - 03/05/20 12:50 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Right yeah that makes sense now, thanks for explaining. I do not believe I suffer with that, though who knows, probably been such a trip when it does happen that it’s all forgotten the next day? Dunno dude. But yeah, I certainly get the thought loops. Even if they’re not negative thought loops can’t they just be a pain in the friggin arse lol?

Take care bud
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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed] * 1
    #26518614 - 03/05/20 12:53 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

I'd experience them going so far as to just turn into fragments of words and ultimately something like baby babble.
Like your mind doesn't have enough familiarity with language to keep up with the racing thoughts.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26518622 - 03/05/20 12:55 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

It seems silly but I have dug out of the bad and gotten to good with mental singing. Terence recommended singing too, but I have realized it doesn't even have to be out loud to work.

I just loop happy thoughts/sounds/words instead. Usually when I need to utilize this I cant really think of good stuff, but as long as the words(more like half thoughts) are tied to happy/good you can use them to move through the experience.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: The Mycologist]
    #26518628 - 03/05/20 12:58 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Yeah I’ve listened to him many times, but somehow always forget the singing part. My last “south” trip last week I did actually try dancing! Then I saw my reflection and well, I sat down. Nothing felt good that day. Singing might have helped get the cannabis out of my system that bit quicker........


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26518646 - 03/05/20 01:04 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

The other cool part about the singing is that it has roots in the traditional.

Shaman have sung the icaros in relation with the psychedelic for centuries.

Also I like the point you made about talking out loud. Something about not staying exclusively in your head helps.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: The Mycologist]
    #26518655 - 03/05/20 01:08 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

That's definitely another form of concentrating on something with a tangible reality.
The words you sing don't carry abstract meaning - it's all about your focus on the rhythm, the sound of voice, the tempo, etc.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed] * 1
    #26518658 - 03/05/20 01:10 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

I’ve been lucky so far *knock on wood* - nothing like real psychosis.

Thought loops happen, but if they get too annoying, I can always snap out of it by turning the lights on/off, music on/off, or any other major sensory change.

I love alphabet thoughts though. Or rather, I love the bombarding thought process. It’s a challenge...if you can meditate (think about nothing) in that state, you can do it anywhere, and that’s a major goal for me.
I use the simplest methods - usually fly away to outer space in my mind’s eye...first past the moon, then the solar systems, galaxies, and finally a void. Usually a CEV will defeat me before I get to the asteroid field, but I’ll get to that void one day.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: The Mycologist]
    #26518659 - 03/05/20 01:10 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

To me this is kind of just how tripping has been. Weirdly I haven't met a ton of people who have a similar type of experience. Alphabet soup is definitely one way I've thought of describing it, but word salad works too. Also just the feeling that you could endlessly dive into abstract bullshit surrounding any perception, thought, word, etc. It's like teetering on the edge of a chasm to me and feeling like you're going to totally lose your mind.

Usually it's just a sign that I am tripping sack, and that I am probably just getting really anxious as it ramps up in intensity. Footpath is right that you usually escape by getting absorbed into some sound or physical sensation around you, but I have found that sometimes there really is no escape except waiting it out and freaking out a bit.

Once I tried reading on the come up for mushrooms and it started with the thoughts and words becoming 'alphabet soupy' and made-up and by the time they kicked in I was pacing around thinking the most bullshit accented imaginary words without control. It felt like my mind was in a different font or something it's very offputting


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: footpath]
    #26518661 - 03/05/20 01:11 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

With my example I kind of gave them meaning.

They weren't words, there was no rhythm, it was really just a mental chant that I somehow made happy/positive.


Feldman: I will have to try that.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: footpath]
    #26518674 - 03/05/20 01:17 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Quote:

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The other cool part about the singing is that it has roots in the traditional.

Shaman have sung the icaros in relation with the psychedelic for centuries.

Also I like the point you made about talking out loud. Something about not staying exclusively in your head helps.



Quote:

footpath said:
That's definitely another form of concentrating on something with a tangible reality.
The words you sing don't carry abstract meaning - it's all about your focus on the rhythm, the sound of voice, the tempo, etc.



As I get more experienced, I realise there is all the time in the world to journey and explore different things. For years, I tended to stick to the same routines and music etc. Anything else I felt was wasting the psychedlic headspace. I mean, why risk spoiling a trip with something new when you know the old usual stuff works, right?

As I get more experienced, I am realising you can’t spoil a trip trying something new. In fact, very often when you do try something new, it blows you away. Why did I never try this before?

I’m feeling inspired to both sing, and to try some shamanic music.

Mush love fellas,
DJ Ed


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: DJ Ed]
    #26518698 - 03/05/20 01:25 PM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Lol good deal man.

I personally am a very big supporter of silence. I have realized how deeply music can effect my thoughts in sobriety. While Im tripping music can have even more of an effect and its harder for me to notice why I am feeling whatever way.


I guess the main thing is just being mindful of the factors that you can easily change that can help. Music, lighting, etc.
Having these simple tools may be one secret to navigating all this.


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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: The Mycologist] * 1
    #26520037 - 03/06/20 06:02 AM (3 years, 11 months ago)

Very nice to have read your replies! I'm glad I'm not alone in this at times!

@DJ Ed -
Congratulations on the new job man! That's something very positive to hear! I'm glad things are working in your favor! I think we have all have had a trip where we've dosed before something important and from my experiences, it never goes that "well". Feels as if I'm guilty or wrong for doing something so silly prior to a big event! We just tend to get into our heads so much about it, that I do believe it reveals the darker side of the trip.

I too, have been stuck inside that bubble.. where you're almost on the outside looking in. Like you see whats going on, you know this is your reality, but none of it feels real. It's so dreamlike that you have to question everything. It definitely does mess with your head extremely hard. And like I've said, I'm pretty good at handling myself but sometimes you just get these thoughts that you have pretty much convinced yourself you've did it with this one!! Myco did a great job at explaining exactly what I meant with the "alphabet thoughts"

@Socrateshroom
I think we've been all there. Its extremely frightening.. especially when you acknowledge you're freaking the fuck out and it makes everything intensify and you just feel like you need to grab onto something!

@Jdawg333
Man, that's pretty much what this thread has been about.. and exactly what I'm talking about. It's almost as if you're losing all thoughts and you fan only grip onto letters but they make no sense. Its actually terrifying because you feel as if your brain is being "erased" and you cannot put anything together. It seems as @DJ Ed has no experienced this - and hopefully it stays like that for you buddy!

Thought loops are just as terrifying. And like I said - it's not so much the thought loops that are bad, but it's at the level they come in. I've had some extremely bad ones. The one that comes to mind the most is when I was in the middle of the woods, and I was trying to take down my hammock (which took me 20 mins)  - and i kept "blacking" out to these thoughts loops.

I didn't know where i was going, but then I would be conscious again and realize I'm losing my shit.. then BANG right back into the blackness of a thought loops. I didn't even know what I was thinking about. I was just getting "lost" and it felt as if I couldn't hold on.

Also i was experiencing alphabet soup thoughts during this period - and I literally thought.. this is it. I'm going to die out here. My brain is done. I'll never be the same.

I finally was able to get my hammock down after a never ending battle... (it sucks so hard when you try to do something and you literally can't). I then went for a walk.. but I was on the trail and it felt as if I was reliving the same step over and over. Nothing was changing. This went on for a good 20 minutes(which felt WAY TOO FUCKING LOMG)  - FINALLY when I hit an opening of a big lake... it felt like I just experienced being reborn.

The bliss came, the clarity came.. everything fell into place. I literally went "sober"(still tripping but a great trip) - I laid there in that spot and looked at the sun and the beautiful water and told myself how grateful I am for such a normal functional brain.

Literally, as soon as I hit that opening in the woods everything went right back up after all of that hardship. Mushrooms are some wild fucking boogers and will eat you alive and treat you like a king. After that, took a few months break (I'm sure you can see why).

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Re: Alphabet soup thoughts [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
    #26520098 - 03/06/20 07:11 AM (3 years, 11 months ago)

It is reassuring to know you're not alone.
I'm not even much of a social creature, but, when it comes to feeling desolation in my own mind, I do take great comfort in knowing others have had the same experience. Cheers, fellas.

I just thought of another type of language/thought mind-fuckery...

Sometimes I'll get what I can only label as a haunting.
Where this single internal voice/thought goes from inaudible to deafening. It seems malicious, if for no other reason than the sheer intensity of it... maybe it's just urgent.
It's also different in that it has noted stops/starts and isn't as cyclical as thought/alphabet loops.
Rarely does a message actually come through... it's generally unrecognizable vocalizations, but clearly language or information.
It's one of the few things that arouse my superstitious mind. As if I'm receiving transmissions from some supernatural or extradimensional source.

What's odd is that it doesn't occur on breakthrough doses where my self doesn't so much exist and I feel in the presence of the 'original plane' and 'at one with its inhabitants'. There, it's all just direct information exchange that I can only hope to decipher when I again have powers of analysis.
It's somehow easier to convince myself that plane of perception is created by my own mind than are those eerie transmissions...
It seems like I only get these hauntings when I'm straddling the realms.

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edit: kinda like this, 0:15 - 0:29

But word mush. And over and over at seemingly random intervals.


Edited by footpath (03/06/20 09:14 AM)


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