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pacmanbreed



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The scent 1
#26513868 - 03/03/20 01:56 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Watching I suddenly Remembered Bill_Oreilly posting this.
At around 13:00 says: can you smell the disinfectant, yeah it smells like a hospital!
Apparently it was a whole city after all. 
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Bill_Oreilly said: But fuck it, I've been an open book since I got here and to stop now doesn't seem good for anyone.
The last few days have been quite odd. Whenever I take a tryptamine psychedelic in the past(only tripped a handful of times in the last few years) I always get this smell while on it. It's this smell I can only describe as "sterile. Like you are smelling hospital air." I have had this scent the last 2 days nonstop so I know something is off. I thought this was odd and after this past night I know what's happening. I am slowly going insane again and I will soon end up in my 4th psych ward. Each stay was different and atleast 3 weeks. I know I am going crazy because I just realized I haven't slept but a couple of hours in the last 3 days and had my most frightening lucid dream nightmare I had once before. But this time felt more real.
Anyway, it's a lucid dream where I am in my house with my family and outside is a male who is 17-22 years old walking around my area with an AK47, walking like a soldier, killing everyone he can. I always get shot and die in a massive panic and wake up. It's so real. The dream repeats itself through my 1 hour ofsleep and it's the same dream, but it's a different looking young adult and I might survive the shots or watch people die until I am ultimately killed. Everytime. I wake up sweating and screaming.
But this is different than the past because it's darker. There is no delusions of grandeur..no controlling anything. I woke up at 1 o'clock in the morning and haven't been to bed tonight since and it's almost time for me to wake up to drive my wife to work. I thought I would kill time watching the newest Rogan podcast with a popular radio host I'm familiar with but 20 minutes in I swore I heard the sound of a "computer demon" say "YO" to me in the most evil, bone chilling manner. The demon seemed to be as intelligent as anything I encountered but it I may be wrong. I hope I am wrong. I used to think negativity was always crossed in some way with ignorance but I have learned that there's evil spirits as well and they are intelligent. Is this another phase in my life? Will I be able to catch myself before I fall unlike the last 3 times? All I can do is what I learned in the psych ward by someone who was much wiser than me. When this shit starts happening, stop the weed and SLEEP. but I'm at a point in my life I do not have the time for that but I am going to try to make it happen. Anyway, pray for me and all that good stuff. I'm a trooper, I'll make it out. I always seem to do so. My life's a motion picture and I'm not in control of it anyway, in the end.
Love speed to all shroomrites wherever you are.
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remake


Registered: 01/05/16
Posts: 4,178
Loc: South Africa
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Forgot about that thread.
One of the things I'm most thankful for now is my sanity.
I'm also thankful for having gone a little insane for a little while to understand.
Be safe, people.
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pacmanbreed



Registered: 10/12/16
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Re: The scent [Re: remake]
#26514118 - 03/03/20 07:55 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Glad to hear that man. Getting better at chi martial arts eh. 
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sunshine said: It's the worst problem there is. I spend all day keeping fake gangsters in check. It's worse than bad Presidential conduct.
Next thing the fake torturers are going to pop up! People who ain't never stuck no needles in no testicles.
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pacmanbreed



Registered: 10/12/16
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That schizo episode is tied to this after all, I wonder why he was banned?
Hope he's doing fine.
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larry.fisherman
shoulda died already


Registered: 11/03/12
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He was banned because he couldn't understand he constantly created problems for himself. Dude was shitting up the forums for so God damn long it was getting ridiculous. He'd literally argue about anything and then bring it up day after day and blame the other dude for responding
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