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Captain Agras



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!!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! 1
#26487362 - 02/15/20 04:57 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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DOSE:40-45G P.Cubensis tea WEIGHT:176LBS 80KG AGE:19YRS
If you feel boring go directly to part3 or part6 
INTRODUCTION A 40g P.Cubensis experience can make men like John Rambo piss their pants and call for their mama to come and same them. It is like firing fireworks in your head. Had you ever had fireworks in your head? Well...I have! And if you plan to do so ,I strongly recommend you to read this first. This is one of the most intense experiences I ever had and I don't know how many humans have ever reached so far(probably few).So if you have an underdeveloped brain and you think that this post is fake or a joke, do to all of us a favor and leave now. However if you enjoy reading strange things or you're just curious like me.... enjoy!
I wrote this story because I think it is something very important for humanity.Specifically I wanted to emphasize and describe as accurate as possible the effects of an extreme philocin dose in human homeostasis and physiology.Since then I had the desire to share it with you.We know that philocin isn't deadly but what about that?Can such an experience prove that to us?What about bigger doses can you die from side effects?I searched a lot and I didn't find any report like that.So I would like the moderators to have this post in mind as a reference about very large doses.I believe that putting this post in those link libraries we have or even put it as an article in the site would be beneficial for the community.(ex:mushroom overdose/harm reduction)
Part 1 The begging of the road It was Friday 27 of December 2019 the night I decided to trip.The feeling of that day was somewhat dull and heavy because that day before 7 years my grandpa died.It was around 12am when i prepared the tea.It was a mediocre night maybe I was little anxious or tired I don't remember.I had the desire for a strong experience thought.. .The mushrooms I used where from a batch that was semi-destroyed by a mistake during drying so I thought they where about40-50% potent.I was wrong! I weighed up 45g(!!!).I said <Its okay it is about 15-25g I have done this before> so I continued.The tea was like a regular tea.I have to say though that despite the fact it was super potent it had zero bad taste.It was like water!
That night my parents where in the house and my brother at a club.I stayed in my room on the PC and listening songs I liked and something else (orthodox funeral service and hymns about the baptism of christ). About half an hour had past when the effects started....they where strong.Brighter colors,change of space perspective ,a shiver from feet to the head and of course a smile.Although this effect where expected they where to vigorous in very sort amount of time.Suddenly the first wave began .I wanted to melt on the floor.At first my hands where shaking and then the whole body followed.I had gone deep.45 minutes had past when I realized that it was something very strong. I was whiting ideas on papers while listening to music when I wrote this:
Because what is whiten has been whiten and what is done is being done
Before I die love lived in my family love family with love now it's blood I the immortal king I was always watching death
Incredible!! Indescrib
No I didn't forget the last word. By that moment shaking,hallucinations,an boy load made writing impossible for me.I said:<OK enough! Its time to close the PC and the lights and get to bed to have an amazing time>And just before I was ready to get to bed i hear my dad getting up to go to toilet.I immediately close the light and "run" to bed.My heartbeats where very high.I was stressed but quickly relaxed when I header him going back to bed.Now I could deal with my beautiful bed,but there was a problem.There was no bed!!!I was floating to space!I turned my body on my back and then BOOM!My bed became the sky.I was the sky and my head was in the middle of a huge cycle surrounded with angels.Hallucinations took place with both eyes closed and open.There was no difference.Then everything disappeared and I was found in front of a purple pulsar sniping like crazy!After that I was on top of some mounters and I was falling into the abyss.It was absolutely amazing!I wasn't watching I was living it.I had entered an other realm an other cosmos an other universe,Hallucinations and images where huge in scale.It was fucking intense. {I would like to know if you had experiences like that} That moment i said:<Oh my God!This is the real power of philocybin!Has anyone else reached so far?Do people on shroomery know this place?They have to!> I had see nothing yet.... I forgot to tell you that while this was happening I was taking VERY DEEP BREATHS.I mean...really deep,and believe me this wasn't good at all!
Part 2 Just a bite! Then I began to feel very uncomfortable......really uncomfortable.Something strange started to bother me.An intense inconvenience.I could ensconce myself!I started"spinning" in my bed but it kept going.Then I got up to move around and I repeating<Something is going on!Something is going on!>I unconsciously place my hand to my chest and take deep breath to relax.I started chocking I couldn't take a breath my chest muscles where making spasms and then IMMEDIATELY felt a pain in the heart and chest.I felt down to my knees and said:<WHAT IS THAT?THAT'S IT!THIS IS DEATH!I AM DYING!I FUCKED IT UP WITH MY OWN SHROOMS AND I DIED!>Then I felt lightheaded and collapsed.So I waited my brain to die(as I was feeling the blood draining from my head) while I was thinking my parents and brother that will find me dead the next morning.So I waited....and waited....and waited.I cant tell how much time I was on the floor.At this time I thought I was dead but suddenly a FORCE pushed me and I opened my eyes.Then with tremendous ef ort and will I steeped again on earth and get up.I say:<WTF is going on???Am I dead?>Everything was quiet,peaceful and still.I open the door and heading towards kitchen.I sit on a chair and say:<Have I died?Is this my soul?Am I between the dead and the living ones?My body felt very light it was like i was flying.I look the clock 2:30(?)TIME HAD STOOPED.Everything was frozen.I then though:<This is it?Here is the after life?Am I stuck here forever?>Suddenly I realized that i have to check if I am really dead.I got to the bathroom,I say myself in the mirror,I toughed my form so I realized that I am not dead yet.I IMITATIVELY felt so much happy.I believed that moment that I died an Jesus brought me back to life
I go again to the kitchen I drink some water and by the time I was going back to my room my limps felt numbed and I collapsed again(that time not so bad).I get up again as fast as I can and say<This is not good.It has reached the point of poison(kills me).I ate way to much!How they get out of my system?How will I metabolize them?(I had still logical thought )There is no antidote.SHIT!I must wait.>I "run" to my room close the door and then IT ENTERED SAVAGE MODE!!!
Part 3 The serious stuff I feel again that I cant breathe. and a pain to my chest This isn't normal something bad is happening(heart episode/stroke).I am officially in panic.Have to call help(even an ambulance if needed)After very big effort I managed to call my brother to come and get me.I cant describe exactly how I did because this text would be double.But I will give you as good description as I can of my condition.The phone was connected to bluetooth headphones which the of course they felt on the floor.As my bro was speaking the sound was coming from the ceiling not the floor I even felt that these headphones where inside my skull..Although in normal circumstances I couldn't even hear him but at that moment was like to giga-speakers where at max volume in my room.I could barely speak as my entire mouth-neck-chest was numbed.After that I LOST COMPLETELY MY ABILITY OF LOGICAL-LINEAR THINKING.Yes,by that time 1+1=2 was a big NO NO for me...I was almost sure that i had permanent brain damage as I LOST ALL CONTROL.My muscles where making unintentional moves .I was thinking my arm up and it went right left up-right and doped down.I made a step forward I started sniping and felt down.I knew I had to put something on to get out of the house but I didn't know how.
All parts of my brain exploded, everything went crazy.All reality had exploded in million pieces.The hallucination where extreme.I literally felt a lightning full of energy hitting from one hemisphere of my brain to the other.It was a schizophrenic like state,reality had split to pieces.I just waited for help unable to do any thing full of fear.My breathing was extremely rapid,I had no control of my breathing rhythm. I was making small sounds just some vowels.There WHERE NO CLEAR THOUGHT,NO ME, NO REALITY, NO IDEAS,NO SCENARIOS,NO TIME,NO PAST,NO FUTURE. PURE ENERGY CHAOS IT WAS A THUNDERSTORM IN MY BRAIN
Ι could barely execute basic commands I putted just a jacked that I found and that was it
Part 4 Crazy interaction My brother came (4:00) and I had to go out of the house.I grab the joint and COLLAPSED BUT i MANAGED TO GET OUT. We had this dialogue:
bro What is goin on me I think I had heart attack bro no you didnt me how do you know bro you are alive and you re speaking to me me Something is going on I feel like lose myself I am dying bro Yea!These are classic mushroom effects me NO!No like that! I feel like....like...(dyspnea) bro OK,what can I do meI want you to be next to me if my heart stops and collapse bro Your heart is not going to stop! how do you know bro None have ever died from mushroom.Remember ...They are not deadly! me Whatever.....stay next to me bro How did you say those pils(benzos) that kills the trip?I will go to pharmacy and get them if you want me No!No!No! Nothing else!!!! bro Nice!So what do you want me to do??? me Just stay next to me!Lets walk and go to get some coffee! bro OK lets go
On the go I described my experience and relaxed alot.I even smiled. I FELT TREMENDOUS CONFIDENCE FEAR DISAPPEARED I FELT REBORN LIKE MY FIRST EVER TRIP
Then I started laughing and said I DON'T FEAR DEATH I HAVE ALREADY DIED
Part5 The end At the end I returned home and felt joy and living .I started dancing without music at the living room The next day I was okay.Until today I have the notion that my life is sort,live without fear,speak truly and look people in the eyes.Generally my confidence has raised but I also had problems with stress, fear about dying or difficult breathing but it was always under control.l think that stress isn't due to the "bad"mushroom trip probably the opposite is true as my life is pretty stressful last months. I went to the doctor and my heart was fine(heart triplex). The blood test where fine too, except some vitD deficiency.In the end, my "death" was my first ever panic attack .The belief about death an Jesus replaced by a psychology theory that I study for pre-birth memories.(same symptoms)
Part6I really tried for that paragraph Do you know how 40g feels like? Well is WW2 in your head. It is also like a train hit you or a lightning. Probably both...at the same time. I am sure that if I stop a stranger in the street, it goes like that: Me<Hey man! I did 40g> Him<WOW that's extreme> Me<Bullshit! THATS FUCKING EPIC!> This dose is a hurricane thunderstorm, a war and many more... Do you get it? I don't. Really, it took me a while to realize what happened but I did. There is one major thing I realized about myself after that: It takes balls to try this crazy sh..t of a dose. But I highly recommend it, IF you think you can handle IT!!! So people...(theoretically you can) do 40g!!!
LIVE TRUE AND BE CAREFUL
Edited by Captain Agras (02/15/20 04:59 PM)
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Shr00mEater
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: Captain Agras]
#26494425 - 02/20/20 05:20 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Ok, I did read it. Sounds like a very hard trip. I do want to point out your desire to have this post used as a reference for harm/reduction... ... Then at the end, you say people should try it. Unless they are pussies. LoL
A couple questions: what do you consider your normal dose , and how many times had you tripped previously? would you do 40g( or higher ) again? How does 25g normally affect you? You mention taking 25g before, I am curious how they compared.
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26497022 - 02/21/20 01:48 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Shr00mEater said: Ok, I did read it. Sounds like a very hard trip. I do want to point out your desire to have this post used as a reference for harm/reduction... ... Then at the end, you say people should try it. Unless they are pussies. LoL
Yes I see your point here.I dont want to be a misunderstanding here.This is not for everyone.Yes you need courage to do that,and that particular statement was mostly for experienced guys who experimenting with massive doses and thing of dosing that much.Maybe the way I wrote it isn't that good(I am aware of that)so I will have to edit this post.
SO I dont want anyone to do 40gr just because I wrote it.Use common sense people!
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A couple questions: what do you consider your normal dose , and how many times had you tripped previously? would you do 40g( or higher ) again? How does 25g normally affect you? You mention taking 25g before, I am curious how they compared.
1)A normal dose for me is 5-7gr.But most of the times I prefer little more (7-10gr).
2)I have tripped around 20 times with Cubes(mostly 7-10gr) 6 times lsd 1 time lsa(10HBWR) I had problems with weed in the past but I overcame it And a god knows how many salvia
3)I dont think that I will ever do such a dose.At least not soon...If I want a massive dose I wouldn't go higher than 30gr.But for my "regular" trips I will stick to 10gr or less.
4)25gr a pretty strong experience but it was quite different.I was able to have clear insights and thoughts.It was possible to have some kind of monologue and analyzing things.At some point I had stomach discomfort and I threw up (badly). By that time I started being overwhelmed by the trip but I was able to relax myself almost immediately.I said<Dont worry everything is fine.Remember this is love,infinite love,mushroom isn't a threat.>Even at the pick I had the ability to react with the trip and I mean the breakthrough thought.I was saying<Wow this is amazing> or...<I never thought it that way> or even for thoughts about issues of my life<What about that?Lets see how I can approach it> Also my moves where way more controllable.I had some spasms and body load but I could lift things,balance myself,coordinate,control speed and power.Generally it was way more controllable and it was able to get something from it.
On 40gr it wasn't like that at all.I had no insights,or even if I had I wasn't able to notice them,contemplate or embody them.No critical thinking at all. Everything happened to quickly and I couldn't keep up with them.Thoughts were more like<WTF is this?Am I dying?Keep breathing,don't fall down.>.These where more like instincts brutally bumping on my head rather than logic thinking. A thought could start but it ended as a different thing. For example:healthy {THIRSTY}==> <Get up-take this bottle-drink water> 40gr{THIRSTY}==> <Get up-bottle[sounds]-spin-now go left-not left front-[random move]-grab bottle-put it aside-[reality just demolished]-sit down-wow the carpet is very universal deep-[color green]-blue smells nice-was I looking for something?> Imagine thousands patterns like this at the same time. Also movement control was extremely difficult I couldn't do the things I could at 25gr I don't know if I helped you with that description.It is really difficult to describe it in words especially not in my mother language. Everything else feel free to ask!
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: Captain Agras]
#26520239 - 03/06/20 09:01 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Hello, amazing trip report here that sounds like an incredible experience. The part where you were floating in space and your bed became the sky must have been surreal. I can say I have been to the other side as well and it is beyond unfathomable, an outstanding experience of consciousness that is so hard to describe. One thing I did differently was I ate them slowly, as I did not plan to eat so much. I did two doses fresh then ate a large amount of dried, my transition to the other side was rather slow compared to yours. I think this made the whole experience smoother in comparison, it was like I was finding my way. My own journey down the rabbit hole wondering and looking around the depth of my mind until I broke through. Another thing is the majority of my trip was in pure darkness. I did experience a bunch of the same effects as you though, hyperventilation, total loss of reality, rebirth, infinite death. I did not have any chest pain, but I did have a similar experience on too much LSD (3 tabs, just too much for my second time). I had a strong chest pain that made me think I had a heart attack and that I was dying endlessly, also thought I died a few ways, heart attack, overdose, etc. After that big shroom trip I pretty much feel in love with mushrooms, that experience will always be special to me. As of now not to sure about going for it again maybe down the line, enjoying smaller trips at this time. Here is a link to my high dose mushroom trip report I would be very interested to hear what you think.
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: VillageBoomer]
#26520240 - 03/06/20 09:02 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: Captain Agras]
#26521128 - 03/06/20 06:44 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Solid TR
Panic attacks can cause some awful symptoms, most feel like they'll kill you. If you're stuck in your own head it's easy to compound the problem and make the symptoms feel much worse. Sounds like talking to your brother helped to snap you out of that mode
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: feevers]
#26521565 - 03/07/20 02:22 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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Always worth quoting the best advice ever for when a trip becomes too intense: DO NOT PANIC!
Stay sfe people, ❤️ DJ Ed
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: DJ Ed]
#26525349 - 03/09/20 11:16 AM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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I recently did 30g dried and I'm still putting the trip report together. The most horrifying and deepest insight into my own mind. This was not impulsive. It was planned over several months. Very humbling experience and incredibly difficult to describe a good portion of it. Thanks to the sitter and certain things I remember saying, I was able to put some of the pieces in order. I pissed on myself. For an eternity I was convinced I had permanently lost my mind and accepted that this was just my life from now on. Greatest fears and all that. I'm going to try to post a proper report over the next couple days
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Re: !!!40 F*cking grams dried Psilocybe cubensis trip!!! [Re: sunbaked82]
#26527797 - 03/10/20 05:18 PM (3 years, 10 months ago) |
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VillageBoomer said: Hello, amazing trip report here that sounds like an incredible experience. The part where you were floating in space and your bed became the sky must have been surreal. I can say I have been to the other side as well and it is beyond unfathomable, an outstanding experience of consciousness that is so hard to describe. One thing I did differently was I ate them slowly, as I did not plan to eat so much. I did two doses fresh then ate a large amount of dried, my transition to the other side was rather slow compared to yours. I think this made the whole experience smoother in comparison, it was like I was finding my way. My own journey down the rabbit hole wondering and looking around the depth of my mind until I broke through. Another thing is the majority of my trip was in pure darkness. I did experience a bunch of the same effects as you though, hyperventilation, total loss of reality, rebirth, infinite death. I did not have any chest pain, but I did have a similar experience on too much LSD (3 tabs, just too much for my second time). I had a strong chest pain that made me think I had a heart attack and that I was dying endlessly, also thought I died a few ways, heart attack, overdose, etc. After that big shroom trip I pretty much feel in love with mushrooms, that experience will always be special to me. As of now not to sure about going for it again maybe down the line, enjoying smaller trips at this time. Here is a link to my high dose mushroom trip report I would be very interested to hear what you think.
Yea, I read your report and found it really interesting. I thing our trips had some common things. My experience was also in full darkness and I also had a strong feeling of my ancestors.I have experienced many times especially in larger doses, that a spirit or spirits are watching me.I will give you a more detailed answer at your post because I really liked and want to share some thoughts.I have some questions for you:What's your age?How do you believe that we can exploit these experiences at 100% to permanently affect our lives for the better?
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sunbaked82 said: I recently did 30g dried and I'm still putting the trip report together. The most horrifying and deepest insight into my own mind. This was not impulsive. It was planned over several months. Very humbling experience and incredibly difficult to describe a good portion of it. Thanks to the sitter and certain things I remember saying, I was able to put some of the pieces in order. I pissed on myself. For an eternity I was convinced I had permanently lost my mind and accepted that this was just my life from now on. Greatest fears and all that. I'm going to try to post a proper report over the next couple days
I would like very much to read your experience! Man I feel you... I had the exact same feeling. When I was waiting for my brother I thought that my brain was permanently damaged for the rest of my life. I was also thinking about how I would present myshelf to my parents the next day as a brain disable son.Very shity feeling...
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