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330ci
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I'll see you on the other side.
#26486462 - 02/15/20 03:00 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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well alot of you have doubted the gift god's bestowed on me and I'm clearly wasting it here, so I wish you all the best in life. always believe in yourself, never give up and always do the next right thing even when it hurts. You can lie to the world but never be dishonest with yourself. I love you all and hope you all find your cloud, i'm about to find mine. you will probably read about me in papers someday, atleast I believe you will. excited to see what this new life holds for me.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486477 - 02/15/20 03:30 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Intrigued, 330ci. Are you coming back?
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: DJ Ed]
#26486491 - 02/15/20 03:58 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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I feel like most of us don’t know what this gift you speak of is. If you’re still around, please elaborate.
And whatever it may be, there will always be doubters. If you’re a Terrence Mckenna fan, he once told an interesting story about Jesus and the doubter, claiming that God loves the doubter.
Don’t be mad at those who doubt you. Love them because, without them, your gift would never be truly validated.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Socrateshroom]
#26486519 - 02/15/20 05:11 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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While we are on Jesus, even wilder than His response to Thomas, is his relationship to Judas. What the hell was going on there?
First, there is a reference to Judas stealing money from the disciples communal purse. I’m not sure if Jesus knew this, but the writers of the book seem to know. Then, oddly, Jesus seems to have been aware that Judas was going to betray him, yet he is still invited to Passover dinner that night.
It’s easy and popular to say Judas is the example of a bad christian, and he is traditionally used that way very often. it’s easy to assume he is in hell, Or that God didn’t love him as much the other disciples. The only out right condemnation of Judas afterward seems to come from the other disciples, not Jesus. I can’t think of any verse that indicates Jesus was “anti-Judas” even after the fact. Correct me if I am mistaken.
It is interesting to me that he is still counted as one of the 12 apostles, even within modern Christianity and the western world at large.
It’s an honor in a sense. How many other disciples can you name? 😊 Judas has historic/literal clout in a similar way to Mathew or Mark.
Anyway, no real real point, not even to sure what to make of it, if it’s even half true. just thought of this angle a few months ago and figure since we are approaching Holy Week, and y’all brought Jesus up, it would be appropriate to share this. 👍
Not trying to convert anyone, just noticed and am pointing out the strangeness that is in the Bible, but isn’t widely addressed in Christianity.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26486684 - 02/15/20 08:22 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum. Nor will I ever engage in psychedelic use. Some of you guys are close to an awakening others I don’t see a fuckin chance. But I’m off to hone my spiritual gifts. You will likely read about me someday. Question your worldly ties, question your beliefs and always continue to grow. I’m 25 with my first breakthrough and I hope to be the first person under 30 with a major breakthrough this century. Your dreams are only as big as you let them get. Best of luck lads, hope you enjoyed the old me
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486688 - 02/15/20 08:26 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Also can’t find the delete account button somewhere would be great for a perma van or guide me to the button. Either way. This is my last social media account
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486727 - 02/15/20 09:02 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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At least don’t be a pussy about it. you are who you are, people will enjoy it or not, and what was said, was said. If you stay great, if you don’t, then gtfo and don’t look back for a delete button, or a response to your posts. G up, homey.
Come back later if you grow up, I will always give you a chance. No hard feelings, unless their yours.
Peace.
P.s. mods don’t ban me plz, this isn’t flames, instead it is my sincere advice, with a touch of the dramatic.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26486746 - 02/15/20 09:16 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Shr00mEater said: At least don’t be a pussy about it. you are who you are, people will enjoy it or not, and what was said, was said. If you stay great, if you don’t, then gtfo and don’t look back for a delete button, or a response to your posts. G up, homey.
Come back later if you grow up, I will always give you a chance. No hard feelings, unless their yours.
Peace.
P.s. mods don’t ban me plz, this isn’t flames, instead it is my sincere advice, with a touch of the dramatic. 
when you reach this state in your mind you realize you say goodbye to drugs, goodbye to that life, and goodbye to everything material you love if you want to fully accept the gift. I've given away $1500 worth of bongs, flushed the rest of my weed, haven't had artificial sugar in weeks, no caffeine, no alcohol, no psychedelics in over a month. you have to nurture the gift when you get it.
I will leave you all with this "you have nothing to fear but fear itself" look at what scares the fuck out of you during these experiences and realize it isn't scary, it's just in your mind. some of you will find your way, others will get lost along the path. I don't owe anyone here shit, and if I ever come back it will be after i'm on the other side. (Reflector, Franz Ferdinand, Arctic monkeys, and a few other bands can help get you into the mindset tripping) papadosio as well, I can only guide you guys, you need to find your answers, but I've learned all I can from you guys and a few people are watching over you already so I can go fuck off to be the cunt I am though. I'm saying goodbye to my old life. I will never forget what I learned here. you guys were great. and you think im some ass and it's great. because I am, but I'm also going to be one of the smartest people in the world and you all called me an idiot so that will be my satisfaction from this website.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486786 - 02/15/20 09:52 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Man, I wish you would reconsider and come back.
I think you are on your own wave right now. But, you also seem to me as if you are categorizing a negative experience and desiring a future satisfaction from currently unmet expectations. That’s bad juju.
My opinion is that you are misjudging about half of the people here. It’s true, You get stereotyped by some because, well, they aren’t nice, but you aren’t exactly a bag of sunshine yourself. Then there are some of us who actually know what you mean, yet, we also know the row to hoe is longer than you currently believe. It isn’t the majority that is against you... As it appears you believe it is. Or , is what you believe appearing? I can’t remember the right way to do things sometimes, either.
I do care about you, I don’t want you to leave here carrying a type of bad taste in your mouth over a few personal conflicts. Personalities seem to do that. There really are quite a few amazing folks here. If you chose to follow their posts instead of responding with like kind to every less than generous person... maybe your bad experience in this online community would transform into a healing and growing exercise right before your eyes.
I will prob post back if you do, at least until you leave.
Pro tip: There is an ignore button for members, if you are a weenie, you could utilize that and drop out of ratings.
Also, TPE is like a tame version of OTD sometimes, I am a troll by nature, I love it. People are wild, but there are limits. Other parts of the forum are way more receptive and accepting. Maybe just check out getting started and the pub, or even spirituality forum.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486857 - 02/15/20 10:36 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum. Nor will I ever engage in psychedelic use. Some of you guys are close to an awakening others I don’t see a fuckin chance. But I’m off to hone my spiritual gifts. You will likely read about me someday. Question your worldly ties, question your beliefs and always continue to grow. I’m 25 with my first breakthrough and I hope to be the first person under 30 with a major breakthrough this century. Your dreams are only as big as you let them get. Best of luck lads, hope you enjoyed the old me
If you have your path set and have a clear aim, that is awesome and we're happy for you. I haven't seen your interactions too much on this site so I'm not sure why you want to leave so badly but if you feel it is right for you, I wish you luck!
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330ci said: u reach this state in your mind you realize you say goodbye to drugs, goodbye to that life, and goodbye to everything material you love if you want to fully accept the gift. I've given away $1500 worth of bongs, flushed the rest of my weed, haven't had artificial sugar in weeks, no caffeine, no alcohol, no psychedelics in over a month. you have to nurture the gift when you get it.
I definitely understand where you are coming from. I stopped smoking weed because I felt that it was doing more harm than good for me. BUT that is not an inherent property of the substance, that was me misusing it. We need to take responsibility for ourselves and not blame external sources. If it is in your best interest to stop all of that stuff, then more power to you.
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330ci said: I will leave you all with this "you have nothing to fear but fear itself" look at what scares the fuck out of you during these experiences and realize it isn't scary, it's just in your mind. some of you will find your way, others will get lost along the path. I don't owe anyone here shit, and if I ever come back it will be after i'm on the other side. (Reflector, Franz Ferdinand, Arctic monkeys, and a few other bands can help get you into the mindset tripping) papadosio as well, I can only guide you guys, you need to find your answers, but I've learned all I can from you guys and a few people are watching over you already so I can go fuck off to be the cunt I am though. I'm saying goodbye to my old life. I will never forget what I learned here. you guys were great. and you think im some ass and it's great. because I am, but I'm also going to be one of the smartest people in the world and you all called me an idiot so that will be my satisfaction from this website.
1) No one thinks you owe anyone anything. The people talking to you here are simply engaging in a community and they don't believe you owe them anything because you are here. It is simply an open community and everyone comes and goes as they please.
2) I certainly have nothing to teach you but maybe you haven't learned as much as you think here. Not that you have to, and there are other places to make these discoveries along your life path, but that statement seems a bit grandiose.
3) What happened? All I can deduce from your thread is that you were seriously mistreated here, which I doubt. (But then again I only know my experience and I'm sure yours could be vastly different).
Don't take this the wrong way but I think you may be overreacting. You seem to be playing the victim all while proclaiming how incredible enlightened you are compared to the rest of the people here. As someone who has struggled with vast amounts of neuroses, I can tell you I see much of my old behavior in your expressions on this thread. There was a lot of trauma I had to work through to begin changing my behaviors. Not that this will help but, just food for thought.
And in my travels I met a lot of self-proclaimed Gurus, enlightened masters, "woke" people etc and most of them had one thing in common. They had a massive ego. They could not see past themselves. Which was a shame because they were usually incredibly smart (at the very least much smarter than me) people who were really skilled at mastering a lot of what they preached. Ultimately they were still human and had flaws, like the rest of us.
No one is worth deifying. Enlightenment is a journey that lasts from birth to death and can't be completed in a single lifetime.
Please note, none of what I said here should suggest I am enlightened in any way shape or form, I am not. I am simply sharing my experiences. None of this is meant to be offensive. If you disagree I'd very much like to hear you out. I am not looking to be right, I am just searching for truth.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Socrateshroom]
#26486875 - 02/15/20 10:56 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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And with that post, I am officially proclaiming Socrates my new guru.
Listen to him 330ci, dude doesn’t know your history.
And that sounds like a fairly solid external observation. Actually, as keen as steel, I think.
I am well acquainted with your exciting escapades here in TPE, and I am telling you again
Listen to Socrates here, you don’t have to obey, but at least hear what he is saying, with ZERO background knowledge of you. That’s cray cray. Like a nail on the head.
Edited by Shr00mEater (02/15/20 11:16 AM)
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26486905 - 02/15/20 11:14 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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friends are golden
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Socrateshroom
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26486995 - 02/15/20 12:10 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Shr00mEater said: And with that post, I am officially proclaiming Socrates my new guru.
Listen to him 330ci, dude doesn’t know your history.
And that sounds like a fairly solid external observation. Actually, as keen as steel, I think.
I am well acquainted with your exciting escapades here in TPE, and I am telling you again
Listen to Socrates here, you don’t have to obey, but at least hear what he is saying, with ZERO background knowledge of you. That’s cray cray. Like a nail on the head.
neither me nor the "real" Socrates are fit to be anyone's Guru, but thank you for the compliment!
I'm simply speaking from experience and I see a reflection of myself in 330ci in many ways. I was an incredibly arrogant, always knew better than everyone else person in my past (Not that he is, just saying that from what I've read here, our behaviors seemed similar). It was all the neurotic manifestation of my suffering. I'm here because my first mushroom tripped "flipped" a switch of awareness in me. And when I saw that behavior in myself I was appalled.
But none of it was malicious, I was just in such secret despair that I didn't know how to cope. Luckily I had the opportunity to do some real healing. I still struggle, and some days are harder than others, but I have shed many of those neurotic manifestations. And I like to try and help people who struggle, because I was helped by someone who struggled like me and conquered his demons.
If you want a real legend to intently listen to on here, I recommend footpath. His advice has really helped me out and he seems, to me, someone closer to "enlightened" than I've ever met. (And DJ ED, he's got so much experience its awesome to bask in his wisdom. If you're reading this DJ ED, we're still waiting on that trip report from your insane trip back in the day!)
P.S I had a long response to your Judas post up above but I didn't want to hi-jack this thread into that direction.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26487108 - 02/15/20 01:40 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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330ci said: well alot of you have doubted the gift god's bestowed on me and I'm clearly wasting it here, so I wish you all the best in life. always believe in yourself, never give up and always do the next right thing even when it hurts. You can lie to the world but never be dishonest with yourself. I love you all and hope you all find your cloud, i'm about to find mine. you will probably read about me in papers someday, atleast I believe you will. excited to see what this new life holds for me.

oh, it's the old "higher power" shtick. 
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330ci said: Also can’t find the delete account button somewhere would be great for a perma van or guide me to the button. Either way. This is my last social media account
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: PrimalSoup]
#26487352 - 02/15/20 04:50 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Dam I was just starting to like the posts from 330ci. I hope that whetever you have encountered you can overcome. But I share the same feeling sometimes. Sometimes a huge restart is just the thing to do.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci] 1
#26487361 - 02/15/20 04:57 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power.
Oh I get it he found sobriety
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
#26487418 - 02/15/20 05:47 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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mushboy said:
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power.
Oh I get it he found sobriety 
Basically, yes. So, yeah, you know how that routine goes.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26487434 - 02/15/20 05:56 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Yah well see him in a few days. Or his guy will hear from him sooner.
'Hey man I got really high and thought I didnt need drugs now I'm sober and I remember how awesome weed is gotta bag for me?'
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
#26487587 - 02/15/20 08:12 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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 I liked this guy. Still do. Can do whatever he likes. But don't forget what brought you to these thoughts you're having..
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Backbone]
#26487625 - 02/15/20 08:50 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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narcissist with a messiah complex
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: SexySmurff]
#26487797 - 02/16/20 01:18 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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https://mariaerving.com/back-to-ego-consciousness-spiritual-awakening/
learn what you guys are trying to achieve lol, this is the process of ego death. letting go of your old self, finding your new, I resent the living fuck out of the world right now, life is tough as fuck, and I am all alone. I had to cut out old friends, give away all my posessions, and ultimately just accept that I can't fight these feelings. You guys wouldn't understand, but it's very real, and if you want to get there. start following your gut, believe in yourself, and dream on. But to act like most of you don't irritate the living piss out of me would be an outright lie. therse a few people here I know are on the right path, and I know they're trying to read between my lines.
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Vibe_Enthusiast said:
 I liked this guy. Still do. Can do whatever he likes. But don't forget what brought you to these thoughts you're having..
I have said it plenty, these are tools of enlightenment and you guys are all using them to get high for the most part. if you want to use psychs to feel good about yourself the rest of your life, go ahead. I don't possess the ability for people to give a fuck what I think anymore, and I want to stay here, but I need to achieve true enlightenment to get there which is a long process. this is the beginning, and yes I am trying to hold onto some old things this shit isn't easy. i've deleted all of my other online presences but I feel theres still a bit I can share here. Once your ego dissolution begins though you need to nurture it.
how many of you could just say goodbye to your best friends and hardly be bothered by the thought you would never see them again?would you be able to look at your best friends and say "these people are holding me back."? why would you miss them? how did THEY make YOU feel? How are others holding you back in life? how are you holding yourself back? are you not your own worst enemy? why make excuses? aren't all those excuses just hurdles to get over? what will I do when I get there? will I be happy? why aren't I happy now? Start asking questions of yourself, your looking to the wrong places for answers.
and theres a reason you like me, I might be an asshole, but I'm an honest one. I didn't come here to make friends, I came to share knowledge, to learn about myself, and now my time is coming to move on. 3 weeks into this crap and i'm a shell of who I used to be already. I want you guys here with me so bad. but only you can find the way. sorry to those i've offended. I am a little frustrated I don't get to stay here, I was just settling in and it's already time for me to move on. I think I wanted all of you guys to end up hating me because it would make it easier for me to move on. I do have a god complex, we all have them inside us, only some listen and some don't. i've spent my whole life waiting for this moment to come and now that it's here I want to share what I can before all of you fade into my memory and I'll be stuck in the present. no past no future... No problems. Much love fam, even if it has to be tough sometimes. everyone looks at my insults but noone reads what I have to say, and until you can realize the deeper meaning to things, you're wasting your own time. I already know i'm wasting my time here.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
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and no, I can't find this fucking delete button or I would've deleted this shit account already and it's quite frustrating because I never want to come back to this site, but instinct kicks in and it's the only thing I have left of my old life and I need it to end. I have clicked on account, looked through settings and can't find it, have requested a perma ban and fucking nothing. I have no interest in psychs, drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, etc it all happened over night and I don't know how to explain whats happening but I know it is. I thought this would be a place I could talk about it and not be told i'm some lunatic. I have a spiritual guide though and I have a god who guides me through everything. it's frustrating loving the world but knowing you have to give it up. but it's apart of the process. I have prepared my whole life for this moment and i'm embracing it with everything I have. I wanted to share the gift because I want others to find it. but everyone wants me to tell you how to get there and I had to find those answers within myself. I wish I could give you a step by step guide but it doesn't work that way. I've been told my Traumas weren't traumatic enough here, my suicide attempts were in vain, my alcoholism almost killed me 3 times before I finally got sober. I've smoked cigarettes for almost 12 years and quit in an instant. and you guys want to tell me that a miracle isn't happening in my life. this is why it won't happen to you. I always believed I would wake up one day and everything would make sense. and it did, only when it happened I either accepted the gift and gave up everything, or resisted and got stuck in this non duality hell. only you can save yourself. So believe your beliefs and believe them with all your might because spirituality gets you to God, Psychedelics, Religion, Meditation, Therapy, etc are all just tools to help get you there. The books you read in highschool were there for a reason. learn to read between the lines and understand the deeper meaning. "you have nothing to fear but fear itself." "Every failure is just another chance at success." look at quotes from any enlightened individual and try to understand them. Realize that to get here you have to live your life how you believe you should, no matter the circumstances. I dropped out of Engineering School, multiple rehab visits, psychiatric stays, Fiance left me, suicide attempt, another failed relationship, was disowned by my family and have hated every day of life since I can remember. today I don't hold those feelings. Today i'm exalted, i'm experiencing a sense of peace and tranquility i've never felt and the volatility of my ego is starting to settle.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
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Wherever you,go in your life journey, 330ci, I wish you well. If I’m reading your thread correctly, then I believe you have been a combination of lucky to find your goal, and it’s a result of your hard work.
I didn’t come here to make friends either; I came back because I’ve learned so much from you guys that I felt I wanted to try and give something back. If a single person can learn from my experiences, then I feel justified.
I think I might have annoyed a few posters here, but I think on an online community such as this, that it’s unavoidable. So I’ve always tried to write in clear unambiguous English.
You’ve more than helped me, 330ci, so thank you. Have you ever considered a Dog? You will never find a better life friend, who will love you unconditionally. If I could afford to, I would have a large pack of dogs, instead of my two ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
See you around on this crazy life journey, dude. Sending love and good vibes...... DJ Ed
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum.
Is that gift time release? A day later and you're still here. If you want to stay just stay. Either way I wish you the best man... if you need help please go get it.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: DJ Ed]
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DJ Ed said: Wherever you,go in your life journey, 330ci, I wish you well. If I’m reading your thread correctly, then I believe you have been a combination of lucky to find your goal, and it’s a result of your hard work.
I didn’t come here to make friends either; I came back because I’ve learned so much from you guys that I felt I wanted to try and give something back. If a single person can learn from my experiences, then I feel justified.
I think I might have annoyed a few posters here, but I think on an online community such as this, that it’s unavoidable. So I’ve always tried to write in clear unambiguous English.
You’ve more than helped me, 330ci, so thank you. Have you ever considered a Dog? You will never find a better life friend, who will love you unconditionally. If I could afford to, I would have a large pack of dogs, instead of my two ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
See you around on this crazy life journey, dude. Sending love and good vibes...... DJ Ed
Nothing but love Ed. right now i'm just working to get my life back on order, I am going for a major breakthrough, this isn't enough for me. No time for dogs, friends, online personalities etc. 100% focused on me, but figured I could share some knowledge in the process.
To those who don't understand, try to understand the lyrics to tame impalas, my thread title is a lyric from a song Reflektor. you need to learn how your brain works and then from their you can use music, belief systems, ideologies, and psychedelics to guide you to the answers you seek. but once you break through, unless you give up all drugs, clean your system out and really refresh everything you won't experience the significant growth you seek. You don't need substance to find God, he's been inside you the whole time.
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum.
Is that gift time release? A day later and you're still here. If you want to stay just stay. Either way I wish you the best man... if you need help please go get it.
I am better than ever. I have just a very small world right now, and I believe i've explained why i'm still here fairly intelligently, left a bit of reading information, some music etc to really get you focused on your own paths. I'm not worried about myself at all, i'm going to be Great. but while i'm still in the process of letting go, I figured why not share what knowledge I have on this subject since i'm a little more educated in spirituality than most here. I know what I have to do with my life, you know what you have to do with yours. quit projecting that I need help, nobody can help you in life but yourself, and anyone who does help you, you let them. and if you let everyone and everything in the world tell you your worth, you'll be miserable. or atleast I was, I never felt I fit in, and now I know why... Hope you find your way
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum.
Is that gift time release? A day later and you're still here. If you want to stay just stay. Either way I wish you the best man... if you need help please go get it.
I am better than ever. I have just a very small world right now, and I believe i've explained why i'm still here fairly intelligently, left a bit of reading information, some music etc to really get you focused on your own paths. I'm not worried about myself at all, i'm going to be Great. but while i'm still in the process of letting go, I figured why not share what knowledge I have on this subject since i'm a little more educated in spirituality than most here. I know what I have to do with my life, you know what you have to do with yours. quit projecting that I need help, nobody can help you in life but yourself, and anyone who does help you, you let them. and if you let everyone and everything in the world tell you your worth, you'll be miserable. or atleast I was, I never felt I fit in, and now I know why... Hope you find your way
I hope you follow a path that makes you happy and I wish you the best. I don't see the need to leave here if you want to stay but that's a personal decision for you to make. Take care.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Socrateshroom]
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Of course I’m reading this, Socrateshroom; I consider most of you guys “friends”, which is not something I was expecting or looking for when I returned to the shroomery. I’ve been overwhelmed with the love, the good vibes, and the great advice.
Yes some posts on TPE are slightly, well, downright weird, but there’s always something thought-provoking to get your teeth into.
I may have a lot of experience, but I am nowhere near as enlightened as you guys. It’s all give and take, and we can all learn from all our various differing perspectives.
A couple of points to update you with, though, Socrateshroom:
- Packed my job in; start a new job 300 miles away in two weeks. I’ll be on my own, so am going to use the time for a 6 month integration phase and see how I feel then. Having said that though, my Mazatapec grain jars are being put into a coir monotub later this morning, so I will almost certainly have at least one trip from them......
- I haven’t forgotten about the trip report: I’ve been conscious I’ve been spending a lot of time on here, which is great, but I still have a wife and daughter I need to give my time to. So my plan is to write up my report in a few weeks when I’m away from home 👍🏻
- I had “one last trip” Friday just gone, but I took your advice and dosed with my lowest ever mushroom dose: 2.5g dry B+. Apart from a really intense come up, for about 30 mins, the rest of the trip was both sublime, and “easy”. I couldn’t reconcile how such a low dose was still so psychedelic. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t go anywhere near as far as I would have with 3.8g, but it was still very useful, very enjoyable, and even without any intentions going into the trip, I learned a lot! I was so in tune with reading my wife’s body language and mood, it was uncanny......
Anyway, I’m starting to hijack 330ci’s thread......
Much love DJ Ed
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330ci said: The gift is control over your own destiny so long as you believe in your higher power. After today I will no longer be apart of this forum.
Is that gift time release? A day later and you're still here. If you want to stay just stay. Either way I wish you the best man... if you need help please go get it.
I am better than ever. I have just a very small world right now, and I believe i've explained why i'm still here fairly intelligently, left a bit of reading information, some music etc to really get you focused on your own paths. I'm not worried about myself at all, i'm going to be Great. but while i'm still in the process of letting go, I figured why not share what knowledge I have on this subject since i'm a little more educated in spirituality than most here. I know what I have to do with my life, you know what you have to do with yours. quit projecting that I need help, nobody can help you in life but yourself, and anyone who does help you, you let them. and if you let everyone and everything in the world tell you your worth, you'll be miserable. or atleast I was, I never felt I fit in, and now I know why... Hope you find your way
I hope you follow a path that makes you happy and I wish you the best. I don't see the need to leave here if you want to stay but that's a personal decision for you to make. Take care.
you can't be living in the present when you're stuck in the past. I can stay but it would be extremely uncomfortable for me. there's no way I could possibly be happy with the way my life used to be anymore. I have already gotten rid of all my childhood memories, photos, family pictures. Etc. I have to look in the mirror everyday and fall in love with that Man, because it's who I am and who I will always be. I was born to suffer, when I woke up from my suicide attempt my first thought was "Why didn't you let me go God." and he told me he had other plans. I've resisted this my whole life and it's brought me nothing but misery. I have no option to accept this and roll with it until I am here to stay. I don't want my misery back, and unless i'm willing to let go of everything, friends, family, past loves, possessions, etc.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: DJ Ed]
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DJ Ed said: Of course I’m reading this, Socrateshroom; I consider most of you guys “friends”, which is not something I was expecting or looking for when I returned to the shroomery. I’ve been overwhelmed with the love, the good vibes, and the great advice.
Yes some posts on TPE are slightly, well, downright weird, but there’s always something thought-provoking to get your teeth into.
I may have a lot of experience, but I am nowhere near as enlightened as you guys. It’s all give and take, and we can all learn from all our various differing perspectives.
A couple of points to update you with, though, Socrateshroom:
- Packed my job in; start a new job 300 miles away in two weeks. I’ll be on my own, so am going to use the time for a 6 month integration phase and see how I feel then. Having said that though, my Mazatapec grain jars are being put into a coir monotub later this morning, so I will almost certainly have at least one trip from them......
- I haven’t forgotten about the trip report: I’ve been conscious I’ve been spending a lot of time on here, which is great, but I still have a wife and daughter I need to give my time to. So my plan is to write up my report in a few weeks when I’m away from home 👍🏻
- I had “one last trip” Friday just gone, but I took your advice and dosed with my lowest ever mushroom dose: 2.5g dry B+. Apart from a really intense come up, for about 30 mins, the rest of the trip was both sublime, and “easy”. I couldn’t reconcile how such a low dose was still so psychedelic. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t go anywhere near as far as I would have with 3.8g, but it was still very useful, very enjoyable, and even without any intentions going into the trip, I learned a lot! I was so in tune with reading my wife’s body language and mood, it was uncanny......
Anyway, I’m starting to hijack 330ci’s thread......
Much love DJ Ed
Couldn't care if I tried lol
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: 330ci]
#26487895 - 02/16/20 05:18 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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With all due respect 330ci, it looks like you only directly engage in posts that are complimenting you and clump everyone else who might be trying to give you constructive criticism into the lot of people who “are mean to you”.
Then you say how much everyone on here doesn’t understand the truth and is no where near the truth like you are.
You keep saying people can’t do what you do, achieve the things that you achieve, again without knowing the lives of those on here. What you see from the members who post here isn’t fully representative of who they are, their accomplishments, etc.
And there’s so many people on here trying to help, but of course you think you are beyond help because you think you have “ascended” metaphorically speaking.
You’re looking for attention, that’s why each “I’m gone forever” post is followed by 3 more of telling us how you’ve made it to nirvana and how sad you are that none of us can follow you because we’re “unworthy” (metaphorically speaking)
And I’m sorry if this sounds harsh but I recognize your behavior EXACTLY to the minute aspect because I was EXACTLY like that. And no one bothered to help me (and I don’t blame them because I was an attention seeking arrogant POS). I was so deluded about how “smart” I was that I didn’t realize i had an ego the size of our known universe.
I wish you luck and I feel for you, I really do. It was hard living how I was because the suffering was immense. And I know that you are suffering greatly in your own way. You’re crying that people don’t take your suicide attempts seriously but they fucking do!
Man.....now I know how my friends felt when I was like this. It’s exhausting when someone refuses to listen. All I ask before you shrug this off is to consider what I or the other people who are trying to help you are saying.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Socrateshroom]
#26487905 - 02/16/20 05:49 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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I’m starting to think he is just trolling now.....
HEY MODS! This noob here, 330ci, can’t seem to find the “delete button” for his posts, and he is so self absorbed that he can’t possibly leave here forever without first permanently removing the wonderful record of his presence here, and with them, the words of pure wisdom that he has deemed right to bestow on all of us lowly mortals.
So, Maybe a mod could help him out and just permaban his account, so that he can get on with his life instead of losing any more sleep about it. 
I say again, If you are so concerned with cutting ties with this community, GTFO and don’t look back... Come back after you relapse, we might be able to be friends. 👍
Edited by Shr00mEater (02/16/20 05:57 AM)
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater] 1
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Banned till next week
I would of shown him the self ban link but I'd imagine hed ban himself for life only to email an admin in a month asking it to be lifted
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
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Yikes, that worked a lot better than I thought it would... I guess I have way more clout around here than I imagined.
lol, I’m jk, I take no credit, or responsibility. Thank you very much, I know you were getting pretty sick of the antics too.
It will be good for him, Hopefully, he gets over himself and comes back, maybe the week off will make him realize how his bad experience on this forum wasn’t really that bad and there are probably still things left to learn from it. I know I learned a lot from watching myself try quite hard to accept, relate and give space to a person who didn’t want any of those things.
If he doesn’t come back. Too bad and oh fucking well, I am sure he will find a safe space somewhere, that plenty of people will tolerate such a basic level of self delusion for much longer than it was tolerated here. Not that there wasn’t a good effort given for his sake, you guys were really great, tolerant, eloquent, compassionate, but at the same time, not willing to coddle him with the lies he has surrounded himself with. Much respect! 
Anyway, Good job everyone, he could never say people didn’t try to connect. Also, Special kudos to Feldman for pointing out his bullshit like 4 weeks ago. Nice eye, man!
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
#26488092 - 02/16/20 09:42 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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So it on and on and on its heaven and hell
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26488098 - 02/16/20 09:48 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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I think most of us have felt the jesus complex while coming down off insane doses.
Then you want to let go of everything that everyone refuses to let go of so you end up thinking 'Ill do it for my loved ones since they cant do it themselves'. The jesus complex begins
Next you give up porn or even worse delete your entire downloaded collection(doh) because you are on the path. Then those same loved ones you put yourself on the cross for start to laugh and doubt you. Then you really feel like jesus being betrayed by all those Judas's.
Few days later your scrapping bong resin and watching porn on your phone.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
#26488114 - 02/16/20 10:00 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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heyooooo
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: mushboy]
#26488126 - 02/16/20 10:06 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Very profound, dude.
Very funny 🤣🤣🤣,but very profound 👍🏻
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: DJ Ed]
#26488136 - 02/16/20 10:12 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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this has to be the weirdest thread I encountered in this forum
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It’s definitely weird, but I for one really feel for OP, 330ci ☹️
For one so young, he has certainly had some deep revelations, some long years of pain, and hope of salvation. I think if he can continue with his current beliefs, he’s well on the way to true contentment. I’m double his age, have had some similar life tragedies, but have not coped half as well.
I hope he does though reconnect; I have had years of depression, and not wanting to be around people. Mushrooms have brought me back to the world, and am allowing me to heal, Change, and grow, whilst still reconnecting with family and old friends. And myself, that’s probably the best part 👍🏻
No, I only wish him well. And in the best possible way, I hope we don’t hear from 330ci for at least a few years. I’ll still be here.
❤️ DJ Ed
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: DJ Ed]
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I don’t necessarily think the ideas of “no drugs, no porn, etc” are bad, it’s more so he had this “holier than thou” attitude about it. I think to each their own. Some people lay off certain things because they know they can’t handle it as well as others. For example, I abstain from alcohol because I know that if I have just a single beer for a couple of days in a row, two weeks down the line I’ll be downing a 6 pack a night. But that’s just me, I know plenty of people who can drink responsibly and I’m happy for them. Anyway yea it’s a weird thread. An enlightened human was having a full fight with his ego and his ego was winning so it came here to display its power. Nothing wrong with it, we all struggle with our “ego” and some more than others.
Wishing you well 330ci. Hopefully you mature a bit/get the help you need. Many of us have been in similar places as you so we know the struggle.
And contrary to how he tried to paint this community, you guys are all incredibly awesome.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Socrateshroom]
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Cheers to you, sir, too. I gave him leeway due to his tender age. I can remember how I felt at that age, but I think he seems to be realising it.
Much love DJ Ed
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Damp Socks]
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You must be new. 
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
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That whole messiah complex is common too when someone is at the onset of a manic episode. Paired with this statement:
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but I'm also going to be one of the smartest people in the world
delusions of grandeur??
Just saying, the enlightened middle path is balanced, not manic
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but I'm also going to be one of the smartest people in the world
delusions of grandeur??
Just saying, the enlightened middle path is balanced, not manic
Arrogance never precedes enlightenment. Boyo's in for a big slap.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Coulrophany]
#26488637 - 02/16/20 04:04 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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What you know precedes means come before right?
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Backbone]
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Yes - he is arrogant and thinks he is coming upon enlightenment, so the arrogance precedes it. "I am GOING TO BE one of the smartest people in the world."
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Coulrophany]
#26488650 - 02/16/20 04:12 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Sometimes its good to be arrogant
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Backbone]
#26488654 - 02/16/20 04:16 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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I thought enlightenment could only be preceded by arrogance?
I need a dictionary.
Edit: oh, never mind, I remember now. Enlightenment produces arrogance. Or arrogance produces enlightenment? I forget again.
*signs up for remedial English classes, hoping that will help.*
Edited by Shr00mEater (02/16/20 04:19 PM)
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26488663 - 02/16/20 04:22 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Only hippies can achieve enlightenment
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Backbone]
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I always imagined myself a kind of hippy, but, then I end up putting on my deodorant and going to work.
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Re: I'll see you on the other side. [Re: Shr00mEater]
#26489034 - 02/16/20 08:28 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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OP is banned I guess we can let this one go now......
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