|
Anonymous #1
|
unshakable depression
#26484570 - 02/14/20 01:37 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
|
|
I'm no stranger to depression, but this particular round is a kicker.
I just got a brand new car, feel nothing.
No matter what food I eat, feel nothing.
Don't want to do heavy drugs and have no capacity for alcohol.
Man fuck. Fuck this. Fuck it. Even shroomery is boring, it feels like everyone hates me though I'm pretty sure that's not true.
Meditation, good food, exercise, ra ra... I know what I should do. What I want to do though is just... nothing.
Thanks for listening.
|
Anonymous #2
|
|
barnaby, that you?
|
Sofaking420



Registered: 02/09/18
Posts: 1,126
Loc: Myco mountain
Last seen: 14 hours, 14 minutes
|
|
Ive also been struggling with depression recently too man. It will get better, i think its a winter funk.
|
Anonymous #3
|
|
The important part is that you care about how you feel, or you wouldn't be expressing this. If you care how you feel, then inside somewhere is desire to be better and live better. I know it's hard. Just gotta take it one day at a time.
|
Ydoyoutortureme
Stranger

Registered: 01/07/20
Posts: 98
Last seen: 3 years, 10 months
|
|
Love yourself and what you feel you dont deserve is for a reason dont do what you feel bad about anymore
--------------------
Begin Clause In regards to any text posted in this text based post above the begin clause in this thread above and herein all persons, places, incidents and actions in this internet forum are a work of fiction. Any similarity to real persons, places, incidents or actions is coincidental and cannot and will not be used as evidence in any legal proceeding in regards to any form of law, or as evidence to take action in any type of mental evaluation, and also cannot be used to investigate any type of crime all of letters and numbers are for fictional entertainmemt, and if used as a basis for investigation you will lose your credentials for not following protocol and breaking freedom of expression laws End Clause
|
Anonymous #1
|
|
Shook out of it a lot better today. Drove around a bit, ate some food, betterish.
Thanks for the words of support folks. 
learn to use punctuation Ydoyoutortureme
|
Ydoyoutortureme
Stranger

Registered: 01/07/20
Posts: 98
Last seen: 3 years, 10 months
|
|
No problem your happiness is important what you love matters to the universe!
--------------------
Begin Clause In regards to any text posted in this text based post above the begin clause in this thread above and herein all persons, places, incidents and actions in this internet forum are a work of fiction. Any similarity to real persons, places, incidents or actions is coincidental and cannot and will not be used as evidence in any legal proceeding in regards to any form of law, or as evidence to take action in any type of mental evaluation, and also cannot be used to investigate any type of crime all of letters and numbers are for fictional entertainmemt, and if used as a basis for investigation you will lose your credentials for not following protocol and breaking freedom of expression laws End Clause
|
Blazer420
ŦøжїϿ ÐȐȜȧƜƐȓ


Registered: 06/13/09
Posts: 4,825
|
|
FOREVER A DOOMER!
You are not alone.
-------------------- ~ I used to get high on life, until I realized life was cut with morons ~ * You need 2 wake up and smell the music! * -We are all computer data in a materialistic world- |Sometimes you have to lose yourself, to find anything|
 
|
Anonymous #4
|
|
That feeling of numbness from life's pain, waking up in the morning only wanting to go back in bed again.
|
Anonymous #1
|
|
Meh, I dunno. I'm still apathetic and bored with the whole show.
Went to a psych to get my head read but ended up talking for half an hour about why I refuse to take antidepressants. It's the first thing out of the mouth of every psych I've ever seen. They're just itching to scribble up an order form for happy pills. The rest of the time dealt very little with the issues I'm facing. Just wanted to give me drugs rather than help me with the issues at hand. Such a phony profession these days.
|
Anonymous #5
|
|
Do therapy. Never stop doing therapy. Once a week.
And I can tell you man from the bottom of my heart I dont hate you. I dont think the things you type are stupid. I find them intriguing. Whoever you are and whatever you type I enjoy your input to my little speed boat of reality. I'd buy you a beer for sure.
|
Anonymous #3
|
|
I didn't find therapy to help after a few sessions. Once they have me some proper evaluation, listened, and ultimately told me I was already doing the things they'd try to teach me.. - it just felt formulaic. I'm not saying it didn't help, because it did, but it didn't extend much further than some insights about myself and the blindspots they resided in. And I'm saying that as someone who's in the past dug pretty deep in to psychedelics, philosophy, metaphysics, and most importantly introspection. Its just how I cope with being who I am. I just think that if you're taking any time at all to really understand yourself you're probably already doing far more for yourself than is being given credit and that's just so hard to do when all you have deal with is yourself. That's really the biggest step that needs to be kept in sight, that just because I see how I could be better that doesn't meaning I'm failing to succeed
|
CMACD
The Sto)))ve


Registered: 02/01/07
Posts: 813
Loc: too scared
Last seen: 9 months, 7 days
|
|
Well I can suggest to just force yourself to exercise. You might just end up feeling better... I almost always do.
Also listen to music that you like... sometimes I forget about music becaues it's effects are invisible and you look to something like a drug for something more tangible & direct, but I notice if I really stop and think, certain moments of powerful songs can really be drug-like in stirring up feelings where you felt totally tired & dead before listening to the song.
COmbine the music & exercise!
|
|