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#26469500 - 02/05/20 12:14 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #2
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Sounds like you're getting off behaving like a watered down Batman and getting paranoid about it.
I'm not trying to engage you here- but you definitely aren't a spy because you have no allegiance.
You're a nosey nelly at best and possibly a rat.
I would advise you to either go be a cop and do it for real, or find other hobbies.
Probably go be a cop because if you're already a rat.. well you're already past the point of no return in my eyes.
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It sounds like living this way is ruining your life. I know that this must be important to you, and at times you probably enjoy it in certain ways, but look at how deeply living like this is hurting you. No matter what it is, or how bad, maybe you should let it go. Wind down the the whole thing and stop. Your whole post is filled with sadness, depression, and it seems like you know you want to stop, but feel like you can't. But you can. You don't have to live like this. I know it must be very hard to let it go, but it sounds like this is really destroying your life. It can't be healthy for anyone to live like this for any reason.
Even if you feel like what you're doing is very important, I think you need to give it up, for your own health and peace of mind. I know someone who once worked as a first responder to car accidents, and they were seeing really bad stuff all the time. That's a job where you can help people, but it was so hard on them mentally that they had to stop because it was hurting them so much. No matter how important what you're doing is, it's clearly hurting you a lot. I really think, no matter what it is, you should give it up for your own sake.
Beyond that, hiding cameras and watching people like that isn't right, even if you're doing it for good reasons. And it sounds like it's harming you much more than it's helping you, or anyone. It doesn't sound like anything good has come out of this.
There are bad things and bad people in the world, and unfortunately we can't stop everything or save everyone. It's sad, but that's the world we live in. Try to go easier on yourself, you can't save the world single handedly, no one can. Try to stop, go on vacation, take some time to yourself, try to have some fun and leave this stuff behind. It's clearly not healthy for you.
I really hope you feel better soon. What you're going through just sounds awful, and I really hope you find some peace.
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Anonymous #4
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It’s really simple-Get A Life Loser
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#26469638 - 02/05/20 04:04 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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#26469641 - 02/05/20 04:09 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #5
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I don't think this guy is actually doing much of anything. Sounds like he has mental illness and has some grandiose delusions. Half of what he says doesn't make any sense.
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Anonymous #6
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STOP THAT
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#26469825 - 02/05/20 08:05 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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#26469892 - 02/05/20 08:48 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #6
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Sometimes you just have to stop and breathe.
Accept the nature of the world and the situation you are in.
And just try to relax for a sec
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Anonymous #8
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I have no idea what Anon 1 is talking about.
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Anonymous #9
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Anon #1 makes me paranoid.
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Anonymous #2
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Anonymous #9 said: Anon #1 makes me paranoid.
You should be. There are nosey people everywhere. Some are really really nosey.
I feel not good not having windows entirely covered at night knowing anon #1 is out there.
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#26471962 - 02/06/20 12:28 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #10
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Anonymous #1 said: My life is ruined
If you’re really dying, I salute your effort to do some good before departing. Most people would just whine and wallow all day. However, you would find much more satisfaction and meaning in working on yourself instead. I’m not telling you to get a job or go for a jog - I mean real inner growth. Get into Interated Yoga.
Buuuut, if you’re lying about being fatally ill, you’re basically a rat. Not in my opinion, but by definition.
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Anonymous #11
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Bro I can tell you with 100 percent confidence theres something wrong with your brain. It might not be a permanent thing. But theres something wrong.
You arent making sense in a lot of what you say and these actions are not of a sane individual.
Are you doing drugs? If so.... are you doing them a lot? If not... are you doing them in excess then going cold turkey.... then doing them in excess over and over?
If youre not doing drugs... are you staying up and not sleeping for a day or 2? Or more than 2 days?
These are all things that can change the way you think temporarily. And the issue is... you WONT notice its changing you.
You should get off all drugs. Get on a healthy diet. Exercise every day. And do that for a few weeks. If you are still having issues then you should see a therapist. After seeing the therapist for a while consider going to a psychiatrist.
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#26476471 - 02/09/20 06:16 AM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #11
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I dont know what else to tell you except that you dont make sense man.
You literally dont.
Some how youre making sense to you but not to other people.
I dont think people care that much about other people.
I think you are assuming you can read people easily when most of the times youll be wrong.
Youll think this massive scheme is going on when in reality they are just thinking about Mcdonalds or a hot girl they wish they could fuck.
You do you man.
I dont know enough about you to give solid advice.
My guess is there is a huge hole somewhere that you arent fixing.
I recommend seeing a therapist and being as honest as possible.
Their job is to help you.
Allow yourself to be helped.
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Anonymous #11
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I just spent a LOT of time helping you out here. So read this. I went through your entire last message and I turned it into a slightly different worded message so you can see how you sound.
"I know this place is about shrooms not anger management. I am not angry. Its more like PTSD. It becomes physical sometimes. Its money related. I try to meditate to help it. A therapist could help me but I cant afford it. If I stopped losing it Id have stability.
Stuff is going on so bad it doesnt make sense to others. Stuff hasnt happened to them. I have to keep it a secret when being attacked in ways that dont make sense. But "it" is more than being bullied. I am poor and pretending im not poor because I have to be seen as not poor.
Some people exploit weak people. The world has a lot of people who do that.
I am not saying my life story. Its too long. It isnt believable. I keep a fake smile on and pretend Im normal.
Life is great but its stressful when youre poor. You have to have money to save yourself from being poor. I found a gig to make money that might work out.
I have to pretend the next few months that I'm with stupid. Get paid little for doing awful work. My boss matters but I dont. I pretend the boss isnt using me for my work. Life was easy for my boss but not for me.
I am sorry to do this to everyone. No one deserves this. This is why I keep my life a secret.
America isnt free. Only certain people get help. It gets worse every day that we pretend it isnt bad.
Its hard to do anything with a corrupt government. I will try to not make life about me. I wasnt self centered. I was just closed minded and let parasites in my life get to me.
I will try to be kind to people even assholes. I will try to have a better day.
People have been harassed by the police and so have I. Do not judge others like I used to. Sometimes its not possible to do what you think is right. I pretend I am not being robbed so people dont try and help me because they cant. I make 30 dollars in the winter for a long day. I hope no one important was robbed so the cops dont come. I have to stay home until they bully someone else.
This sounds crazy and doesnt make sense. Some people have a bad start. They are almost kidnapped by mafia people. Its not their choice. We go to the path of least resistance. I am safe now. I need more money to buy rights to a real job. I cannot work as a mail man.
My story is too long to get into. It makes me feel bad.
Learn a lesson from this. And if you are a good person dont get caught by bad people. They have the authority. Being alone is torture.
Things are looking up now. I am sad because its winter. I am unhealthy and starving.
I wont judge people like I was when I was a kid."
Notice how you say one arbitrary thing after another!
You are talking like this: "I went outside to go to the mall. I picked up a chair and put it by the dinner table. I went into the garage to look at a tire. I found a ladder in the attic."
You need to slow down. You need to come up with a POINT. And you need to create your message based off that point.
So if you want to convey that you are really into computers for example.... you could say..... "When I was young I got into the Gameboy Color. I became fascinated with this Gameboy Color and ended up taking it apart. It took me a long time to put it back together but I eventually managed to do it. Ever since I have been taking apart electronics and putting them back together. Now I work at a computer repair shop. I really like computers."
We are not inside your head! We dont know your entire back story so we cannot understand fragments of stories. Only YOU have the full story of YOUR life. You must give CLEAR and CONCISE information. Otherwise you DO NOT MAKE SENSE.
I am not being mean! I want to help you. Speak CLEARLY. You make so little sense that it took me TWENTY minutes to reword what you said. No one understands you!
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Anonymous #8
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I think anon 1 got arrested for something.
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#26479104 - 02/10/20 06:50 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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#26479115 - 02/10/20 06:56 PM (3 years, 11 months ago) |
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Anonymous #1 said: I guess I dont really know what I wanted posting this on the internet, maybe some tips on laying low, and survival. I could be a gypsy? I need a gig. Like take the money and run type of gig, never see me again.
Get a real job. A mailman isnt a bad job it is the type of work MOST people on earth do. Work at walmart if you have to while you look for a mailman job.
Life will continue to suck until you are making at the very least a minimum wage full time job. While you are working there keep applying for better positions.
Life is hard for people who refuse to work minimum wage shit jobs. You arent worth anything to anyone so you wont just land a 50k a year gig. Youll need to go to school or learn a trade of some kind. Become a security guard. Learn to be a car mechanic. Or A/C mechanic.
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Anonymous #11
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Are you sure? The guy seems like hes gotten very lazy and deluded/paranoid and stopped making sense.
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Are you sure? The guy seems like hes gotten very lazy and deluded/paranoid and stopped making sense.
I hope I'm sure....if not then all the things he is saying are pretty troubling...
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