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I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help 1
#26438782 - 01/17/20 03:33 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help people and that was it.
I never wanted to be capable of this human emotion! Damn it!!!!
Now I'm tearing myself up about it, and it will be OK.
Now I know love, and the flip side too.
It's terribly dangerous, this love too.
I never knew that I was capable of love like this. And now I want to be the best person I can be, just so she can break me down again.
Now that I know I am capable of love like this, it is truly scary.
I know that doesn't sound right. But the best life for me is one of love.
I never knew this time would come, and it hit me in the face like an iron train.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery] 1
#26438795 - 01/17/20 03:44 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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my condolences...
i'm actively avoiding it myself.
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az] 1
#26438802 - 01/17/20 03:47 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Thanks.
I don't know why it took me so long. It was like many years since I did this thing
Do you want to love another? It's being self-less and selfish that allows the channels to open
Glad you know more about yourself than I apparently did.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery] 1
#26438816 - 01/17/20 03:53 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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i'm at a point in my life where feelings just seem like like a set up for disappointment.
maybe someday that will change.
but for now, the less love the better.
nihilism is not my only defense mechanism, just my favorite.
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az] 1
#26438824 - 01/17/20 03:56 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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wrestler_az said: i'm at a point in my life where feelings just seem like like a set up for disappointment.
maybe someday that will change.
but for now, the less love the better.
nihilism is not my only defense mechanism, just my favorite.
Well I thought I would too.
But BE CAREFUL!
I had no idea that I was defenseless against this emotion of not only love, but FEELING.
And I didn't want to like it but I couldn't stop and neither could she.
I was a STRAIGHT CASTLE for over 10 years, and then with one push the walls came down... And I don't understand why, or how. but I'm ok with it ...
Now I'm going to hide and protect myself against the onslaught of emotions. I'll drink this one for 40oz.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26438829 - 01/17/20 03:59 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Fiery said: I'll drink this one for 40oz.

cheers!
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26438842 - 01/17/20 04:08 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Fiery said:
I was a STRAIGHT CASTLE for over 10 years, and then with one push the walls came down... And I don't understand why, or how. but I'm ok with it ...
It's like my buddy said.
He is OK with whatever if he's happy.
I don't agree.
"whatever" is not OK if it hurts someone else.
That is what love does eventually , right? hurts people?
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26438848 - 01/17/20 04:13 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Fiery said: That is what love does eventually , right? hurts people?
i mean, if given enough time, yeah...
i think the trick is to get in, and get out.
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az]
#26438858 - 01/17/20 04:22 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Why didn't anyone tell me!

Or... better yet, why did I ignore the warning signs?
what was the warning exactly?
That I might die? well guess what? as each day passes I'm no closer to my death than I ever was the day before.
Time is IRRELEVANT IN LOVE
All I know is some people set about a course of events that can help change humanity.
And I never did wrong , so I can wake up without seeing the metaphorical blood on my hands.
THX for listening, I know you have a life to live.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26438866 - 01/17/20 04:26 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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i'm just playin, love is a good thing!
it is THE thing!
i'm happy it found you!
take care of it.
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az]
#26438874 - 01/17/20 04:34 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Well I just thought that living "as a dead person" as I say is a good thing.
Because no dead person can feel love. Some people fear death, and others embrace it.
What I mean by living as a dead person is a man without love or emotions. Not actual physical death.
Some people get confused about that.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26438968 - 01/17/20 05:32 PM (4 years, 12 days ago) |
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Some people say that most people never even understand what love actually is.
Love is not a good hot sex .
Or a person taking their clothes off and going to your pleasure sensors.
This song and most media songs prove that.
Love is trust and understanding. It takes so much time to develop that. And most people are confused about what love actually is, like myself.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26441947 - 01/19/20 04:29 PM (4 years, 10 days ago) |
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I'm surprised and also disappointed that no other wise shamans from the pub would chime in on this subject.
Maybe I posted it in the wrong forum. Might seem more like SnP stuff.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26441951 - 01/19/20 04:31 PM (4 years, 10 days ago) |
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Love is dead here.
Same as god.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az]
#26441959 - 01/19/20 04:37 PM (4 years, 10 days ago) |
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Did Superman really kill God? Most people prefer philosophy and comic books to psychedelics
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az]
#26441961 - 01/19/20 04:37 PM (4 years, 10 days ago) |
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No there are wise sages here, like MarkosTheGnostic, and others. Many many more wise sages exist, but they are out there changing the world, instead of chiming in on my love issue.
Lots has transpired since I made this post, and I thank you again for sharing your wisdom with me.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Blabble40]
#26441965 - 01/19/20 04:38 PM (4 years, 10 days ago) |
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Must have, haven't seen him around in a while...
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: wrestler_az]
#26442461 - 01/19/20 11:00 PM (4 years, 9 days ago) |
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This next one is really metaphysical;
I'm going to cast a poem when it's done.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26442466 - 01/19/20 11:06 PM (4 years, 9 days ago) |
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I swear that unswearing is running rampant in the streets I swear that upon my death, I will be dead and no other swears will be told.
But WAIT. DId someone swear my life away? D
Angels acend upon my life, I will not deny nor will I lie to the heavens.
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Re: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help [Re: Fiery]
#26442479 - 01/19/20 11:20 PM (4 years, 9 days ago) |
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Fiery said: I never knew it was possible to love. It's scary. I just thought I'd live and die and help people and that was it.
I never knew that I was capable of love like this. And now I want to be the best person I can be, just so she can break me down again.
I know that doesn't sound right. But the best life for me is one of love.
I never knew this time would come, and it hit me in the face like an iron train.
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