Greetings friends! Several days ago, on an otherwise quiet weekday evening, when I found myself home alone, I took a tab of acid. I am reluctant to call it a "trip" because overall I didn't seem to experience many of the hallmark experiences that acid is known for, but that is also why I wanted to post here, to find out if maybe I was expecting too much and over-analyzing - a tendency of mine and one of the reasons why I am getting into psychedelics. Nevertheless, in retrospect, it was an awesome experience, definitely the "highest" I have ever felt. I wonder if my lack of tripping was due to the circumstances in which I found myself: At approximately 3pm after eating a light meal, I dropped. I had to drive my brother to work, and I figured that by the time the acid kicked in I would be safe and sound back at home. Wrong. About 15 minutes from home, I started feeling a little feeling creeping up. Then I had to stop for gas. Like with other psychedelics, the acid seemed to be stimulating my bowels, so I was in a hurry to get home. By the time I got home, I was feeling like I was drunk in that my body and legs especially were kind of numb, but I didn't feel like my head was spinning or nauseous as with alcohol. I found myself getting easily absorbed by very small things such as looking at my phone. For the first hour or two, I was overwhelmed by the physical sensations. My bowels were churning, and I was breaking out into a cold sweat. I wanted to sit down, but at the same time I felt so charged up that I couldn't sit still. I put on some music. Native peyote tribal music. At some point I noticed that I was staring at the wall and that the paint was dripping down the wall. That was cool. At another point I looked over at my himalayan salt lamp and I was seeing images in the lamp and getting absorbed by the light. The physical sensations were getting to be too much, so I smoked a little herb. This quieted down my innards, as it always does, and then sent me deeper into the music that was playing. I noticed that I was really energized and kind of "pumped up," if you know what I mean, as though I had just been working out. I have only tried coke once, but I felt like I was high on coke mixed with weed and alcohol. The main problem that I was having was that I didn't know what to do with myself. I was too uncomfortable and electrified to just chill, and my brain wasn't working well enough to make any decisions. I decided to assemble a shelving unit that I had bought previously in the day. Reading the instructions proved very complicated as I couldn't really grasp the meaning of what I was reading, and the translucency of the paper was very interesting. Somehow I managed to put the shelf together. It was definitely the most fun I have had assembling shelving. I tried to meditate a couple of times, but once again it was hard to sit still. Eventually, I tried exercising a little, and then took a shower. By the time I got into the shower, I wasn't really tripping anymore, but one thing I noticed was that I was noticing details in the shower that I had seemingly never noticed before. Especially the ceiling. Had I never even looked up before? The shower was very relaxing, and in general, at that point I felt very relaxed, like there was no rush to do anything, which I liked because usually I feel some invisible pressure all around me. I made my way to the kitchen. Though I wasn't in the least bit hungry, I figured I should eat something since I hadn't eaten much that day. At that point, things had calmed down a bit. I made my way back to my room, smoked some more weed, and eventually went to sleep. One thing I noticed after the high from the acid started wearing off was that I was feeling kind of anxious, and the next day I felt pretty shitty for most of the day. All in all, a great experience. At no point did I feel like I lost control over my mind and body, which is sort of what I was hoping for. It seemed like the trippier aspects, such as the wall paint and the lamp, I had to actively engage with. There definitely wasn't anything bad because as I stated, I didn't really lose control. The other disappointment--though I shouldn't even use that word--was that I didn't have any great revelations or thoughts whatsoever. That was surprising. One question I have for more experienced trippers is how much prep needs to go into setting the environment and mood for the whole experience? How do I tap into the deeper aspects? I went into the experience wanting to ask some questions, but by the time it got started I was just on a roller coaster of energy. It definitely would have been nice to trip with a lady friend, as I felt that my libido was definitely aroused, but I was by myself so nothing to do about that. Thanks for reading and any input! I'm sure my experience was "normal" but I can't help feeling like I squandered an opportunity for something greater due to my lack of adequate preparation. Thankfully, this is only the beginning.
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Thanks for your thoughts and suggestions! I took another dose and I'm starting to get the hang of it. The physical sensations are really overwhelming for a bit. I'm starting to wonder if part of it is not having eaten enough beforehand. Once I'm on it I don't really feel like eating, but at the same time, I can feel myself getting weak as though my blood sugar is too low. What is your thought on eating before, during and after tripping? You're definitely right about the natural lighting. I stepped outside for a bit, and to my delight, it was surprisingly bright out, despite it being night. And I love watching the trees wiggle.
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