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Tempalonomous
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no escape
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dont read if you dont want to read about a strangers problems.
there is no escape none at all its just dull sadness with stress in every direction. im an adult now who is lost in all senses I feel like a hollow shell of what would be some satisfaction i feel like some of this rhymes im literally a fucking lunatic who cant take it anymore my brain is fried but what causedd it? the lsd the weed maybe im just born to die. my uncle has passed 2 days ago and I cant even cry but I feel all the sadness inside me just dying to escape, a tear would feel great but all that comes out is a blank stare into space. only sometimes im like this other times im alpha people told me they thought i was too cool for them to talk to until they actually got to know me. they say I look like a drug dealer or someone who is shy. which one is it bitch fuck I hate it all im just sitting here typing my thoughts as soon as they appear. i drew these with my new drawing tablet my mother gave me for christmas.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
Edited by Tempalonomous (01/05/20 06:09 PM)
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Buster_Brown
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Gee. What's a cure for teenage angst?
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Sorry to hear about your depression problem. How long have you been feeling like this?
Have you tried to seek professional help at all? What about trying mushroom self-therapy?
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wrestler_az
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i'm just surprised there's still people who like slipknot.
best you can do is try get used to it. get good at it.
become one with the suck.
depression is a skill.
sorry about your uncle.
-------------------- how's your WOW?
Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Dextroverse
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well, you sound upset
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Shroomslip
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Slipknot is still my favorite band.. I really doubt that's ever going to change. The "slip" in my name actually comes from "Slipknot".
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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wrestler_az
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i like em too, i guess. or used to anyway. i don't know, just talking shit.
-------------------- how's your WOW?
Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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Tempalonomous
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I only like a small portion of their songs and I don't like them I love them. Duality,psychosocial,unsainted,wherein lies continue, snuff, the devil in I.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Tempalonomous
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Suicide or to lie to ourselves and fake what we think we know and feel.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Buster_Brown
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Hmm.. A ripe opportunity for possession by a spirit who values the advantages of youth and beauty.
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feldman114
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The second one. Most of my day is just lying to myself and putting on a mask for the people I interact with.
My advice is find little fulfilling pleasures in life...I prefer white-stemmed, gold-capped pleasures lol.
Welcome to adulthood.
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PatrickKn


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Tempalonomous said: Suicide or to lie to ourselves and fake what we think we know and feel.
False dichotomy. Just be yourself.
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Phantom45
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Yap adulting sucks the big balls just gotta fake it til you make it bro feldmans got the right idea. Alls i got is my wife my kids my job and my hobbies and a ass load of bills
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Tempalonomous
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My medication vyvanse makes me happy alongside,, well really anything if I take it. Bonus happiness if I double dose. Caffeine sorta helps too. Phenibut sorta chills me out but not as greatt as It once was.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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PatrickKn


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Yeah, taking a smorgasbord of stimulants regularly is also a recipe for long term depression and anxiety and doesn't actually make you happy.
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BabylonRuleDem
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PatrickKn said: Yeah, taking a smorgasbord of stimulants regularly is also a recipe for long term depression and anxiety and doesn't actually make you happy.

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Buster_Brown
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We know what the first thing the spirit will do that possesses him, taper off the drugs.
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Tempalonomous
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No. without them I am nothing. no fun. defective.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Buster_Brown
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Jesus said that to gain a life you have to lose it. Theoretically then there's more to gain by giving up your old habits than you'll lose by keeping them.
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Tempalonomous
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Meaning of life is happiness. My medication gives me happiness, granted it only lasts till4-5pm if taken at around 7-8am
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Through careful, thorough deduction I’ve come to realize life is pretty great, it’s people that suck..
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Buster_Brown
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The meaning of life is entertainment, you cultivate advantage and preserve it. Suicidal thoughts means something's wrong in the cultivation procedure.
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Tempalonomous
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YES
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Jokeshopbeard
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Quote:
Tempalonomous said: Meaning of life is happiness.
This belief is the most perfect path to misery I've seen all week.
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Dextroverse
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akathisia relief is great, also the path to get the $$
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Tempalonomous
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You are stupid. That is literally the only reason any of us do anything.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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feldman114
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Quote:
Tempalonomous said: You are stupid. That is literally the only reason any of us do anything.
Ok you’re 14 for sure. Only people who are happy have dementia...
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Tempalonomous
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yes
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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Ima Trooper
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Just anecdotal evidence, but the period of my life where I was taking Vyvanse I turned very angry. Vyvanse made me hit rage pretty easily after about 6 months taking it.
Best thing I ever did was go to a psychiatrist and got on Zoloft. Late teens/early twenties is a rough time. Don't feel like you're lesser for taking something that smooths that out, you're probably already self-medicating, it's not much different except that it's a lot better.
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Tempalonomous
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I am not self medicating, I do not even smoke weed anymore. Once I turn 19 I am going to self medicate with alcohol for sure though.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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That’s a terrible idea.
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christopera
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I'm not trying to be a dick, and I understand that you're feelings are real and important, but when I was 18 I didn't know shit about life. Hell, I'm almost twice that age now and I'm still confused as fuck. Sure I've figured a lot of things out over the years, I'm by many measures fairly successful at life, but I'd be lying if I said it's all somehow easier or more clear. Life can suck, but don't let it beat you down. Try to position yourself in ways where you can enjoy your experiences, where you can love your friends and family. Take it one step at a time, don't dwell on your failures because failures are a big part of the process, and try to keep on growing.
There is one sure fire way to feel a little bit better though, and that's to ditch Slipknot and never turn back. That's because they suck.
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feldman114
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Tempalonomous said: I am not self medicating, I do not even smoke weed anymore. Once I turn 19 I am going to self medicate with alcohol for sure though.
You think you can replace amphetamine salts with alcohol? Pffff I wish. If you don’t think the amph is fucking with your head, stop taking it for 3 days.
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Tempalonomous
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I will not ditch slipknot as they have songs that are very motivational. I appreciate your words as they are helpful but the slipknot thing is not true. Listen to the first minute of "unsainted'Quote:
feldman114 said:
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Tempalonomous said: I am not self medicating, I do not even smoke weed anymore. Once I turn 19 I am going to self medicate with alcohol for sure though.
You think you can replace amphetamine salts with alcohol? Pffff I wish. If you don’t think the amph is fucking with your head, stop taking it for 3 days.
I can go a full week without my 70mg vyvanse and I feel fine, it doesn't work like that for me. I just dont feel motivated. now ithdrawl
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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feldman114
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Lol that IS the withdrawal. Everything is either boring or irritating. Nothing really matters. Life is a 40’s black-and-white movie about your tragic life.
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Tempalonomous
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Oh, well the withdraw is not that bad then I just play video games and am dull im not in pain and im not that irritated just dull. I don't mind it at all.
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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tyrannicalrex
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Tempalonomous said: No. without them I am nothing. no fun. defective.
This is not true. I hope you find your way without or with minimal meds.
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O_Dweeds
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Little fact: Video games studies over the last two years have shown a fairly high release of dopamine when playing; especially the more intense games that really absorb you/require high attention like first person shooters. Some of the individuals had levels of dopamine release that matched or beat lower dose opiates. The study where this was shown was conducted by the military on soldiers coming off opiates after recovering from injuries.
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Tempalonomous
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I have over 4000 hours in cs:go
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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feldman114
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Omg no way, counter strike is STILL around? Jesus. I haven’t played videa games in like 5 years and it was a super old game even then. That’s one loyal fan base..
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Tempalonomous
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Yeah. you ,may be thinking of either the original cs or cs source. cs:go has evolved quite a bit though. I currently am Legendary Eagle mostly because I mess around
-------------------- Whatcha gonna do with a big fat but?... wiggle wiggle wiggle. doo doo doo do do do Ladies and Gentlemen, I now present to you... THE OFFICIAL DEXTER TRIPPING PLAYLIST! My Tripping Playlist Many centuries ago, there existed a formation of man. This version of us was of great power and great enlightenment. There came an evil presence known as the Babylonians. They are said to have reconfigured our DNA to make the majority of it void. This has encapsulated us in our limited, selfish ways. To seek truth we must tune our minds to the right frequency and only then we will truly know what to do.
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