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Tempalonomous
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Registered: 10/08/19
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I'm a zombie now
#26416282 - 01/04/20 04:30 PM (4 years, 25 days ago) |
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I can't laugh but really never could for as long as I remember but after being on all of these meds for so long making me have crazy ups and downs that is not natural I just want to disappear. My uncle who I looked at as a father just died and I can't even bring myself to a single tear. I am hollow at night but if I have a shit ton of caffeine and my stimulant med then I am a confident person but it never lasts. I hate everything. I just turned 18 on Dec 30 and live on my own now.
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Shroomslip
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I was like that when my mom died, at least at first. Took awhile to really sink in and it started me on a bad downward spiral.. me and my mom weren't really close so that probably had at least something to do with it. Then a couple months later my grandma also died. She was basically my mother, raised me from birth and I had the bond with her most people have with their mother. I was already kind of unstable because of my mom, but that really pushed me over the edge. Very dark period in my life.
I dunno how long it's been, but it could all still be coming, you'll just be sitting there one day and some random thing will kick it all off.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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SunnyD
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spirit_shadow
Feature not a bug



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Re: I'm a zombie now [Re: SunnyD]
#26417559 - 01/05/20 01:28 PM (4 years, 24 days ago) |
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The person I loved most in this life(my father) died unexpectedly new years eve of 2018. I get it. I hate everything as well. Nothing matters. There is no right or wrong way to deal with shit like that. Just know if anything you have some people on here who get it and will be more than happy to talk to you. <3
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Cujllickduo



Registered: 06/13/15
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most things in life are terrible for the not-knowing person whose whole life overalls around sex i guess you should play guitar or something to make your minds at ease or exercise alot.
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