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Orioncat
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1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned 1
#26413388 - 01/02/20 10:13 PM (4 years, 27 days ago) |
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I originally wasn't planning on writing a report for this one and unlike my other two trips, I barely took any notes. However, I did learn a lot on this one and it complimented my last trip very nicely.
Here We go: Date: 1/1/2020 Time: 1200 Dose: 1.9 Grams Albino Penis Envy Myself: 200 Lb Male Location: Beach. Home.
Notes: I skipped breakfast and lunch. I drank about 2 1/2 glasses of grapefruit juice. I had a single, light toke of weed about an hour prior with marginal effects felt.
I made a few notes during my trip but nothing very extensive, especially once I settled in.
I had originally planned to take this trip in the woods on a walk with my wife and kid but we opted to meet up with a few friends and their daughter at the beach. I had my reservations at first as this area is a popular state park with a decent amount of foot traffic but this ultimately turned out to be a wonderful decision.
Let's begin.
The Trip:
I sucked down my last 1.9 gram dose of PE at 1203 and then left very shortly after in the car; with my wife driving of course. I was a bit anxious about going to the park and potentially running into people. I honestly thought this was going to be a low level 2 trip and a nice relaxing walk with everyone. I have much to learn.
During the car ride, my wife and daughter (who is 5) were listening to the Frozen 2 soundtrack which, unlike myself, I found quite loud and it grated on me. I don't think it was the mushrooms as I wasn't feeling anything yet but I do think it was the anxiety.
We arrived at the park about the same time I noted that very recognizable feeling of the mushrooms kicking in. The time was 1238.
We got out of the car and worked our way to the trail head. No visuals yet but I was very level 1 at this point. My wife recognizes some people she used to work with and chats with them for a bit, then leaves me by the trail head to go look for the friends we were supposed to be meeting. As she's doing that, some other friends of our family also recognize us and start chatting with me. This is what I was anxious about. It is a small town after all and everyone knows everyone... but I powered thought it and don't think I made too much a fool of myself. My wife meets back up with me and is now with the friends we were supposed to meet in the first place. She had told them that I had taken a bit of shrooms. Being the awesome friends they are, they led the way, knowing a good spot for me to go sit.
We work our way down the sandy trail, through the dunes, and into a grove of shrubbery and vegetation. Slight visuals had started at this point and the vegetation began to come alive, swaying and shimmering. It brought on a very connected feel with nature. I began to slow down and fall back a bit from our group, letting other hikers behind me pass with only a nod and a smile.
We walk for about a mile and come out of the vegetation to this big wonderful dune overlooking a large swath of vegetation, the beach dunes down by, well, the beach, and the ocean. It is covered in vegetation, wax myrtle, prickly pear cactus, sea oats and other maritime grasses. Realizing that this is the spot they were leading me to, I spoke up, saying I was going to go off the path a bit and find a place to sit. They went on up the trail and ultimately out to the beach so the kids could play.
I then found myself alone with nature, and this is where I began to learn my lesson. As I looked out, I saw the grasses and vegetation swaying and moving, finding myself in deep thought about whatever I was looking at. Past the dunes and peaceful, inviting vegetation was the ocean and the torrential inlet that connected the sound to the ocean. The water looked violent, turbulent, unforgiving. Past the inlet, all the way in the distance, was the lighthouse, barely visible. It became a focal point for me. A beacon if you will as corny as that sounds. Above it, the crescent moon occasionally hiding behind some high cirrus clouds. As I focused on the moon, I began to notice geometric patterns in the blue of the sky. They stayed fixed in relation to the moon and did not move when I moved my eyes or head. It was like the perception of the moon was the cause of them.
It was all so beautiful. A wonderful, living balance of beauty, life, violence, the celestial. It was almost like a fantasy painting of a beach on another world but the beauty of it was that this is the Earth. The Universe. And we, as Carl Sagan would say, are a way for the universe to know itself.
I remember picking a piece of prickly pear cactus, its spines ready to defend it. I looked at it, held it in my hands, studied it for what seemed like hours. It was like it was the first time I'd ever seen a cactus. I was so fascinated with it. It was beautiful, organic, but prickly and violent. Balance. I was a very wonderful level 3 trip.
At this point I tried to write on my notepad but all that came out was: "I have no Idea what time it is. I feel... well, this is almost like a painting, I just want to sit and enjoy it."
A time later I try to write again: "I'm finding it very hard to focus on any one subject and perhaps I better quit interrupting this lesson that nature is teaching me."
After about what felt like 5 hours (was only an hour and a half), my wife calls me saying the kids are tired and ready to go home. I pick myself up and walk across to the ocean where I meet them on the beach. The wind was blowing a bit and the waves were crashing making a wonderful, powerful sound as they impacted the shore. I play with my daughter on the beach for a bit, finding a wonderful compassion inside me for her. We slowly make our way back to the car and get ready to leave. Our other friends have left at this point.
Sorry, I didn't expect this one to be that long... we're about halfway through.
So we're riding in the car, I'm sitting in the back with my kid having the time of my life interacting with her and the Frozen 2 soundtrack comes back on... Now, unlike the ride to the park, I am absolutely loving it. Jamming out with my daughter and wife having the most elated time. Feelings of love, compassion, family... all those things you tend to forget when you get wrapped up in your daily life... they were shining through.
We got back to the house and I was greeted by Miso, our cat, who proceeded to jump up on the car windshield. He's been in every one of my trips. My cheshire cat. His fur was wavy, alive, and slightly purple(He's black).
We go inside and my daughter wanted a snack so I pulled out some frozen blueberries and pomegranate seeds for her. Well, she had never seen a pomegranate before and thought the seeds were the coolest thing. Se asked me why the seeds were covered in yummy fruit and I told her because the plant wants you to eat it. Then I posed the question to her to get her thinking. "Why do you think the plant wants you to eat its seeds?" We worked on that for a bit eventually leading to the discussion about seeds spreading by dung. I was so happy and excited to be teaching her about the world, watching her figure things out and discover new knowledge. The mushrooms allowed my mind, which is normally very logical and structural, to come down on her level of spontaneity and playfulness. I don't know why that tends to be harder to do
All this time, my trip is starting to fade, my head was getting tired it seemed. That was until I ate some blueberries and pomegranate seeds. The sugars went straight to my brain and gave it more fuel and the intensity came back up.
As the afternoon went on, I found myself spending a lot more one on one time with my daughter and her mood was just as happy and positive as it could be. We often get wrapped up in our household chores and adult lives that we forget to really spend more time with our kid. Balance.
Balance was absolutely the theme of this trip. But this lesson very much compliments my last trip in which my ego had died, I was experiencing eternity and found it quite boring. I didn't understand what to take away from it at the time, feeling a bit lost by what it was supposed to mean but now I understand. I look at these two trips as one. This one was very exciting and visual, and wonderful and the other was very bland and boring and that was a level 5 trip. Balance.
I am going into the new year with the intent to balance my life. Take the boring with the exciting. I need to learn to experience and perceive more beauty in my life. In regards to my daughter, the mushrooms allowed my mind, which is normally very logical and structural, to come down on her level of spontaneity and playfulness. I don't know why that tends to be harder to do the older you get but it seems like our minds become less "plastic" and tend to harden in their set ways. The mushrooms are like adding water to dried out playdough except it tends to dry back up again in a rather short while.
I finally was out of the trip around 2000. I close with what I wrote at 2002:
"Wow, what a day. I was left alone on a dune for some amount of time in which I had an amazing experience looking at the ocean, the torrential inlet out to the lighthouse at the cape and the moon rising above. i feel like I learned a lot. I came to the realization that, in contrast to the "boring" eternity of the last trip, this was a wonderful experience of nature and beauty. This showed me the other side of life and the balance between the 2 sides. After a time I hiked down off my dune and across to the beach where I met back up with [daughter] and [wife]. I then, for the rest of the afternoon, connected and bonded with [daughter] but down on her level. it was amazing. It will be interesting to see what I remember in the morning."
Thanks for reading.
Keep learning.

the view from my dune.
-------------------- Things I've learned so far: Death with consciousness can be boring. Balance is important. Set intentions, not expectations. Sad trips can be helpful as well as challenging trips. Stick with your first dose. We learn more when we listen rather than speak. Be kind. The small moments in life that tend to go unnoticed are sometimes the most beautiful.
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Re: 1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned [Re: Orioncat]
#26413412 - 01/02/20 10:37 PM (4 years, 26 days ago) |
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Awesome read
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Re: 1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned [Re: Whyterye]
#26413873 - 01/03/20 08:46 AM (4 years, 26 days ago) |
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Great read, no need to apologize for its length. Glad you had a wonderful time and your insight seems similar to mine from my new years trip (regarding the playful, spontaneous, child-like wonder of it all).
Happy New Year and here's to your next adventure
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Re: 1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned [Re: Orioncat]
#26414149 - 01/03/20 11:12 AM (4 years, 26 days ago) |
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Wow what an inspirational write up. Especially how you got to your 5 year old daughters level of spontaneity. Beautiful, man 👊🏻
I’m just reading Michael Pollan How To Change Your Mind. In it he talks about “being” versus “doing”. He got the concept from a 5-MeO-DMT (toad venom) trip. The night before the trip his wife and he argued. She wanted to discuss something she was upset about and he jumped straight in with his checklist of things she could try to solve the problem / solution etc. She got angry at him and they fell out. All she wanted was for him to sit there with her and hear her concerns. Being rather than doing.
This touched a nerve, because it described me with both my wife and my daughter. My next trip intention is therefore obviously to focus on being.
Like I said, OP, beautiful man. Thank you for sharing. You’ve inspired me to improve my being ‘ doing.
DJ Ed
-------------------- “It’s like when you see a mountain lion,” he suggested. “If you run, it will chase you. So you must stand your ground.” Michael Pollan: How To Change Your Mind “The problem is not to find the answer, it’s to face the answer.” Terence McKenna

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Orioncat
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Re: 1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned [Re: DJ Ed]
#26414863 - 01/03/20 06:11 PM (4 years, 26 days ago) |
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Thank you and everyone on this thread for their kind words.
DJ Ed It's funny you mention "How To Change Your Mind" as I was just thinking about it this morning. I had seen an ad for the book and after reading your post, well, I'll just say it was ordered within 10 minutes of me reading it. I am really interested in hearing about your next trip and how that goes. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and please keep in touch.
-------------------- Things I've learned so far: Death with consciousness can be boring. Balance is important. Set intentions, not expectations. Sad trips can be helpful as well as challenging trips. Stick with your first dose. We learn more when we listen rather than speak. Be kind. The small moments in life that tend to go unnoticed are sometimes the most beautiful.
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Re: 1.9 grams Albino PE, New Year's Day, Lessons learned [Re: Orioncat]
#26415468 - 01/04/20 02:47 AM (4 years, 25 days ago) |
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Quote:
Orioncat said: Thank you and everyone on this thread for their kind words.
DJ Ed It's funny you mention "How To Change Your Mind" as I was just thinking about it this morning. I had seen an ad for the book and after reading your post, well, I'll just say it was ordered within 10 minutes of me reading it. I am really interested in hearing about your next trip and how that goes. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and please keep in touch.
Of course I’ll keep in touch Orioncat, I’ve found some truly inspirational people on here.
You won’t regret the book; it’s blown me away:
- apparently he’s already famous as a journalist in the states, so people have sat up and took note because it’s him authoring the book
- he writes in an easy style that makes you want to turn the next page
- he has done a stack of research on the history and put it down in an enjoyable, coherent account
At the same time I ordered an H.P.Lovecraft set of short stories, (Whisperer in the Darkness), recommended by Aldebaran. This is to introduce me to the concepts of religion and existential horror. Can’t wait....might help make sense of a ridiculous liberty cap trip 30 years ago 😱
Next trip is planned for next Friday 10th Jan, though this may involve tripping with a very good old mate. That will definitely get a trip report.
Mush love, DJ Ed
-------------------- “It’s like when you see a mountain lion,” he suggested. “If you run, it will chase you. So you must stand your ground.” Michael Pollan: How To Change Your Mind “The problem is not to find the answer, it’s to face the answer.” Terence McKenna

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