I started off with mushrooms, but they were hard to find and I couldn’t grow them at the time, so haven’t tried them as many times as I would have liked.
I tried DMT and acid, but didn’t like LSD, since my first dose was a low one and not much happened. It made me think in a more “world peace” way and like it was the late 60’s-70’s. I didn’t like it because it seemed like a tool people use to think more like me for their own benefit - but I can already think like that.
I was in school (college) at the time, so couldn’t always afford to think like that and about that stuff, because I had homework. If there was enough time in the day, one would be able to think about the kind of stuff acid makes you relatively simply. But there isn’t always that much time. Acid puts you in the mood for it instantly.
I read all books about psychedelics.
But I made a mistake a few years when I wrote a letter while stoned off weed+LSD. This time it was two tabs.
Basically I did an experiment. I was researching the Beats and hippies (which reminds me of hip replacement surgery).
So the groove acid put me in facilitated a “Neal Cassady” experience.
When I showed people, they didn’t get it, and thought that’s how I really wrote, despite just getting out of university and typing normally the whole time, is the only way I can explain the past few years of my life.
So I thought about it more.
Then considered maybe they were expecting some ground breaking discovery.
But this was already after I used my DMT. I just didn’t post what I wrote about that yet, and posted the “fun” LSD based letter first instead, so that they thought that’s all there was. The secret is, I was planning to publish a book of my written work, and the LSD letter was just a “test” to observe people’s consciousness and the way they think. Most people haven’t studied the laws of physics, so they seem to be pulling desire and possibility out of thin air, which is not what I do at all (technically, although I do do it “sometimes”).
There was discovery in it.
So now when I post my DMT journals, someone says it doesn’t count because it isn’t literature or written with characterization and dialogue, which was never really my goal or how I felt like pushing my limits.
Getting off topic.
So my plan was to publish a serious, academic, written work, but when you post online for free, it ruins everything.
You have to be careful.
It doesn’t seem worth the effort anymore.
Was the project sabotaged at all?
Once I did acid around Halloween and when I went outside, you could see it was fall, and there were leaves on the ground which immediately reminded me of pieces of shit or discarded candy bar wrappers, which my brain made the connection with holiday, candy, etc, so that it all really happened at once without my volition. It was like opening a door to a frightening scene. However, I just thought it would be a funny-ish joke.
The other thing is that recently I said one aspect of my LSD CEVs were orange lights, as described by Leary in the Psychedelic Experience based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead. This was when I took two gel tabs and had to lay-sit down, closing my eyes for ten minutes. I later remarked it looked like candy corn, incidentally, so our traditions of venerating the dead through all saints’ and souls’ day could have a connection with it.
Knowledge of that book made understanding what was happening there faster, although I still would have known. I tried DMT as my first psychedelic, so I use it as a guide for other stuff, if possible.
Long story short, I used to think there was a secret club (and there was) where if you know you know.
There’s no reason why all these people should know what they know, or have the knowledge of sacred texts that they do.
It used to be that things were a secret, and the Illuminati would kill you if you failed a mission or talked.
But now, everyone wants to be happy friendly, for some reason, and merely share information.
So wouldn’t it better to just come outright and say Halloween is based off the psychedelic fairy mushroom and LSD tradition? The Fairy world is known for being closest to earth midsummer and hallow’s eve. So that would make sense. Does anyone have similar experience?
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