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DJ Ed
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Amazon delivery during 3.7g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ peak 1
#26366254 - 12/07/19 04:17 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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3.9g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ No lemon juice, so poured over boiling water, mixed with orange juice, and simmered for 20 minutes. Drank at 4:30p.m. Followed by a small glass of orange juice. Insulin left at 100%. Didn’t drink all the glass, so probably juice from 3.7g. ============= Ann and Hannah at the Trafford Centre, me in the house with Max and Skye. The come up felt more intense than the last two ceremonies. I again put Hawkwind Space Ritual on, and listened to the end. Sat lotus position in front of the fire. Kept having to switch the fire off then on again. Kept feeling things walking behind me, making me jump. And the music was quite 3D so Sonic Attack was freaky. The come up felt like 5g. Really scary and intimidating. Kept the blanket wrapped around me, but felt floored by the mushrooms. Ended up lying in front of the fire with the blanket wrapped around me. No dancing this week! ============= I was thinking about letting go for ages. Takes so much courage to just let go; I’m here like, come and do what you must. As soon as I did let go, I felt better and the intensity started changing into something less intimidating. Laid there on the hard concrete, I floated away, and started feeling eternity, my connection to the universe, the realisation that I exist simply as consciousness. This was going to be my first ego death that I haven’t resisted, and let’s see where the magic takes me. ============= Then it happened! Somebody knocked on the front door; loudly and aggressively. The dogs went mental. And what was worse is that time was really dilated, it seemed to be going on for ages between each knock. It took me a while to realise what the heck was going on, wrenching me roughly from that floating in eternity place! I started advising myself “you don’t have to answer the door”! It could have been a politician canvassing for next weeks general election for all I knew. Another really loud aggressive knock; then another. Maybe it’s my neighbour. I had to answer it. Had to get the dogs in the living room, opened the front door, and there was this giant Asian Amazon delivery driver with a parcel for my wife! ============= I freaked. My first reaction shock, disbelief, and I suppose anger. I didn’t want to be angry at my wife because shit happens. Then it dawned on me this happened two weeks ago also, and I begged her to make sure it never happened again. But the confusion I was left with was immense. I could not work out what was happening. Was the trip over? What just happened? The whole ego death aspect didn’t come back, and it took me about an hour sitting in another room away from the dogs and the music, to sort of come down and be unconfused. The delivery driver turned up at exactly 3 hours in, so it must have been the absolute peak. But by 4 hours in, I realised I was still tripping balls, and I could carry on with the exploration and self-therapy. ============= I had prepared 4 joints. Started smoking them now, and put a couple of Shpongle albums on. Sitting there with eyes closed, I was walking through corridors of my mind, easily retrieving long lost memories, working them out, then filing them. It was like loads of buried unconscious memories were now available to me; with my increased capacity for creative thinking, I was working out what the memories were, then putting them to bed, so to speak. I concluded that it’s pointless focussing on the bad stuff that you can’t change, but instead to focus on the stuff I can change. Like a real old mate who I’ve lost contact with over the last few years; I’d blamed him as a close friend for aspects of my depression, just as I have with other people close to me. The mushrooms showed this to me such that I want to get in touch with my mate, go for a drink with him, and touch base. ============= My wife got back at 5 hours in; I was still going strong. I explained how fucked up the delivery had been, and how it affected me. At the time, it literally felt like my brain and or mind snapped and that it had done some damage. But I also said I wasn’t telling her because I wanted to make her feel bad or guilty;rather, I was telling her so that we both can be better prepared in future to ensure I stay undisturbed for the duration of the trip. ============= All in all it was a really useful trip. A few things that have occurred to me about last night’s trip are the following: 1. I have taken 3.8g at fortnightly intervals for about 4 trips now. On my own. Each trip has got stronger! Why would that be from the same batch of dried and frozen mushrooms? 2. The fear and anxiety are important to be able to get to the higher levels, where the magic really starts to happen. The point in the trip where you get to the realisation that resistance is futile, you sit cross legged in the lotus position and decide to just go with the flow, that’s when it gets easier, and where you can then use your mental abilities for the next couple of hours to explore your mind and consciousness. 3. Why was the come up from “orange tek tea” so much different from “Lemon Tek tea”? ============== What advice do you guys have for me? What the f*** happened last night when the delivery driver knocked. Why was I so confused and why did it take an hour to realise that I was indeed still tripping (tripping balls in fact)? Why do these same dose same setting trips seem to be getting progressively stronger?
Until the next write up, take care y’all. And thanks for any words of wisdom you may have ✊🏻 DJ Ed
UPDATE: at 30 minutes after drinking, I knew it was going to be really strong for only 3.7g. I decided no grass until I was coming down. So went to the back door for a cigarette. It was really dark. The dark part of the sky suddenly became a fractal mesh. The neighbouring houses looked really bright and misshapen. In the cloudy part of the sky, the cloud morphed into like the Michelin man tyre thing. Arms outstretched facing towards me. It’s mouth opened revealing sharp pointed teeth, a mouthful. It slowly but deliberately reached down and bit a chunk of the sky, and house tops. I looked away, smoked some fag, looked back, shit it was still there still eating. You don’t need to see that shit at 30 minutes in! So I put the fag out, went back inside, wrapped my (oh so comforting) blanket around me, and carried on through Space Ritual to the ego death.
Edited by DJ Ed (12/07/19 02:46 PM)
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Aldebaran
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Re: Amazon delivery during 3.7g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ peak [Re: DJ Ed]
#26377507 - 12/12/19 03:29 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Somebody knocked on the front door; loudly and aggressively. The dogs went mental.
Damn that must have been a shock, I'm not surprised it left you feeling confused. I think tripping and sober are two different mindsets - it takes a while to adjust to a trip, especially a strong trip, and if you are suddenly jolted back to reality and have to interact with a stranger it must really interrupt the flow of the trip.
"Delivery for DJ Ed"
"But I didn't order anything, what is it?"
"I don't know, but it's about the size of a barn, and it's glowing."

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I was thinking about letting go for ages. Takes so much courage to just let go; I’m here like, come and do what you must. As soon as I did let go, I felt better and the intensity started changing into something less intimidating. Laid there on the hard concrete, I floated away, and started feeling eternity, my connection to the universe, the realisation that I exist simply as consciousness. This was going to be my first ego death that I haven’t resisted, and let’s see where the magic takes me.
It's good if you are feeling more relaxed about 'letting go' in your trips; it's always easier said than done. Not sure about the hard concrete though - I prefer a comfy bed!
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The dark part of the sky suddenly became a fractal mesh. The neighbouring houses looked really bright and misshapen. In the cloudy part of the sky, the cloud morphed into like the Michelin man tyre thing. Arms outstretched facing towards me. It’s mouth opened revealing sharp pointed teeth, a mouthful. It slowly but deliberately reached down and bit a chunk of the sky, and house tops. I looked away, smoked some fag, looked back, shit it was still there still eating. You don’t need to see that shit at 30 minutes in!
You are getting some good visuals in these trips - I'm not jealous, honest I wonder if the tea and the quicker onset helps with this? I usually trip on sclerotia which takes a while to digest, and the open-eye visuals only really get wild when the trip is approaching the peak on a strong dose.
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The fear and anxiety are important to be able to get to the higher levels, where the magic really starts to happen. The point in the trip where you get to the realisation that resistance is futile, you sit cross legged in the lotus position and decide to just go with the flow, that’s when it gets easier, and where you can then use your mental abilities for the next couple of hours to explore your mind and consciousness.
I agree you have to be able to accept a measure of fear or anxiety as something normal at higher doses, especially during the onset. Maybe one reason your trips are getting stronger is that you are allowing yourself to go deeper each time, exploring further and resisting less.
Hopefully your next trip will be peaceful and uninterrupted 
-------------------- I wrote that, but I meant something else
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DJ Ed
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Re: Amazon delivery during 3.7g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ peak [Re: Aldebaran]
#26377572 - 12/12/19 03:52 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thank you, Aldebaran, appreciate your feedback. The hard concrete was a one off! Last few weeks I’ve been siting there by the fire with the dogs swaying to the music then dancing. This trip floored me, but I wanted to stay in the living room. House to myself, so don’t know .... the stereo is better! Always end up in the conservatory though, my chill space.......

The visuals. Yes they can be strong, and can be intimidating. Jesters, evil clowns, monsters/elves/goblins/god knows how to describe them....thousands sometime, always coming towards me. But these are nothing compared to Liberty Cap visuals. It’s a level above cubensis, inanimate objects like my dragon............. or plant, come to life.

. I agree you have to be able to accept a measure of fear or anxiety as something normal at higher doses, especially during the onset. Maybe one reason your trips are getting stronger is that you are allowing yourself to go deeper each time, exploring further and resisting less.
Hopefully your next trip will be peaceful and uninterrupted
I agree I’m getting more confidence after years of psychedelic scars! I am sooooooo optimistic. And especially, thank you for the well wishes. My next trip is Friday, 20th December. Might go from 3.8 to a full 4.0g for the pre-Christmas “let’s see where the ride takes me” ride!!!
Thank you as always for the feedback, DJ Ed
-------------------- “It’s like when you see a mountain lion,” he suggested. “If you run, it will chase you. So you must stand your ground.” Michael Pollan: How To Change Your Mind “The problem is not to find the answer, it’s to face the answer.” Terence McKenna

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Re: Amazon delivery during 3.7g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ peak [Re: DJ Ed]
#26395756 - 12/22/19 02:57 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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How was it to interact with the delivery man? I find it extremely hard to interact with a stranger, specially if it were as unexpected as this. I'd probably not have answered.
Did you try to appear sober, or you didn't mind what he thought?
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Re: Amazon delivery during 3.7g dried Psilocybe Cubensis B+ peak [Re: Lazaro]
#26396670 - 12/23/19 01:48 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Lazaro said: How was it to interact with the delivery man? I find it extremely hard to interact with a stranger, specially if it were as unexpected as this. I'd probably not have answered.
Did you try to appear sober, or you didn't mind what he thought?
The actual interaction with the delivery driver literally only lasted moments; enough for me to open the door a crack, recognise he was a delivery driver nd take the parcel. Think I muttered thanks. It is when I closed the door that lots of different emotions overpowered me. The main emotion was confusion, there was a bit of sadness for shouting at my dogs, and there was a bit of anger at my wife. I firmly believed that this same thing happened two weeks prior on my last trip (my wife assures me it hasn’t happened before, but I still can’t accept that, I’m convinced!!!! Was it deja-vu?).
Did I try to appear sober? I don’t think so! By the time I realised tht I would have to open the door, I just needed to solve the puzzle of who it was!
For me there were 2 particularly difficult aspects:
- time dilation - it took what felt like an eternity before I realised the banging and the dogs barking was somebody at the door
- confusion - it took an hour after the delivery to realise I was still tripping. After that, it became easier and I carried on listening to Shpongle and self-analysing.
Should have been my two week follow up three days ago on Friday, but after a heck of a week at home, I chickened out. So planning for this mid-holidays Friday for next trip - should not be any deliveries between Christmas and new year (though may be sensible to persuade ALL family that I’m not available!)
Mush love, DJ Ed
-------------------- “It’s like when you see a mountain lion,” he suggested. “If you run, it will chase you. So you must stand your ground.” Michael Pollan: How To Change Your Mind “The problem is not to find the answer, it’s to face the answer.” Terence McKenna

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