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HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report 3
#26363786 - 12/05/19 07:51 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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I recommend reading until the end because it becomes more interesting over time.
Trip started Wednesday the 4th at 3:05pm. 11 days since my last trip (3g). I recorded my thoughts until 4:31, at which point it became too intense and I just closed my eyes and laid back.
3:05pm ingested 5g 3:30 some very subtle visual distortions 3:48 clearly seeing many visual distortions now 350 feeling very light and happy part of my body is lifting up 350 color distortions looking at white text 351 drinking water seems extremely weird 352 can see intricate things when i close my eyes 354 hard to keep track of things enough to write things. autocorrect saving my life rn 355 really getting the ability to swim in music now 356 can’t focus on anything. Very high heartbeat and weird feelings throughout my body. Might be hearing small things don’t know very very clear visual distortions 358 imaginations vivid, can almost see things w eyes open 259 feel the drug using reigns and taking over 400 getting sucked into videos watching 401 body esants to close eyes and go to imaginary realm 402 I can almost move in my own head 403 closing ,y eyes looking at thihngs. lookd like I had a nosebleed even though I didn’t, red just keeps flashing 405 HUGE wave just hit me, got a bit scared but it’s fine 406 second wave pretty big but not nearly as big. I can kind of get waves to come by holding still 406 I can feel my mind fighting the drug for control over me 497 huge huge waves when I close my eyes, visuals clearly distorted 408 can almost see myself meeting a god 409 huge very scary wave. Time just slowed down. Really a part of videos im watching on computer 411 huge wave hands feel super fucking weird 413 hearing sound of teapot 414 quite nauseous 415 walls def breathe can be scary to close my eyes but often can’t look at smith interesting a wave will start ti come so long bc 416 can see environment transform g around me 417 can just look at nothing and listen to music and be super entertaoned 417 really being taken somewhere it’s a bit scary 419 world is a bit scary bc I seee flashes of things where they shouldn’t be 421 very scary can really feel body going places 427 waves going acorsss vision can start to really hear music 431 life is like a memoir
From there I closed my eyes and started going places based on the music I was listening to. When Kendrick would come on I would go to the hood, when Kanye would come on I would scale mountains and go into space in my head. I knew that I was tripping and it was fun.
After that, however, I really felt my mind losing control to the mushrooms. I could no longer deduce if what I was hearing and sometimes seeing was real or imaginary and my brain started fighting extremely hard to retain control even as I tried to give in my brain wouldn’t let me. I’m a very curious person and I always like to thing I’m in control of situations I’m in so I think it was a shock to my brain.
At this point I felt the most amount of terror I have ever felt in my life. I felt I finally understood what people living under constant fear of death or being attacked feel. I just wanted the trip to end, and if I had Benzos or antipsychotics I certainly would have taken them. I regretted ever taking the shrooms. This was unusual because I’m a generally not a fear-prone person in any regard, so I had no idea how to handle it.
Finally my brain succumbed to the mushrooms. At this point I felt the best I’ve ever felt in my life. Not just happiness, but every amazing emotion was amplified x10. Really every manifestation of what could be considered a positive emotion or thought was incredible. Even if fear returned, I was completely content with it and I didn’t care at all about it. i’m not sure if it went away ever really, my heart was racing the whole time, i just couldn’t give two shits idk how to describe it like even things like pain no longer felt bad (i bit my lip a little too much out of curiosity lol). I could still feel it but i wasn’t bothered by it. I was euphoric because I cared about literally nothing. I could have died right there and I wouldn’t mind. I was fully convinced I was developing schizophrenia and didn’t even mind one bit. Truly a unique experience.
The sense of self-worth I had was unreal. Think of the biggest accomplishment you've ever had, double the feeling of self-satisfaction you felt after that, and imagine feeling it for a couple hours straight.
At this point, things started to turn negative again. I saw different versions of how my life would play out including a life of misery and sadness. I saw awful things that I would experience. But I wasn’t unhappy. I felt that I needed to see this, that I needed to experience what I was experiencing and that I was doing something good by suffering through what would happen.
I realized that I can be blinded by ambition and that I don’t appreciate all the luck I’ve had to be born in a loving family, without mental illness in America and educated at prestigious schools. For my entire life I’ve always gotten angry at any piece of bad luck I’ve had because I’ve wanted to always be the best. I realized life itself is beautiful, and even being alive is such a statistical oddity it might as well have a 0% chance of happening. I was completely angry during the day because I probably got an A- in a class due to getting only one more question wrong than I needed to get an A, but even now it barely bothers me, I think due to my experience on mushrooms.
I then saw my life play out in a positive way. I saw myself rich, powerful and happy.
Coming down, I went back to going places in my mind based on the music. For a few hours after the trip, everything felt dull and even music sounded like shit. I couldn't sleep for a little while because my mind was RACING even after my mental state was fully back to normal. My vision was also still a bit fucked until I slept around 1:30AM (I took a double dose of melatonin to help).
During the comedown, I would say to myself in my mind "hello I'm a person from another dimension talking to you." This freaked me out but as I came down more it became easier to see it was just me testing myself. It's interesting how we know when we're talking to ourselves versus hearing voices in our head, but on shrooms I thought maybe I was hearing voices because I just couldn't tell.
The oddest thing for me was the change in perspectives that I experienced. I understood what it was like to have different mind states, think like different people and my mindstate would transform so quickly from what it’s like to live as one person to the next. It’s very odd coming back to reality after caring about nothing, too.
I feel like our brain puts up walls to protect us, and shrooms break these walls down. I kept having the feeling that I was on the other side of some barrier, like I went to the zoo but instead of looking at animals from the outside I broke the glass and went inside the exhibits.
At no point did I ego death. I always understood that I was me.
Overall I would say this was a completely positive experience and I’d recommend it to anyone who’s mentally sound. But be prepared for intense terror.
Edited by Korean Jesus (12/05/19 07:59 PM)
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Korean Jesus]
#26363994 - 12/05/19 10:14 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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.. At this point, things started to turn negative again. I saw different versions of how my life would play out including a life of misery and sadness. I saw awful things that I would experience. But I wasn’t unhappy. I felt that I needed to see this, that I needed to experience what I was experiencing and that I was doing something good by suffering through what would happen.
I realized that I can be blinded by ambition and that I don’t appreciate all the luck I’ve had to be born in a loving family, without mental illness in America and educated at prestigious schools. For my entire life I’ve always gotten angry at any piece of bad luck I’ve had because I’ve wanted to always be the best. I realized life itself is beautiful..
Welcome to shroom land. Sounds like you had a solid trip this time!  Maybe now, after experiencing high doses of both, you understand the difference between shrooms and lsd. Lsd is fun, too, but shrooms are a real teacher.
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Pandemoon]
#26364403 - 12/06/19 07:03 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Beautiful trio report. Was definitely a good read. I have yet to take the plunge within a 5g dose. I've taken 4.5g and it seems as if its about the same ballpark as 5g when reading your report.
I tend to think about extremely sad thoughts when I get into these states.. followed by bliss and laughter. It's an emotional rollercoaster. I always think about my mom. How close we are... but how much we bump heads and argue.. things I shouldn't be saying to my mother.. and it tends to turn my trip upside down.
I think about death a lot also. And it usually scares the fuck out of me. I have dreams of dying and my last seconds are "this is it".. then I wake up. So fucked up. Mushrooms do amplify this.. but in a different manner. I'm able to digest things different and able to understand to not be so hard on myself. To love myself. Enjoy this experience.
Stop worrying so much. Mushrooms put your through hell, and then tuck you in your bed and give you a kiss on your forehead. It's a strange, strange thing. But afterward is when you really do become grateful for a lot of things. And the first thing I usually always do, is call my mom and tell her I love her.
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Korean Jesus]
#26364414 - 12/06/19 07:10 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sounds like you had a solid 5 gram ride. Thanks for sharing
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Antigov]
#26364592 - 12/06/19 09:25 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Reading all these trip reports, I realized that shrooms hit me much harder than all of you
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Korean Jesus]
#26364602 - 12/06/19 09:29 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks for the trip report, Korean Jesus, it was fascinating.
So after a couple of days to reflect, how would you now compare 5g mushrooms with 200 LSD?
Cheers, DJ Ed.
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: DJ Ed]
#26365260 - 12/06/19 03:05 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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DJ Ed said: Thanks for the trip report, Korean Jesus, it was fascinating.
So after a couple of days to reflect, how would you now compare 5g mushrooms with 200 LSD?
Cheers, DJ Ed.
No contest. 200ug puts me in a place where I can interact normally. People who know me know i’m on something, people who don’t think i’m retarded. I have full control over my thoughts and my headspace. It’s like being drunk but with wonderful colors and better motor skills.
5g was something else. Very little control and no desire at all to be social.
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Korean Jesus]
#26365276 - 12/06/19 03:10 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Huh? Since when is 5g a heroic doze? What’s 7g then? 10g?
Great write up though, makes me wanna
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: feldman114] 1
#26365431 - 12/06/19 04:33 PM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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feldman114 said: Huh? Since when is 5g a heroic doze? What’s 7g then? 10g?
Great write up though, makes me wanna 
Heroic is anything >5g, I think McKenna is the one who coined it but I'm not sure
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Korean Jesus]
#26366192 - 12/07/19 02:22 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeh it was Terence McKenna that coined the 5g dry heroic dose in silent darkness. To me it is pretty arbitrary, though I would say the higher the dose the stronger the trip. There doesn’t seem to be a limit in what mushrooms give; the more you take the more they keep giving.
Great trip report dude. DJ Ed
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: DJ Ed]
#26366471 - 12/07/19 08:44 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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I need to take the plunge on the 5g coaster. But just don't have the right sce to do it right now. Might just dose today during the day with about 4g or so.. I've been wanting to trip just havent been able to find the time.
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Re: HEROIC DOSE – 5g dried cubensis shrooms trip report [Re: Vibe_Enthusiast]
#26368410 - 12/08/19 06:53 AM (4 years, 1 month ago) |
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Let us know how you got on / get on bro.
You have to be prepared and in your safe place for 5g; just as you do for 4.5g 👊🏻
Take care, DJ Ed
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